Dusty is my husband
Chapter 2

Because my father-in-law is dead and my two sisters-in-law are still in college. Bang Rey is the second child and the only man. The eldest brother Fani is married and lives in Batam. Yeni is a third child and has been married also living in Medan. The youngest is still in college in Jakarta.

Even though he was married, Yeni was still the dependant of bang Rey, because he was still married when his college was not finished. Every month bang Rey still sends money for college.

Even though I had protested about Yeni, Bang Rey insisted on continuing to fund her studies. He said stay the last semester, baby if you have to go out. But strangely until now I do not know how the continuation of college.

Because until now Yeni has not been graduated as well. Or maybe I wasn't told. Silently they were the ones who attended.

And since the mother-in-law lives alone at home, these last three years the mother-in-law was accompanied by Rey's bang cousin Rani.

Rani works in a private agency. And the information I know she's a widow. Having no children, Rani is divorced by her husband.

Rani is the wife of Rey!

I don't know since when they got married, all those stories really broke my heart. But I don't want to just crumble, I'm also going to play around, follow their game. Just look I'll avenge all their actions on me.

"Mrs ..!" the crying voice of my daughter Nadia suddenly broke all my daydreams. I ran to the room, and I saw Nadia awake from her sleep. I gently rubbed his head and carried him out of the room.

"Mama, there's a bad guy mukul, Nadia Ma." It looks like my daughter had a nightmare so she woke up from her nap.

" Beautiful daughter's a nightmare mama, huh?"

I wiped her tears as I gave her a drink . He nodded, and hugged me tightly.

"Don't be afraid, baby don't be afraid, there's a mama who takes care of you."

" But the bad guy also hit my mom, until he fell. Nana gets scared, Nana cries, Papa doesn't want to nolongin mama." Nadia recounted her dream while shedding tears.

My heart felt like something was hitting. His dream was like a picture of my heart right now.

"Udah, it's just a dream, baby. The proof is that no one has mukul mama. Later if there's a bad mama and Nana, Papa will protect us. I love Nana and Mama."

Those clear eyes looked at me deeply. It was as if he was looking for something. Or was he convincing himself, that his mother would not be hurt by anyone.

I cupped that oval face, and I covered her whole face. Maybe because he was amused he laughed and kissed me back in the face too, then his little hand hugged my neck.

"Nana want not mama take a walk to the mall," immediately the face sparkled her eyes glare beautifully.

" Buy ice kim yes, ma,"

"Whatever Nana wants,"

"Bembi also boyeh ma?" funny kerling. I was so nervous to hear his slurred mouth speak. The collection has dozens.

But all his forms are blimey, amburadul! If not bald, then mutilated. There are no clothes or shoes.

But let him play according to his age and imagination. Because it is the time of its growth. And this once let him be satisfied with his heart.

I took my son to the playground, and he chose to take a ball bath. There was another child playing too. Nadia was immediately familiar with a child her age. They laughed cheerfully, throwing balls at each other and chasing.

Looking at her laughter so loose, I felt very guilty. Because all this time I rarely took him out of the house. Of course because I care about the boutique.

Being bang Rey also rarely invites us to just refreshing.

Though we have a car that will make it easier for us to just hunt tourist attractions. And strangely every holiday, bang Rey is always out of the house. The reason is with his friend, to the mother's house.

Hey..! My heart felt like it was beating irregularly. Don't-don't during this time bang Rey spent her weekend with mom and Rani. Remember the fact that I've been in a duakan, all this time. Makes my blood rustle!

My determination is getting round to avenge all those games. Just wait, Bang. Wait out! my growl!

"Mama...Mama why,?" I flinched as I felt my skirt being pulled around. Apparently Nadia. I saw his eyes redden, I immediately embraced him.

,"What's the matter, baby, how come you cry?"

"Mama, just shut up, call Nana,"

Holy hooch! I forgot where I was, my son I just took it.

" I'm sorry baby, my mom was a little dizzy. Now Nana play again yeah, let mama take a photo and we send the same papa,"

Nadia followed what I said, but her steps seemed heavy. Likewise, when I asked to pose, it was very difficult for him to smile, if I did not ask.

