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Resistance Trainees! Rejun NCT Dream and readers
(Inspired by a dream in Worldview Star Wars)
️ The mention of phobias, not everything here is in accordance with the canon or Star Wars legend
An alternate (trilogy) universe begins now!
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Remember one thing, you're not alone
Someone is praying for you
Someone is watching over you
(My Hero - Super Junior's Leeteuk, EXO's Suho, & Kassy)
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A long time ago, in a galaxy far-far away ....
Your life on the Resistance base in a solar system with your planet is very different from your life on your home planet. That's obvious. Everything you can handle except your existing phobias. Even that was very noticeable on the first day you set foot there. It was because of the welcome. Even this deficiency left your seniors astonished.
"How did you pass the simulator test under these circumstances?" Commander Yunho of Red Squadron decided to ask you a question.
"I'm clogging my ears, Commander," you answered honestly.
"really? It's even harder. You know about that fear but still insist on getting in here, where do starfighters fly every day? What made you do this?" all you know is that he is curious, not judgmental. Of course, everyone who knew this would also react similarly to Commander Yunho.
"Because of my father. I want to continue the fight. Even though it is now peaceful, I want to take care of it. I want to be a pilot like my father was" you answered honestly.
"And whose father is that? I'm sorry, I haven't had time to read all your data yet" asked Yunho who was really curious.
"Heechul."
"W-what? Major Heechul? God, I didn't know she had kids. Then during the war ... How did you live without your father?" Yunho keeps interviewing you.
"Commander Yunho, are you really interested in that child?" Commander Leeteuk passed by and approached you.
"Commander Leeteuk, this is .. Major Heechul's son," the man sounded like he was complaining to Leeteuk. Why does it seem like your father had a mistake with him?
"Oh, I know that. He'll be great too" Leeteuk responded calmly and passed.
"Then don't-don't your hobby because of the war on your planet at that time?" Yunho asked again when you had not even answered his question before Leeteuk came.
"So, Commander Yunho, I can live because his father Renjun took care of me. He's a hangar guard in our town, arguably meritorious. Then, my phobia probably formed when I saw also hearing X-Wing fall in front of me and it turned out to be my father. Maybe ... That's what happened, I'm not sure," you lowered your head after previously trying to stand straight and firm in front of a Resistance commander.
"It must be heavy. I-i know. Before I experienced something like you, I also had a phobia of darkness. Though you know for yourself space is dark," Commander Yunho approached you and whispered. It takes you by surprise, not only do you get into Resistance with a phobia.
"I was also the subject of other trainees' banter because of it. But someone helped me reduce it. Now I want to do the same with you. I want to help you, while it's not too late" Yunho continued.
"Ah, Commander so bothered because of me," you feel bad about the offer. Curing a phobia is not easy and you know it.
"This is part of my job. Just think of it that way. No hassle, besides our job is much easier right now," he smiled, "Take me your uncle."
"I still feel a bit strange .. uncle? No, thank you, I will still call you Commander Yunho," you subtly refused to call him informally.
"As far as you. Today is enough, tomorrow morning we meet again here."
"Thank you very much. I'm out, Commander," you stand up from a sitting position, salute and then walk out the door.
"Now I believe he really is Heechul's son" Yunho murmured as he watched you come out.
"Do you have to be angry? 3 Hours of lectures?" ask Renjun who was waiting for you earlier.
"No" you answered with a smile.
"Then? Does he understand it .. your condition. God, why didn't you ever tell me? If you tell me his phobias aren't diminished but I won't mock you. I can protect you from that, "your best friend continued asking while walking beside you.
"I'm ashamed. That's the answer, Renjun. Ah, shit too. Why can't I hide it constantly?" you who have failed to hide your phobia grumble.
It was obvious what the jumping porg ended up falling as well. Still good thing the fall there is a catch, otherwise?
"Have it, I don't have a problem with that. What response Commander Yunho?" Apparently still curious. Today is full of interviews.
"Overstated. I thought he was going to be angry, his face creepy, though it's more creepy my dad anyway. He will help me" you said in a happy tone.
"That's good news. But how?"
"Let's go, I'll tell you tomorrow that I've experienced it." You and Renjun also part ways because your dormitory is different paths.
As promised, early in the morning before your training began, you came to the commander's room. A woman you know as Commander Taeyeon of Magenta Squadron welcomes you.
