
๐ HEARTBREAK ๐
๐ถ I have to be alone for a while now
Patience will come the day even though I am tired
I'm afraid you don't understand
The way I convey this feeling
You don't understand
Teach me how to express my feelings
So that you'll believe it the way I need love
Again, again, this scratched my heart
After long time of storing this taste
Too deep, too deep,
Too deep
Teach me how to express my feelings
So that you'll believe it the way I need love
Teach me how to string words
So you'll listen to my lips say love
Now
I'm afraid you don't understand
The way I convey this feeling
You don't understand
So that you can believe
(For you to believe it when I need love) I need love
(Teach me to be able to string words) String words
(For you to listen) My lips say love
Now (Hate for myself, hate for myself, have to go on like this)
(I hate myself, I hate myself, I have to keep doing this)
I hate myself, I hate myself, afraid of failing to continue like this ๐ถ
Dinda stepped on the edge of the deserted streets of Yogyakarta City. For some reason it was as if there were thorns stabbing at his chest that had long felt nothing.
"I hate it like this! What am I, anyway? It sucks! Bima's sister sucks too! Reno doesn't believe me either. I hate them all!" as Dinda, walking with a stomping of his feet.
Dinda feels even being a follower of the Devil makes a state of siding with him. Though her face was beautiful, her body was slim, many devotees came to worship, even people who wanted to get the science of pellets studied at her. However, a young man like Reno alone could not be obtained.
Dinda also remembered Boy, a young man from across the country who was willing to live in Indonesia for her sake. Dinda disappeared and went to Boy's place within a few seconds.
"Boy ... Boy ..." - Og Dinda knocked on the door of the handsome man who adored Dinda.
"Dinda, you're back!" exclaim Boy while opening the door happily.
Boy's hug was very tight on Dinda's body, making Dinda stuffy. Dinda tried to get away from Boy. "Yes, I'm here. I'll say goodbye for just a moment" said Dinda, smiling as she looked like her teeth were white and neat.
Boy let Dinda into the house, "Yes, Dinda. Thank ye. I'm glad you're here. I'm almost desperate to think of you all day."
"No need to be more boy. I told you, we don't have any serious ties. So ... Don't expect me too much, huh?" dinda said as she rolled her eyes.
Boy a man from Korea who had met Dinda while traveling in Bali. At that time Dinda was with people who studied with her. Boy, without the influence of Dinda's powers, had already fallen in love since first sight. Boy approached Dinda. They enjoyed the sunset together.
"If I wanted to stay here, would you meet me every day?" ask Boy to Dinda.
"Depending, at least I'll try. Why emang? Don't want to go back to Korea?" ledek Dinda in men who have attractive dimples.
"From now on, I'll stay here. Later my confidant will take care of my residence permit and all my work schedules. I want to be with you longer, Dinda."
Things Dinda never imagined, there is a man who is interested without his knowledge. The innocent man gave up his days in wait. "Okay, but I don't promise to see you every day."
"Please stay here longer with me" Boy whispered to the woman he dreamed of being a life partner.
"I can't promise that. I'm afraid I'll disappoint. Promise not to be kept?" said Dinda makes Boy full.
As a businessman and magazine model, of course many women who want to be with Boy. Many are also willing to make promises to be able to attract the heart of Boy. Ever since his best friend's betrayal took a lover who's been with Boy for three years, the man doesn't believe anymore. Promises will be very painful if spoken, then can not be kept. It is better not to promise than to break a promise.
"Dinda, do you know if that's what made me fall in love with you the most. You never promise, but you always come back in my arms. I'm always waiting for you with open arms" said Boy, not feeling his eyes begin to condense.
"Boy, have you ever felt heartache? What is a broken heart like?" dinda asked who was lying on Boy's lap on the long, dark brown sofa.
"That heartbreak, that hurtful thing and it hit the deepest body. It was as if the heart was beating fast and even stopped beating. Then the world seems to collapse in your footsteps away from desire. Destiny may not be on our side, or it may be a mate not on the person we want to be. A broken heart is invisible, but it can kill slowly. Stop logic and even happiness. And difficult to heal. Tumben Dinda asked like that, what's up?" boy's reply made Dinda unblinkingly look at the face above his gaze.
"If you have a broken heart, you have to fall in love first?"
Boy laughs at Dinda's funny question, "Yes, if you don't fall in love, how would you be heartbroken? Who is Dinda in love with?"
The question from Boy made Dinda speechless. What is the definition of being in love? What is the difference between being disappointed and having a broken heart? Things that Dinda never felt even when she became human. The world is so cruel that Dinda doesn't allow that human feeling.
