Don't Love Me Again
Bungling

" huh finally reached home, I checked inspiration first to ascertain whether he was still asleep or had been awakened all stock diapers in his room"

I walked closer to the room of the only child I now had, slowly pushing the closed door I finally saw my son who was still asleep facing to the right, with a feeling of relief and calm seeing the sweet face of inspiration while asleep I stepped back to my room as well as Irfan mas room. I found his face that had fallen asleep with the pajamas he had been wearing after the shower earlier, without waiting for a long time I who have been overcome by extreme drowsiness finally decided to rest so that tomorrow I can still make provisions for mas irfan.

" ctinggg ctinggg" an incoming message notification creates a vibration in irfan's mas phone, I slowly pulled the phone from behind the pillow she was sleeping on and saw the message from who was so presumptuous to disturb my husband at night like this

" ready good night boss" with emoji sticker heart-shaped red he gave the message to mas irfan, my heart immediately beat very fast

" heart emoji? Who is he why mas irfan only named his contact with the letter C only but there is no way mas irfan playing love behind me first he who chased me until I was devastated by his struggle. Mas irfan is very dear to me and he will always be so, it could be that it's just a friend or subordinate is better tomorrow I just ask who C it is so that I don't have a bad prejudice"

Some mixed feelings inside me tonight but I don't want to make myself worse by thinking of the impossible then it's better if I just rest my body.

*his*

It was still dark, just that many beautiful chants were said from several mosques near the windi house, the windi who had just pressed his alarm clock found himself waking up a quarter of a minute later than usual

" jeez, geez, I am late to do tahajjud prayer even though I have the intention of Allah, sorry, windi"

Windi hurried to his closet to open it to pick up a pair of sacred skirts and clothes to wear and rushed into the bathroom

Water at dawn feels very refreshing body and mind. I rushed my bath as quickly as possible so that other work could be completed, but not yet when I was about to wear new clothes someone knocked on the bathroom door

" win let's quickly win you think you want a job that wants to find money for your needs"

" i'm almost done with this"

Brukkk the sound of a fist crashing on the outside door of the bathroom I was occupying

" huh you this is all catapult business and there is a right gaperna"

Even though the speech was faintly uttered by mas irfan I could still hear it from within. I slowly pulled the doorknob to open it until I saw the face of Irfan who had shrunk unnaturally in front of me

" i'm sorry I took a long shower"

" didn't bother much of a stale saying I'm tired of your apologies"

"Huffffttt" I took a long, long breath to calm my mind which was still a little boisterous thinking about the words of the irfan mas earlier

With the towel still tied all over my hair I went straight to the kitchen to cook food for irfan mas after this, I have to rush immediately because irfan mas does not usually shower at dawn means he will leave early to the office.

The sound of crying echoed throughout the room of the house seems like inspiration has been awakened from deep sleep at night.

I immediately ran to carry him with a long cloth to immediately give him the milk I had made earlier, with the kitchen work still unfinished forced me to do two jobs at once at a time

The sound of footsteps of someone approaching the kitchen room of course it is mas irfan who will already leave for the office

" win I'm leaving now and I'm going home late at night because your father gave me a tough assignment so don't bother me by calling me"

" loh masi morning masi really masi five o'clock instead of the office operation at 7 o'clock huh?"

" you know what your office business is it's just taking care of a rich old lady's house you know about this"

" jeez, I'm good, you're the same me"

" volunteer, you've left first"

Before Irfan left I tried to stop him

" have eaten you let your thin body fill up a little. Ntar I am wrong because your body is thin even though you yourself can not take care of yourself"

" i did mas"

My answer was short while sticking out my hand intending to crucify the hand of my husband who was about to leave

" i'm hunting now "

Back my mind raged by itself why mas irfan did not want me to touch again even just to shake hands

Back I thought of something that would not be possible irfan mas very loyal to me and I tried to recall the past with dead irfan mas matian get my heart that has been frozen but mas irfan succeeded dilute it with his romantic behavior.

" hmm I wouldn't think of it any better this food I give to the beggar in front of the alley later now I'll clean the body of inspiration first and go to the stall for just a debt to buy ingredients to make cakes.

I walked down my little house with my shoulders tied to the cloth to hold my inspiration, so that her tiny body opened up all the strands of cloth attached to her body to bathe her until the bath was over then I changed diapers and his nice clothes and give him powder and also oil that will warm his body

" yes one of my tasks is finally done"

The inspiration that was entering its active period would not fall asleep immediately in the morning after bathing so I put it back in my sling with a long cloth that rested its weight on my right shoulder.

Now is my time to shop to the stall for dinner today and also for tomorrow morning I make a cake so that I do not always bother mas irfan continuously.

" sir I can owe you first sir I want to buy wheat flour for cake"

" oh yes mbak this please this cake money two days ago mbak, semalem pas mbak called the most gadenger"

" uh yes, thank you, this is the money that is being saved, I owe you hehee"

After shopping, I set foot back to the house until I stopped to see fresh chicken pieces in front of my eyes.

" how many miles is this?"

" 50 mbs"

In my heart I mumbled again

"i only have the remaining 28 thousand money is only enough for half a kilo and the rest is enough for diapers inspiration or later I will ask for money on mas irfan even though 10 thousand only"

Suddenly I immediately ordered half a kilo of chicken that we will eat later tonight mas irfan would like and will not complain anymore with my cooking

I came home at exactly 7 am at home I immediately lowered the body of inspiration to play in his room and immediately cleaned all the rooms of the house that had collapsed like a broken ship.

With the right energy, I have to sweep mopping glass and wash clothes until the bed linen has been used for 1 month and I have to replace today also not felt when drying clothes, but also not felt, adzan duhur has been reverberating

" thank God Adhan has been reverberating and my homework has been fully completed but what I forgot yes it seems I forgot something "

I thought frowning my forehead forcing hard to remember what I had forgotten

" inspiration... How could I forget him, God"

Immediately I rushed to the inspiration room with a small run remembering my carelessness by leaving the inspiration alone with a time so long until the door opened I found inspiration

" inspiration.."