"Oh, you're Commander Yunho's favorite son, huh?" that sentence confused you.
"Eh, it doesn't seem like it, I am just an ordinary trainee and want to see Commander Yunho," you replied politely. A favorite child out of cowardice, where is it? It should be the score when entering who became a favorite. That just makes sense.
"Calm down, all the trainees who have achieved so far have been good, dear. Come in," Taeyeon opened the door even wider so you could enter. You stepped foot with a little hesitation, still the same as yesterday.
"I heard you need a lot of help?" the female commander followed you after closing the door, "sit down, she'll be here any minute."
"Yes, Commander. I have one rather disturbing problem," you answered sternly, but somewhat timidly.
"I've heard of your problem from Commander Yunho, it's quite confusing. Oh, but he also asked for my help to handle you. If you would have told him, there was me, Commander Lina-who would have just returned from her duties when you were about to take the deployment test, Commander Victoria, or Commander Irene. Maybe we could be as close as brothers?" Taeyeon made an offer to you too. He sounded like a counselling teacher at your old school.
"Ah, thank you for the offer, Commander. I'll tell you guys next time," you welcomed her gently as well.
"You're already here apparently. Ah, sorry for the delay," Commander Yunho came with Commander Leeteuk.
"He woke up beyond his alarm. Look, the boy is even more punctual than you," Commander Leeteuk teased his comrade and laughed.
"Yes .. sorry. I don't intend to delay waking up, but .. ah, that's it. Hey, have you prepared what needs to be prepared?" now the commander of the Red Squadron is looking at you. Quickly stand up from a sitting position and salute.
"I brought nothing but my intention to reduce the phobic reaction, Commander," you replied.
"What about courage? Is that still?"
"Still," you said confidently.
"Alright sit down again" Yunho and Leeteuk sat down before you, beside Taeyeon. You follow those instructions.
"Because you are phobic only in the voice, not the whole form. Perhaps the easiest thing to start from listening to the recording of the sound from seconds to hours then just to the real sound. We have 2 months before deployment and match test with starfighter. It was a simulator, again. It's just, it will affect your future. Your simulatorm test results on entry were good, weren't they, very good. Your physique is still strong so far. We will try our best to reduce or even eliminate your phobia however, the end result is still you who determine," Commander Leeteuk handed you a player, "Take that player." You immediately reach out and play the sound that is there. Just 3 seconds into the recording, you switch it off by reflex and keep it away from your ear.
"It's okay, don't be so hard on yourself. Do it slowly, second by second. You can do it" Commander Taeyeon encouraged you.
"Thank you, Commander Yunho, Commander Leeteuk, and also Commander Taeyeon." After that, you undergo daily endurance training by running around the field while singing yel-yel. Some physical exercise. Learning about starfighters, today it's your turn to learn about A-Wing. There are also several ways to use a blaster to defend yourself. During the break, you meet Renjun, as usual in the cafeteria.
"Well, really another solid day. Hey, can you still smile?" he shows a contrite upset face because you do not look tired after a day of study and movement.
"It's my dream and I'm living it happily. I'm not tired or at least .. not yet felt," you replied before biting off a piece of bread that you were holding earlier.
"My best friend is really unusual," Renjun chuckled and also ate some bread.
"That's it, isn't it? Ah, this morning he came to the commander's room. Is it true that he's coming in the back lane?" the noises that shake you make you stop chewing your food. Rejun who also heard that directly swallowed his food.
"It's unbelievable that he managed to keep 4 chances in the simulator test while he had a phobia."
"Hey! You have eyes, right? He clearly entered through the front door of the base with me. What back lane?" exclaim your friend without trepidation. Those of you who are too late to hold back their anger can only laugh.
"Why do people think I came in because of my family? Even Commander Yunho doesn't know I'm Major Heechul's son," you laughed wryly at the gossip.
"Prove that you have that ability. Oh, I can see it, the people who gossip about you will be your subordinates and you are the commander! Or worse ... they were expelled for not being able to control their mouths," Renjun continued to stab them with words.
"Sure, I'll do that," you add to the attack.
"Oh, then what kind of help was given by Commander Yunho?" your friend quickly changed the topic.
"To be exact all commanders. They're in coalition apparently," you put a conscious record player in your jacket pocket onto the table.
"They're asking you to listen to X-Wing's voice recordings?"
