End Happy Weddings
Chapter 4

' Today my husband died. I want to end my dark life. I'm hopeful. Could erase all my memories of him. Removing everything about her. But why is it like this. Why did he leave? Why should he save me, right? No. gabe... No.kk.... I don't want it all to end here... I don't want to end up like this. '

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Today the sagar is buried in the funeral home. Everyone was saddened by Sagar's close friends, relatives and especially the Sagar's parents.

Nadira still faithfully wait for the place where Sagar stay until he was buried. Only the two Sagar's parents knew they were divorced. Not with his big family. Even Nadira had to pretend to keep this secret even when Sagar was gone.

Until finally Nadira stared blankly at the tomb in front of him which read Sagar Mahendra.

For some reason, since the first day at the funeral home Nadira did not shed a single tear. Either because he was tired of crying or he could only keep his sadness in his heart.

Rain water began to trickle down from the sky as if the sky was also crying through Nadira's clothes and body.

Nadira turned her head as she felt the rain water not wet her anymore.

" Mother. " Sapa Nadira.

" You must be very tired. "

" No mom. "

" this.. " Sagar's mother gave him a black box.

Nadira accepted it and opened it.

' ring and wallet? ' inner Nadira.

" This is the last relic of Sagar when he was with him. " Said Sagar's mother.

" No mother, this is Sagar's legacy. I don't deserve it. "

" It is not good to give the goods of people who have not. What else was the last time he died. But look and open it. "

Nadira obeyed the orders of her former mother-in-law and began opening the wallet.

There is a picture of their wedding on display in the small wallet.

' Why is there a photo like this in his wallet. ' Nadira's inner.

" Even until he's gone, he's still holding the ring. " Common Sagar's mother.

" I don't think he really wants a divorce from you. "

' there's no way Sagar wants that. ’ inner Nadira.

" Even he promised to obey everything his parents wanted... Whatever it is. But except about you. About the house and also. About romance. "

" You know Nadira, Sagar is cold and quiet. He is not always open with anyone. Even to me or his father. Until one day he brought you in for an introduction and wanted her to marry him. It's not easy for Sagar to bring a girl. What else lives nearby. But with you he's different. "

" He never shows a reaction that he likes. And he never showed that he didn't like anything. More often he will not show that he likes or is happy again. Even Sagar has many close friends. But he never opened his heart. But with you he's different. For that I am very grateful to you. " Sagar's mother smiled touching Nadira's cold hand.

" Sagar always called me not to say rude things to you, nor did he want me to trouble you about what else made you difficult. "

' So this is the reason why my mother never showed me affection. Which I always thought my mother-in-law was cute but cared about me a lot. ' Nadira's mind is sad.

" I know Nadira, you want to get divorced from Sagar because your life must be very heavy and serious. But Sagar didn't mean it that way. Sagar is gone. I just want him to leave this world with good memories. Including in your memory. To it... I'm sorry for everything. "

Sagar's mother kissed Nadira's forehead.

" Happy birthday Nadira. " Before Nadira answered, Sagar's mother immediately went to die alone.

'The first time I listened to it. That story, why brother never showed it. '

Nadira goes back to that time, the time when they started it all.

Sagar stretched out his hand.

" Let's salaman. " Pinta Sagar's.

" Ahh for what?. " Task Nadira then.

But Nadira still shook Sagar's hand so warm.

' If only I knew you then. And if only I hadn't misinterpreted the meaning of the cold stare on your face. Your hands are so warm and tender what our relationship will be different. What future in which you died before me will not happen? Hix... Hix.. Yes I remember in our first meeting you said I was beautiful.. So lovely.. Why brother. Even if you never said everything that happened... Wh why? '

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" I'm sure there are many Sasi. You've been bothered to drive me home. You better get back to work. "

" I don't bother at all. I'll be back when I see you come in. " Sasi Said.

