Dusk (And Taste)
Chapter 1

Nadhira POV

A twilight that never gets bored is present. In reality, he came just to go (again). The twilight this time was still the same as the twilight before after his departure. He came to present a beauty that is not bored for me to enjoy. With old feelings that have not gone away until this moment. Just imagine, how happy it is to accompany the sun back to his throne with old feelings that I am always proud of.

Subhanallah & ️

Dusk and feelings. Two things I cannot separate. Always come at the same time. When the sky shows its shady face.

Here's my. Under the stretch of sky is a cloud of white clouds that are still clumping. Among the flowers. I stood facing the Western horizon. Watch the sun come home and enjoy the taste of it.

"Dik ?" call her by gently holding my shoulder.

"Yes, Bang ?" Without looking, I answered. For without even looking at it I knew who the owner of the heavy voice was. A man who became the second most comfortable place for me to go home after my parents. Him, Bara. The Bahari Prayuda Barata. The only siblings I have. A sister who always knows how to please and calm her sister. He's the best brother ♡

"Are you good, Dik ?" tanyakanya. This time by grabbing my head and carrying it in an embrace, gently stroking my hair that was covered in instant hijab.

"Hmm."

We were both silent and dissolved with our own thoughts. No one opens their voice. Just busy enjoying the twilight.

"Bang ?" Call me up with a head up look at his shade face which is exactly the same as my father.

"About a feeling that never goes away and I love that. Is it wrong ?" I continued by looking at his face.

"There's nothing wrong with that. Wrong is you, brother." He answered without looking at me the slightest bit.

"I ? Why am I wrong ?" I pulled away from her embrace and changed the position facing her.

"You're wrong never to tell a story about a feeling and who that feeling grew up with. " Still in the same position facing the sun home.

"Ah Abang mah that. My turn is serious even in becandain," I complained.

"Lho, how is Brother again ? Yes already. Just tell Brother."

"So here's the..."

I hung my words. Waiting for a response from my brother.

"So ?" He changed his position to face me with his eyebrows raised next to him.

"Ciyeee nungguin yaa. Haha."

"Aish what the hell, Dik ? It's also serious about being back."

"Yes. Aye." Yeah."

I took a slow breath before opening my voice.

"Bang, I once had feelings for someone. We were together. Establish a relationship. But, without commitment in my opinion. And that was a long time ago. When I was in high school. I think it's just a feeling that will one day just disappear as time goes by. Which like people say is just monkey love."

I'm silent. Looking towards my brother who was looking at me intensely. I lowered my head, hooked my finger with the other finger and continued my sentence.

"I was wrong. Wrong big. That feeling grows day by day. In the end, there came a day when we had to separate. We are lost with each other's lives. Go wherever the foot takes us. Not with the feelings I have for her. Not knowing his feelings. To this day, that feeling still persists. That feeling sassy grew even more as dusk returned. Maybe, because we used to love twilight. What I say to do, Bang ?"

I stared at my brother's shady face with sadness. Wants me to cry. But I don't want to look weak just because of feelings.

"Sik, are you sure of that feeling ?" Bang Bara asked as she gently stroked the top of my head.

"Related. Very sure, Bang," I answered with confidence.

"alright. And you like it. Without your brother saying anything, I'm sure you know how to react. You're not a kid anymore, brother. Learn to solve problems yourself. What's more is a matter of feeling. Only you know how you feel. Remember, not everyone understands how you feel. Though as close as you are to him. Even your parents."

I fell silent after hearing my brother's words. Close your eyes and try to figure out what it means.

We are still both silent by returning to the position facing the sun home. Busy with their own minds.

"Dik, go yuk! I want it tonight. Afraid of spray Mother. Haha."

My brother tried to melt the atmosphere.

"Ish Abang mah's. I told you Mother just knew the taste, yeah."

"That's it. Don't play around with everything."

"Yes lah. Ye is." I answered in the manner of the Bald Twins, Upin & Ipin. We entered the house with laughter.

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Sepi has no voice. Only the sound of the clanking of plates clashing with spoons could be heard. That's the atmosphere of my dining room. And always just like that. Slender. Because I always taught you not to talk while eating.

Dinner is over. Usually we will use a little time to just joke or just tell stories of events that we went through. But another with tonight that I was suddenly invited to go by Bang Bara.

"Dik, come with Brother Yuk!"

"Where, Bang ? Lazy ah," I replied.

"Follow it. Come on!" Bang Bara pulled my hand forcibly.

"Don't ajakin sister go far into the night," this time Mother who spoke up.

"No, Bun. Mother just calm down. Gini-gini Abang also does not want to see sister why-why. Yes, Dik, yes ?"