"Exactly. Slowly. Mmm, it seems to be called the exposure technique. Don't know, but I think it'll be effective" you said before returning to bite the bread.
"I'll help you. Distance will also affect. How about today you try to hold your hearing for 30 seconds at a distance, medium and close?" renjun Proposal.
Be that night, after a long training session, you and Renjun try to reduce your phobia. You two are in the back field and Renjun took a distance of 7 meters from you. You prepare yourself to listen to the sound.
"I'm ready, Run!" you said. He immediately played the tape for exactly 30 seconds. You can get through this one despite the urge to close your ears.
"You really hold it? Just tell me if you can't. Your honesty I appreciate because it's important," Renjun who's still worried about running gets you.
"I can stand it. Hm, how about medium distance?" you challenge yourself.
"Alright," Run according to him and set yourself 4 meters away from you. You react a little to this too.
"Oh, it turns out his voice is from you," the person standing next to you was more startled than the tape.
"God!"
"What's wrong? Oh, Commander Taeyong?" Rejun initially came at you with worry but so calm down because there was Commander Taeyong from Green Squadron next to you.
"Sorry to have shouted, Commander," you immediately apologized.
"No, I'm the one who apologized for coming all of a sudden," he apologized to you instead, "what about your hobby?"
"Quite improved, I've been able to hold it for 30 seconds at a moderate distance," you answered his question.
"That's good news. Ah, just keep going. You are also lucky, you have each other. How long have you guys been together, ehm?" ask Commander Taeyong.
"Since childhood, we have been friends since childhood, Commander," Rejun responded with an emphasis on the word friendly. Ah, it's good that people don't often think that you're more than friends.
"Y-well, that's right, Commander," you agreed.
Hey, but why does this hurt you?
"I see, continue your activities" Commander Taeyong passed.
"Should I try something close?" ask your best friend.
"Try." Turn the tape over near your ear. Unfortunately, it still feels disturbing.
"Down, Run!" yell while closing your ears and squatting.
"Have it, have it," he embraced and patted your shoulder.
"Did I fail?" your shirih.
"No, no, I think it's better. At least there's progress. We try again tomorrow," Renjun help you stand, "Two months less than one day."
The next day, like yesterday, you went to the commander's room.
"Oh, special report?" this time it was Commander Onew of the Turquoise Squadron.
"Just go in, we've agreed that you'll be our brother" Commander Victoria of Purple Squadron said as she made her tea.
"That's right! Just sit down" Commander Onew pointed to the seat you normally sit on.
"Ready, thank you, Commander," you immediately sat down.
"Today Commander Yunho was busy with some arrangements and was watching Blue Squadron, Jade Squadron, and Green Squadron patrolling alongside General Poe. We'll take his place" Commander Irene of Peach Squadron came to see you, "just relax."
"I can't stand close quarters, Commander. That'sthat's all. I don't think there's any progress" you honestly report.
"Other distances?" ask Commander Onew.
"Far and medium, 30 seconds, hold. Is that progress? My best friend says it's progress," you hesitated to report that one.
"It's definitely progress!" the three commanders replied simultaneously and made you shocked.
"I'm glad to hear that. Reducing phobias is not easy" Commander Irene added.
"Do you need any more help?" ask Commander Victoria.
"Commander, it seems like nothing" you replied, "I just have to try again. There are still many days left, right, before the starfighter placement exam?"
You do the habitation for 2 months gradually with the help of Renjun as well as the supervision of the commanders.
"I don't know, Commander. Close range is hard to hold," it's already day 45. One moon on the planet that became the new base of the Resistance is counted for 25 days. The good news is that you can already see X-Wing flying away and home from a distance. The bad news is, 5 more days of placement exams and you can't help but close your ears if the starfighter's voice is very close to you.
"Commander, is there no other way?" now, Renjun is also facing, trying to discuss other ways for you.
"Another way to get into the habit of being straight in other words is not to use footage, but to go straight into his X-Wing" Commander Kun of Jade Squadron spoke this time.
"That'll trouble you. I should have known myself not to try," you lowered your head and regretted your existence here.
"Don't say that again," Renjun, Commander Yunho, and Commander Kun reprimanded you simultaneously. Their united voices make you jump.
"Pardon ...."
"You came here because of your ability and courage. It should not be in vain because of a phobia. If you need to use the real thing then I will facilitate it" Commander Yunho said and accompanied by a nod of Commander Kun.
