Don't Call Me Om!
A Short Story of the Past

"he's.."

"i'm the omnya, and you don't ever appear before me again", Ramon saw Aksa's departure.he did not believe, the friend who used to be so close now hated him so much.

Aksa pulled Karin's hand, her long footsteps overwhelmed her.

"om, loelin is sick!". karin tried to take off Aksa's hand grip, but could not.

"om, pelein!", Karin jerked Aksa's hand.

"if om angry, please om angry with girlfriend om, please tonjok that cheating.not even venting anger om to me".

Karin could not bear to see Aksa's behavior.

"you go home!", Aksa left the car in the hotel's parking lot.

karin came home in a taxi.

**********

"rin, where have you been?". mama Erin was so worried to see the new carin coming.

"karin had studied together with meen ma".

"you usually call first if you want to go home late".

"sorry ma, karin forgot. karin up first yes ma".

"yes, get some rest".

Arriving above the karin saw Aksa's room which was right in front of his room.Doubtful he held the doorknob, it was not locked.

'click'

look the same spacious room with a room that is karin occupied. rooms nuanced old ash, some unique furniture adds to the masculine value of minimalist design room. in the corner of the room there is a pair of tables and chairs facing directly out the window. Karin walks looking at the wall of the room, but there is not a single photo of Aksa there. Karin sits on the chair and opens her window, the view of the sunset is so beautiful. the balcony overlooking the sunset makes the feel of the room slightly orange.

'amazing.one word was enough to describe Aksa's room.

Karin saw some books on the table, some books about architecture, hospitality, management neatly arranged there.Karin saw a drawer that was slightly open when he wanted to close it, karin saw a white envelope there.

'it's very presumptuous that I open this envelope, but Aksa's not here, it doesn't matter that I'll clean it up again'

karin opened the envelope slowly, though,

'Deg's'

to my Love Aksa

Aksa, I deliberately sent this letter because my number has been blocked.

why didn't you meet me, I know, you must have heard from me.

are you disappointed? are you angry hmm?

I was too afraid to meet you in person.I chose not to tell you, I was confused.

forgive me, I can't choose between you and my parents.

forgive me for believing in her, asking you to learn to love me.

but after that, I let you down.

it was not an easy decision for me.

I pretended to be tough in front of my parents and my future husband, but every time I was alone, I cried lamenting my fate.

deep down, I still love you Aksa.

very selfish, right?

I love you, but I will marry someone else.

thank you even though we were so short together, but I know you love me too.

forgive me my sweet bear..

I hope you're not traumatized, and open your heart to another woman.

you're a good man, even if you're cold sometimes.

if you want, be there, but maybe then, I'll just cry to see you. Promise me after this you'll live better.

can I be honest?

as I write this, I cry. I don't understand, I know that I still love you Aksa Brixton Hudaverdi.

Jasmine ❤'s

Karin trembled reading word for word that decomposed there, deepening into the lines of the sentence.her tears could not be dammed anymore.

"karin". Erin's mother's voice startled Karin, immediately folding the letter and putting it in the drawer.

"mama?".

"you why hm? why is it here?".

"emm. anu. ma.

"you crying?", mama Erin cupped onto Karin's face and looked into her eyes.

"let's tell mama, what's wrong, son?". Karin felt very calm when mama erin stroked her long hair.

"mama... can Karin ask you something?".

"of course. why baby?".

"Jasmine?mama knew him?", surprised to find the movement of mama Erin who had stroked her hair stopped because of her question.

"ma'af ma.. karin no.". karin's remarks came to a halt when mama erin hinted herself to silence.

"it doesn't matter honey, you know jasmine?". karin shook her head

"then?". karin hesitates to say it.

"ma.. can Karin say one thing to you?".

"of course it's okay, baby, let's tell you. What makes you cry?".

"mama won't be angry?".

"no, let's take a breath, exhale and tell me".

"i.. I like Aksa ma", karin plays her nails and reluctantly looks at mama Erin. because there is no response, karin looks at mama erin who smiles at her.

"really?", karin nodded slowly

"i don't know why I could like om, but only a few times met. I brushed aside all these feelings, considering that om wouldn't like a little girl like me. Our age is 10 years adrift. I tried to avoid my feelings, but in vain."

mama erin smiled to see that karin was adorable, that was karin who looked crying, now her attitude has returned to normal.

"is this the first time you feel it?", karin nodded

"do you want to tell Aksa?", Karin shook her head

"let only me and my mama know, after all, that Aksa has a lover ma, and it's not just one, two ma, two", karin pressed the word two while showing her V-shaped finger.

"do you know her boyfriend?",

"hm, and I and om caught her boyfriend cheating on me".

"then what makes you cry? shouldn't you be happy that her boyfriend is having an affair?". huh she should be happy that she has a chance of getting close to Aksa.

"Jasmine". Karin mumbled slowly.

"do you want to know who Jasmine is?", Karin smiled at Erin's mother's question

"listen, Aksa was a cold man, never close to any woman, she focused on work and college. Jasmine is the daughter of Mama's friend, Aksa's only female friend. Jasmine loves Aksa, Aksa is very stiff but mama can see that she loves Jasmine very much, no longer her cold attitude.not how long, Jasmine is betrothed by her parents. Aksa was devastated, he did not say it but mama knew when the night she was alone and drinking alcohol.he decided to go to Germany just the day before Jasmine's wedding, Jasmine, he acted as if nothing had happened, but in Germany, the thing you didn't expect, he turned into a playboy mama and papa told our men to watch him.he was flocking women, he was, go on a date with them even though she doesn't love him. From then on mom understands he's traumatized and like she doesn't believe in love." Mama Erin looked away.

'mama's story is the same as the contents of the letter, so actually between Jasmine and Om Aksa there is no farewell word'

"do you still love Aksa even though you know the truth?".

'there's nothing wrong with it, but what if it turns out that his heart is blind? he will not be able to see the love of others.What if his heart is dead? she won't feel the love of another woman.'

'om, should I give up? or should I try to keep you from being traumatized again? can I replace Jasmine?'s position?'

"i'm. I'm confused ma".