CHARM GIRL LOVE (CONGRAT)
Because Women Want to Understand

I woke up from the daydream when I heard the voices of two men from outside, chatting. I got up to look at it. Where knows, they are also guests or acquaintances of Mami who want to visit. After the door opened, I was surprised to see Sobirin with a friend standing right in front of the door. And the man who was wearing a green army bomber jacket was no less surprised by me, if seen from the look on his face.

"Yara!" he said while pointing at me. Make sure about what he's looking at. "You're Yara, right?"

"Sir, how do you know this mother?" ask him, Sobirin. 

"Bang Ega! How come you're here?" many wonder. Before he could answer that question.

"It's really Yara" he said with a smile, as if still in disbelief. "What are you doing here?"

"Mas Sobirin, please take care of Mami for a moment! It's this guy's business."

Spontaneously I immediately pulled her arm and carried her away away from the front of Mami's room in the hospital. After walking some distance, I immediately charged him with various questions.

"Why is Bang Ega here? Why know sobirin? What is Bang Ega's relationship with Sobirin, ha?"

Hearing my questions, Bang Ega seemed confused to answer.

"Why are you silent, huh? Come on, answer me!" I don't know why, I feel emotional when I see it. My tension suddenly rose and my emotions overflowed.

"Who would answer first? If you also have that kind of emotion," he said gently and felt guilty.

Hearing her soft words made me feel a little embarrassed. Just realized that Bang Ega did nothing wrong to me. Why should I be angry with him. Maybe I was just too overwhelmed by the feeling of being disappointed in his friend who had lied to me for years, so I vented my frustration at him.

"Sorry, if Yara was sassy. Yara's got a lot of thoughts." I lowered my voice intonation and lowered my head to look at the floor.

"Oh, it's okay. Oh, aye. Who else is sick?"

"Bang Ega doesn't know yet?" I dared to look back at him.

I saw him shake.

"The booby has not been told?" ask again.

"Brother?" He looks like he's remembering. " Oh, yeah. Sobirin said her mother was sick, again treated here. Are you brother to a mannequin?"

I took a deep breath. Feeling relieved. It means that Bang Ega does not know if the sick person is Mami. Fortunately, he did not get in. If not, it could be a long affair.

"What does Ega know about Sobirin?" I asked again out of curiosity. What is the relationship between the two of them? Why did Mommy never tell you? He always told me about his children.

"Oh that, he was a brother once on the ship."

"Member?" I repeated what sounded awkward. Why did he call Sobirin a member. Then he's the boss, dong. As far as I know, that guy just graduated from college and hasn't worked yet. 

"Office?" I repeated his words again which sounded awkward in my mind.

"OKAY. Okay. I'm honest now. But let's talk it downstairs to relax. We can copy first. Okay?" He offered.

I accepted his offer and followed where his feet went. We went downstairs using the available elevator. I don't know if anything was pushed by Bang Ega earlier so we arrived at a different place. On this floor is not like a hospital in general anymore, the atmosphere. It looks like Mal. Many food vendors gathered in this place. And we entered one of them to sit down.

"Sorry, Ra! Earlier. Actually what you want to tell me is a very private and confidential matter. But, according to my brother, you also need to know. Because it has something to do with you."

"What is that, Bang?"

"About Johar." 

Degh's....

All of a sudden my heart was pounding like an electric shock after hearing that name he mentioned. Anyway, I miss him a lot. Sometimes I feel lost, but not stuff. And sometimes I feel frantic, but not money.

"What's wrong with Bang Johar?"

"Look, Ra! You know why we didn't meet you two years ago?" askinya.

"Look. The first is because you went to Surabaya. And secondly, because you have no intention" I replied.

"No, that's not why. But, because at that time the Johar was detected being infected with an infectious disease, so we canceled to visit. After the ship docked in Batam, we went to Surabaya just to make an excuse for you. Si Johar is afraid that if you find out he has the disease, then you'll go away from him. And Si Johar wouldn't if it happened. During his time in Surabaya, he also had time to seek treatment there. However, he has not completely healed."

"If Bang Johar can't come, why don't you come too? Supposedly, brother can come alone and say directly if bang Johar can not come. Maybe you don't know what it's like to endure that longing like, what! Pain, Bang! Be ill. Especially after a long wait, what we hope it does not come. It hurts to the bone, Bang!"

With that said, my tears came. Feeling relieved because of the burden that stuck in my heart and mind all this time answered already. Apparently, Bang Johar had not been lost in the swallow of the vast ocean, but he was sick and had to be treated intensively.

"Maybe you don't know either, with you breaking your promise, there's someone's future at stake. What a pity the fate of that woman, who had hoped too much with love, she ended up lost."

"Goddess?" Bang Ega went straight to the topic.

I nodded and told her everything after she asked. I also explain the reason why the Goddess to do that until pregnant.

"I'm old, Ra! I'm already old. I am just like any other woman. I want to get married, have a husband, have children and have a happy family. You know, Ra! Why I did it. That's because I'm very disappointed with Mas Ega. He's liar. He's trickster. He promised me he would come to propose and marry me. He also promised to accept me for who I am. But, where's the evidence? All men are the same. All crocodiles. Not this time, Ra! I was lying to a man. I am tired of being cheated. When another man came closer to me, promising to grant all my dreams, was I wrong to accept them?"

At that time, I could no longer answer the question of the Goddess, because I had also felt the same way long ago. When Bang Diki promised to grant all my dreams, it turned out to be a fake.

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