'Focus Tika!' hardik sesuitar in my heart. Don't show your mood to your son! His feelings are so sensitive! My heart feels squeezed. Nadia is very easy to feel when my mood is carefree or sad.

"Nana, here son," I waved my hand so he could come closer.

" What Ma,"

" Why you, baby, you're lethargic. Are you sick?" I felt Nadia's body. The temperature is normal.

We soon passed from the playground, to the cafe of our subscription ice cream seller. I ordered chocolate and Nadia vanilla. As soon as the order arrived, Nadia immediately tasted the ice cream.

" Mah, the ice kim is delicious" he exclaimed as if forgetting his sluggishness earlier.

"Hem. Is this ice kim rock Nana lethargic," I asked.

"Not Mah" his bell bowed.

"Trus, because of what dong," I asked softly. I saw the fog in his eyes.

" Nana Iindu Papah," Deg! My heart was broken hearing that word.

"Well, it's work, Na. Come home, too, baby."

" Today Nana laki there was a game with her Papah. Nana also wants Mah, play with Papah!" it was like a sledgehammer was hitting my heart!

Nana, who turns three next month

years, keep that longing the same papa. Bang Rey rarely invites Nadia to play. Because his demanding work is always out of town. Together with his family was neglected.

I felt it too, but I couldn't do anything about it. That's why I always try to cover up the shortcomings, more attention to Nadia. No matter how busy I am at the boutique, Nadia remains my priority. But, as it turns out, I still can't close that empty space.

"Later if Papah has come home, we play well,"

" Hole.promise yes, Mah!" Nadia clasped her little finger to my finger.

"Yes, Mama promised me dear. Yuk, we'll selfie again, let's send her the same picture, Papah,"

Finished selfie photos, we again enjoyed our ice cream order. Unlike the atmosphere earlier, Nadia is now so enjoying her ice cream.

While we were enjoying it, suddenly a voice greeted us.

"Good afternoon, Tika,"

"Eh, Mr. Rudi! Good afternoon sir," welcome me as I extend my hand to greet him.

I was surprised that Mr. Rudi was here, didn't my husband say that they both served out of town. But Mr. Rudi is here.

I looked at Mr. Rudi, astonished. And he looked at me with the same expression.

" It's not that Mr. Rudi and his out-of-town service with my husband, sir," I asked curiously.

" I'm with Mr. Rey never again out of town, ma'am. We're in the office now. Because we are not sales anymore" explained Mr. Rudi to surprise me.

" When has Sir?"

" A little over two years, Mom. I was even surprised, why Mother Tika is here, should be with Mr. Rey, in Medan. Because you want the blessing of a new house, all the birthday celebrations of mother-in-law?" my head felt suddenly dizzy hearing Mr. Rudi's words. What other lie is this, so many lies my husband has been doing to me.

" Mister Rudi knows where the news is."

" Rey sir is asking for a week's leave, ma'am. There is a family event he said. Cook Bu Tika does not know, mother is his wife."

God, I don't think I can hear all those stories. How could Bang Rey and Mama-in-law lie to me.

"Sir, may you ask for your help, do not tell me if we have met, sir."

" What does Miss Tika mean?"

" I ask you to please you, so as not to tell you that I already know, about the house."

" Are you, Miss Tika doesn't know?" I nodded weakly, and tried to hold back the turbulent emotions in my chest.

" Oh, I'm sorry ma'am, I seem to have delivered some bad news to you."

" It's okay, sir. I am even very grateful to Father. Because I know all my husband's lies" I said in my heart.

" I feel bad, Mom. Forgive me yes, Bu." very noticeable Mr. Rudi regretted. Because I accidentally opened my husband's secret.

I assured Mr. Rudi that I would not have involved him, had I confirmed the story to my husband.

Mr. Rudi heaved a sigh of relief, and repeatedly apologized before saying goodbye to go home.

Cleverly storing carcasses, on

it finally smells too. Exactly those words were addressed to Bang Rey. Dust that had been stored neatly, one by one revealed accidentally. I don't seem to know my husband anymore. I feel like a stranger, and I've been neglected all this time.

Though five years of pedaling the household heresy, it is difficult to be happy we went through together turned out to be just a mirage. ***