"Thank you, you've helped a lot. I don't want to make others jealous because of this. Just help like this is enough, I will try again. Thank you, Commander," you stood up, saluted, then walked out of the room. Rendezvous just glued to see it.
"The others are envious? Did he talk about other trainees' reactions to our help? How bad are they gonna bully him?" tanya Kun was curious.
"The words are sharper and stronger than the great spear, Commander. I warned him not to listen to it, but what else? Maybe it affected my best friend even though he looked tough on the outside," Renjun sighed.
"The gossipers .. Give me a list of his name. There has to be a lesson in that, right? Relax, you will be safe," Commander Yunho drew closer to Renjun.
"I'll name it all and calm down, Commander, I'm not afraid of them."
"That's a good move, Renjun. I'll make sure they'll all be deterred" Commander Yunho made a pact with Renjun to deter those who talk untrue things about you, as well as others.
After the training session filled by Commander Leeteuk today, you and Renjun did the habit again.
"Stop, Run!" you've been holding it for 10 minutes today. At least you're strong until the shadow reappears.
"In addition to fear ... what makes you want to stop?" ask your best friend.
"Shadows. I was like looking back when my father's plane crashed, "you answered honestly.
"What's on your mind about X-Wing other than your father falling?" he asked back.
"Hm, Resistance? A win? The commanders? Your sister? There's a lot actually," you sighed.
"Whatever it is, try to think of something other than 'falling' and 'your father' to be safe," Renjun advised you, "Think of something that calms you down."
"You?" you answer spontaneously.
"Well, if that makes you calm, may. Anyway, like I was out of your mind once," she said.
"Eish, what the fuck. Yes, we have, let's try again!" Reenrun back to playing the tape near you. This time you calm down and try to brush off bad thoughts. Just a good thought. Starfighter is cool, its pilot saved a galaxy, the Resistance, your dream and Runjun since long ago. Your father did fall while using it but he survived and he became one of the heroes on your planet. He's alive, he loves you. The same thing won't happen to you. You're not going to fall.
Falls ....
"The mountain! I started thinking about that again. It's hard not to think about my father. It was inseparable even though I had managed to think of some good ones. Maybe ... won't disappear completely," you sighed and sat on the ground, "Also while on duty I couldn't possibly think of it all. I must be focusing on something."
"That's it! You can take your mind off by focusing on something. Didn't we?" as if finding a rare stone, Renjun exclaimed in delight.
"I didn't think about it before. You have a point too! Then the time note?" you ask your best friend.
"Thirty-five minutes. That's really fast. We should have realized that from yesterday! You can enter Red or Blue Squadron which will join the Black Squadron with progress as fast as this," commented Renjun, "I have to learn more in order to be a team with you. Your test results yesterday were high."
"really? I thought there was something higher. Like perfect ... is that it?" you were surprised when Renjun said so.
"I heard it from the commanders. It's not wrong if you really become a favorite child, it's worth it."
"It's not fair and I don't want to be special. You've heard yourself, haven't you heard what they said about the two of us? No, I just want to be a normal pilot" you said.
"It would be unfair if you were a normal pilot. Aish, they'll learn a lesson worth doing. Don't think about them, just think about me. Let's go back to the hostel, "Renjun pulled your hand and brought you into the base.
The next morning, you and Renjun report again. This time it was Commander Leeteuk and Commander Suho.
"Well, that's progress. You even found a way to handle it. That would be very helpful. Four more days of placement exams," Commander Leeteuk seemed very happy with your ability to hold 35 minutes of listening to the X-Wing sounds up close, "In real life, ear-bending while flying a starfighter would be dangerous. It's good that you have a way to hold it."
"Thank you, Commander. All of you, I'm really grateful," you stood up from a sitting position and bowed 90°.
"It's because of your will and effort. Without it, what kind of help from us would not have an impact. Well, you guys can take turns, we have some lists to teach you a lesson on" Commander Suho said. You guys came out together and saw some trainees gathered in front of the commander room. You recognize some of those who like to talk untrue things about you.
"I told you, didn't I? What they sow, that's what they reap," Renjun covered your ears, "Let's get to the hangar to learn a few more starfighters. Four days of short time. You knew?"
"No need to say I know that. Come on!" sahutmu and smile at Renjun. You learn together because you have the same goal. Red or Blue Squadron.