"No. You know I don't like to commit. I was just curious about that feeling. Even falling in love I've never been" said Dinda as she was in front of Boy. Boy always makes Dinda want to go home in his arms. Not for lust, but chatting all day without saturation.
"If you stay here longer, I'll make you fall in love. However, I won't be able to teach you heartbreak unless you leave me forever" Boy explained, leaving Dinda speechless.
It feels very hard to express. Whether it's just seduction or something that makes Dinda feel valuable. Never did Dinda think, if his mockery of Bima's feelings to Ningsih boomerang for him. This time ... tonight ... Boy managed to conquer a small heart and the remaining feelings on Dinda.
It was not Reno that Dinda wanted. Boy is the guy he's coming home to who will continue to make him comfortable to stay. Dinda smiled happily at Boy who then slowly kissed Dinda's forehead and dropped to his lips.
It wasn't just Dinda's red lips that Boy got. Dinda's heart, that night in Boy's arms. An ordinary man who has ever been heartbroken. Conquering Nyai Pellet who likes to spread charm on the opposite sex.
***
On the other side ....
Santi approaches his sister, "Reno! Listen to brother yes. Don't get close to Dinda. He's got a bad influence on you. I don't like it."
"What effect, brother? Parno. Ornagbsi Dinda also left right," replied Reno urgently.
"He seems to be after you. Brother's afraid he's wearing pellets. Now, you should drink this water, yes," said Santi while offering a bottle of water
"Gawur aja, Brother! You can't just say to know. If you don't like it, it's okay but don't accuse. By the way, what's this water?" look Reno grabbed the bottle.
"This is bidara water for self-sufficient ruqiyah. If you are nauseous and dizzy, it means that there is a disturbance from supernatural beings. Yes drink. Let brother be calm and your relationship with Nindy is not disturbed anymore" Santi said.
Reno did not want to fuss at night, she followed her brother's word to drink the water in the bottle until it ran out. Instantly the nausea and dizziness made Reno almost fall. "Sister, I'm going to bed. I've drunk this, right" said Reno not to say what was felt.
"Okay, Brother is going to sleep too. Good night Reno" Santi said.
Reno went straight into the room and locked the door. He rushed to the bathroom and vomited. There was a black and sticky liquid coming out of his mouth. Alongside Reno's nose was spitting out blood, nosebleeds.
"Shit! I why is this? Don't-don't really say Santi. Then Dinda used that shaman? Aish ... shit!" reno grumbled in the bathroom in limp condition. After he finished spewing out his entrails, Reno lay limp in the room.
It felt like contacting Santi, but Reno did not dare. Contacting Aunt Ningsih is not possible because there is Om Bima, it could be offended about Dinda. Reno also contacted Bang Joko because she did not dare to disturb Nindy who must have fallen asleep.
Reno: [Bang Joko, are you sleeping?]
Joko: [Not yet. What's up Den Reno, tumben?]
Reno: [Call him Reno. Bang please Reno dong. Can I go to the room?]
Joko: [Okay. What up. Bang get there.]
Reno: [Please bring some warm tea, Bang.]
Joko: [Ready!]
A few minutes later, Joko knocked on the door. "Just in, Bang." said Reno.
Joko brought him a glass of warm tea and eucalyptus oil and balm. He thinks Reno is sick. "Would you ask for a crack if the body is not good? Bang can kok ngerok and mijit," proposed Joko while putting hangan tea on the table.
"Bang, I want to talk but don't tell anyone? Promise yes," said Reno.
"Yes. What the hell is it? It's tea first" Joko said as she helped Reno sit down for tea.
"Bang, look at this. Beep all," Reno said as he opened his shirt.
Joko was surprised to see Reno's body filled with bruises like a man who finished bawuran. "Couldn't you? What is this Reno? You're not fighting, are you?" look for Joko who was horrified to see the wounds all over Reno's body.
"Bang, Brother Santi thank you for drinking bidara water for ruqiyah mandiri. Then my body's reaction was instantly nauseous and dizzy. Until the vomit out thick and sticky black liquid a lot. After that, these wounds appeared. Why me, Bang? Don't tell the others, Bang. Pleases. Nindy too don't let her know," Reno's terrified.
"Jeez, Reno. Bang doesn't want to be smart. But as far as Bang knows if drinking bidara water and the reaction is this severe, you have been bullied by supernatural beings huh? Or until wik wik same supernatural creature? Severe this," explained Joko.
Seriate....