Sasi was a close friend of Nadira in college. And now he's been working in one of Vos's sister offices.

" Nadira what is it on the table. Looks like a bouquet of flowers. "

Nadira approached the flower.

" Fragrant flower. The flowers are still fresh. " Inner Nadira.

Nadira took a bouquet of red roses are so beautiful.Sama like the year before.

' happy birthday. '

~ Sagar ~ '

Nadira immediately sat down to his knees without being able to hold his cry he cried as it became. His heart ached, his feelings were so broken he was very sad. Yesterday before Sagar didn't he said he wanted to give you a bouquet of flowers. And it's true that he gave Nadira that gift.

' I don't deserve to cry. Butwhy? Why are you doing all this? Why have you been so cold to me all this time? Why do you think I don't exist? Why don't you say anything when we're just the two of you, why are you still sending me gifts like this? Why do you have to buy roses every year? Why sis? You're making me desperate about all this. You made me give up on everything. I want to know brother. Wanted to know everything about you. Come back please? ' Nadira couldn't bear to hold back her tears. Sasi hugged Nadira. He said nothing to Nadira. She hoped that hugging him made her feelings a little stronger.

" Break a rest Nadira. "

Nadira wiped her tears.

" Do I need to accompany you here? "

" No, you can go home now. "

" Are you sure it's okay to be alone? "

Nadira just nodded.

Nadira put her body on the bed. Today is the most exhausting day for her. It was such a long day that he had never imagined before.

' If only I could turn back time. Repeating when you are with you. Holding you alive and asking questions about everything. ' Nadira closed his eyes. In his mind he kept wandering around the figure of Sagar when he last met him he apologized. He also imagined when the rain Sagar came to question the news.

' He didn't do that because he loved me, did he? ' Nadira sat back down.

' No! If she loves me she wouldn't want to divorce me. And I couldn't possibly fall in love with him. '

Nadira curled up on the bed.

' But what did his gaze mean at that time? Her smile? Even when he was last alive why was he still holding the ring? Nah! I can't think like that. '

' But why? If I hadn't been that time. I didn't run towards him. If only I had waited 10 minutes. Ah not five minutes. Surely none of this will ever happen. It's my fault... Hix... Hix... It's all my fault.... "

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Nadira blinked her eyes and opened her phone to look at the clock.

' Ahh, I must have fallen asleep because I cried too long, ' Nadira thought.

'It turned out to be 06:00. Fresh trasa force. My eyes don't sting like I've been crying. Today I have to start a new life. Life without a sister. '

Nadira put down her phone. He looked around and he felt something strange.

' Why the bed linen changed. And the shape of this room why is it the same as before I left this house? ' nadira thought confused. Nadira waved off the blanket that covered her body.

' Jeez. Why am I wearing these pajamas ? This piama I threw away a long time ago. This must be me dreaming, Nadira thought with a light smile.

' maybe I dream because I miss her so much. Saddened at his loss and deeply guilty at his passing. ' Nadira pinched his left hand.

" Awwww. " Speek Nadira in pain.

Nadira saw his phone back.

~ 06:05

Wednesday, 21 January ~

' Twenty-one January? What's this. I will sleep on September 10th. This came back eight months ago? ' Nadira was surprised. He still can't believe it.

Nadira immediately got off her bed and ran to open the door of her room.

Nadira still saw the same living room at that time. Not changed one bit. He walked back to the kitchen. And there nothing has changed. It was like a dream for him. Nadira stopped her steps as if remembering something. Yes he ran towards Sagar's room. Nadira opened the door slowly.

It's dark! The atmosphere of the room was still dark because the curtains were not opened and there were no lights on.

Nadira approaches the bed with a pounding heart. His heart was pounding at the moment.

Nadira quickly opened the blanket. I wish there was nothing there. But he was so surprised when someone pulled his hand until he fell into the bed.

" What are you doing in this room?. "

Nadira's heart was pounding.

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