Clear Ember Love
132. Small Debate

"Sir...!!! What do you want after marriage?"Ask Dew while carving the chest of the Arjuna field with his index finger.Entah what he was writing in the field.They were wrapped in the same blanket after finishing sweating together.

"Hmmmm, I don't just want to live a quiet life with our little family".Arjuna said as he rubbed the top of his wife's head gently.

"That's it?"Dew asked curiously because that was all Arjuna wanted.

"Yes that simple".Arjuna said casually.

"If it's a child, how many children do you want?"Ask the Curious Dew.

"Hmmm...!!! Right now brother just want to enjoy time with you and Arsy first.So about momongan we postpone first huh?!".Arjuna said a little hesitating for fear of making Dew disappointed.

Instantly the Dew was stunned and did not immediately answer the question Arjuna.Entah why his heart seemed to be pinched when hearing the words Arjuna who wanted to delay pregnancy.Grown could not deny but could not immediately agree to the words Arjuna.Hati little also wanted to feeling the figure of a mother who feels pregnancy, childbirth and breastfeeding like the nature of a woman² out there as if she disappeared.The face of Dew immediately pias and violently he swallowed his slavina.

"Why dear, do you disagree?"Tanya Arjuna who seemed to know the heart of Dewun who arrived² just fell silent without a word.

"Hmmm..!!! Can Dew know the reason?"Dewun asked Arjuna by staring in the sweetness of Arjuna's eyes.

"Darling, I just want to spend time with you that was wasted in the first place.Bukan brother does not want to have any more children, he said,but brother just want to postpone first after brother is ready we think about the program to get pregnant.Where?"Arjuna asked after explaining how he felt.

"So I mean, aren't you ready to have any more kids?"Ask Dew Ketus.

"So...!!! honey that's not what you mean.Sister is not just afraid....!!! Ah no..!!."Arjuna said trying to explain but stopped because of something he could not express.Arjuna looked frustrated and closed his eyes tightly.Arjuna was weakened, He did not want to damage his honeymoon just because of this problem.

"Darling....!!! true brother is not ready to have children in the near future.Give us a year to enjoy each other together, we are together,Your brother and Arsy.Not a selfish sister but there is a reason you can't reveal because it's too much for you."Arjuna said softly explaining to Dewun.

"Yes but what brother, what's that excuse?"Dewun asked still could not accept Arjuna's explanation which he felt was absurd.

"Darling, please don't be like this.So don't want to ruin our honeymoon with something like this".Arjuna said trying to calm the Dewun.Embun snorted annoyedly and turned his body back to Arjuna.Arjuna also began to organize his frustration by throwing his breath rough.

"Darling...!!!!"Said Arjuna touching the shoulder of the Dew.But the Dew sniffed his shoulder and arrived² got up from his sleep and walked towards the bathroom.

"Glam...!!!"Upset Arjuna while rubbing his face rough.

"Darling....!!!"Call Arjuna a little hard but Dew remains unmoved.

"Darling....!!! Don't be like this, brother please."Arjuna said pleading with a clear face.

"Darling....!!! Don't be like this!".Arjuna said he was worried to see the woman in front of him grieving.

"So why do you make your own decisions.While we are married, why brother, is not it SELFISH?"Dew said with a tone that began to rise.

Arjuna who heard the sound of the rising Dew could not hold something that he deliberately kept secret.

"Because I'm still traumatized".Arjuna said with his voice that was not at all high from the Dewun, it made Dewun immediately speechless to hear Arjuna say that.The face of Arjuna blushed with eyes that had condensed.Embun was glued,he never saw such great fear on Arjuna's face.Sorot his eyes said that he was very afraid of something happening to Dewun.

Arjuna looked down while exhaling his breath berahan to withstand the tightness that arrived² made his chest hurt.Arjuna sat down and pinched his forehead which seemed to make his head feel heavy.While Dew did not dare to voice and ask something to Arjuna after he hearing Arjuna who felt his voice like that, he swallowed his rough slavina and he just looked at Arjuna with a guilty look.

Tiba² Arjuna cried while bowing his face with his palms covered with his face as if he did not want to show the Dew of his sadness.

"Sir...!!"Dewun said as she approached Arjuna and sat beside Arjuna by touching her husband's shoulder.

"Darling...!!!!!"Tiba² Arjuna hugged the body of the Dew tightly.Grow surprised and narrowed his eyes.

"What's wrong with sister?"He muttered, but he returned Arjuna's embrace.

"Darling...!!!"Brother scared...!!! Said Arjuna crying in the arms of Dewun.

"Yes..!! I'm afraid why brother?"Ask the Curious Dew.

"Sister is still traumatized by pregnancy and when she conceived Arsy she left her sister for eternity.Now sister is afraid of losing you".Arjuna explained what he was afraid of all this time.Hearing what Arjuna said, Even he fell silent and there was a feeling of guilt for forcing Arjuna without thinking about his pain that he had been alone all this time.

"Darling.forgive Dew!"Dewun said he cried because he was sad to see Arjuna still feel trauma that has not healed.Diluar Arjuna looks good² only but in his heart he keeps his own pain without anyone knowing what the pain is all along.

Finally they embraced each other and cried together after expressing what they felt at this time.

"Pardon the Dew".Dew said wiping Arjuna's tears with his finger.

Arjuna just stared in the Dew and then hugged him back as if he was reluctant to take it off even for a moment.At this time Arjuna felt very relieved because he could spill the contents of his heart that he had been alone.

"Darling..stay with me like this don't ever change".Arjuna said with a face full of supplication.Gambun just nodded and held back his tears that would spill for the umpteenth time.His lips quivered because they held the tightness of his chest.However Arjuna loved Dewun so much that he was so afraid of losing Dewun.Arjuna sleeping on her lap Dew with tears still wet her cheeks.While Dew rubbed her hair and stared in the face of her husband who was so very much loved.Soft caress at the top of Arjuna's head makes Arjuna feel calm until he does not feel it he also fell asleep like a baby that was so comfortable in his wife's lap.