"Yes, this turn even feels familiar with his sister," chirped me while turning my eyeballs lazy.

"Let's go with Brother."

"Well, Brother Bara."

"Yes. But don't be long back. Poor little brother will be exhausted. College tomorrow, Brother."

"Yes, Dad." I answered along with Bang Reyndra.

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A small but beautiful garden. Tranquilize. Ja. This is where I am. At the invitation of Bang Bara. I don't know why it took me to this place all night. For the first time.

"Bang, the garden is nice, yes. Small anyway. But it's convenient." Praise me by closing my eyes. Enjoying the night breeze that hit my face.

"That's why don't you refuse if you take you away. Did you ever make you disappointed ? No, right ? Haha."

"OKs. Ok. Brother is the best. Saaaayang Bang Bara."

"Have started to be good at praising, Dik ?"

I fell silent again with my eyes closed. So too with Bang Bara. We enjoyed the park atmosphere which was too crowded with visitors.

"Sir, could you know someone you were referring to this afternoon ?"

I opened my eyes and looked for a moment. And closed his eyes again.

"He.." My words depend. I lowered my head. My mouth is frozen. Unable to say. Stuffy. Like a heavy burden on my chest.

"You don't have to force yourself if you can't, brother. No one can force you. Including brother," then stroked my head dear.

I'm still silent. Until the next second I ventured to open my voice. Tells to Bang Bara.

"He's someone I know accidentally. We met when he came to visit my school for the socialization of the College where he studied. Maybe his age. His place of college is the same as his brother. And the next meeting at the bookstore. From there we got acquainted. Exchange phone numbers with each other. And that's when it all started. It has not been long since we met. The taste is starting to grow. Comfortable."

I went back to silence.

"Sir, what's his name ? You said one college campus with Brother, right ?"

"Yes, I'm with brother. Reyhan. Reyhan Akbar Oktara." I close my eyes when my mouth says his name. What a beautiful name and I always remember. A name that's always close to my Aamiin.

"Reyhan Akbar Oktara ?" Bang Bara looked at me in shock. And I'm no less surprised than my brother.

"Yes, Bang. Does your brother know him ?"

"He's a good friend of the brother on the campus. One major. It's just a different class, brother. It turns out the world is this narrow, yes. Until now, you still often meet," he replied enthusiastically.

"Really ? Why don't you know, Bang ? In fact, almost all of my brother's friends know."

"Yes. Because he was the only one who rarely went home. He's Mommy's son, Dik. Home child. He once picked up brother. I even stayed at home. But, you were the one who was befriending the infusion hose at the Hospital."

"Ooh." I'm just ria-oh. I don't even fully believe that Bang Bara is friends with him.

"Bang, turn yuk! Mother will look for us. Tomorrow I go to college in the morning."

"Okay, Little Commander," said Bang Bara who succeeded in making me laugh.

We're moving home. I chose silence while stroking my arm because I felt cold.

"Why, Dik ?"

"Cold, Bang."

"Just wear your jacket."

"No need, Bang. I'm fine."

We went home without a sound. Until I got home I was not aware.

"Sir, we have arrived. Stay on the bike until when ?" bang Bara asked me to throw my daydream.

"Oh yes, Bang. Hee," I said grin.

"Ciyee daydreams of Abraham, huh ? Never mind. Tomorrow Ajakin's brother meets, "his god.

"What the hell, Bang ? No need to be ledekin."

Without waiting for Bang Bara I entered the house. Arriving at the door my chest felt tight. So tight. Ja. I've been having a lot of trouble since childhood. That's what's causing the love I'm getting from my family.

I held my chest tightly. Exactly squeezing. Naasku hunted irregularly. Like I wanted to fall down right then. But with the rest of my energy I kept my balance. I just don't want to be seen as sick by my brother. But...

"Nadhira!"

Bang Bara has already seen me. He screamed and ran towards me. Hugging tightly to my body which is too small when compared to its sturdy body.

"Sir, are you okay ?" Ask worried.

"Yes, Bang. I. akkhh." I haven't had time to say. My chest is getting crowded. Like being tied to a rope. I'm holding my chest tight. At the same time I could see the crystal grains flowing through Bang Reyndra's cheeks. "Is that what she loves to me ?" My inner.

"We're going to the hospital now. Brother call Daddy the same Mother first," he said accompanied by a slow sobbing.

"Bang, I'm okay." I tried to smile. Just briefly. And finally down. All dark.

_________To Be Continued____________

Sorry for typo 😁

Just understand this story well.

Only beginner writers who are still in the learning stage 😉