First Love Casanova's
End (End)
Sincerity announcement day is the most awaited day for students. And now finally that day has come. Unlike the other students who choose to gather together with their friends to spend their last High School time.
Now Ayumi prefers to be in a solitary rooftop where she used to go with Abi.
Ayumi closed her eyes, enjoying the wind, a month had passed but the sadness had not yet gone. There's a deep cavity. The self that can't be penetrated by anyone.
Friends and family were always there for her, but the loss that Ayumi felt really shook her soul. The man who filled his day is gone, of course, the destruction is still there.
"When are you like this?" The question made Ayumi immediately straighten her body to look at someone who was now walking towards her with so dashing her.
The man who is none other than Abqa is now walking towards Ayumi while giving one milk box to Ayumi. Ayumi immediately took it.
"Thanks," said Ayumi who was responded with a nod by Abqa who is now sitting next to Ayumi.
"Have you read all Abi's notes?" Abqa asked Ayumi who was now answered with a nod by the girl.
"I don't know guys like Abi also like that kind of writing," said Ayumi with a riled smile. Abqa who heard Ayumi's words now even chuckled.
"He just wrote it when he was in the hospital" Abqa told Ayumi. Ayumi who heard that now raised her brow next to her confused.
"his date?" Tanya Ayumi remembered in every letter written such a detailed date.
"Abi's actions are quite good" said Abqa who now even makes Ayumi chuckle at her hearing. Abqa who saw Ayumi could laugh again joined in smiling. After Abi died this was the first time Abqa had seen that laughter that he had not seen for a long time.
"Even to the name of his girlfriend before-as soon as he forgot," said Ayumi with her piety that made Abqa smile.
"Because you mean to make Abi, so he wants all the details about you" Abqa said with a smile. The smile that had been expanding on Ayumi's face was now instantly faded. There was now only tightness in his chest when he recalled all about Abi.
What else about the diary Abi gave to her. Also Abi's room is still a lot of photos of themselves or even photos of them and their friends.
Ayumi's memory is instantly switched when Ayumi sees Abi's diary.
2021 October
This is the first time I've seen him. A beautiful girl who caught my attention. Girl with all her bar whims, strong girl who knows no fear.
At a time when many people are afraid of me, he even bravely digalawan all the oppression that I did to him.
There are many more Abi writings that he carved to define how Ayumi and how their first meeting. Ayumi read it with tears flowing from her pretty eyes.
All those memories still Ayumi remembered vividly.
January, 2022
I am the most stupid man. When another man deletin a girl he likes with approach and attention, I even with his stupid memgebully him. Until the other students join him.
Stupid emang. Because I shouldn't have hugged the person I love to make him hate me.
Ayumi still read every sheet of the writing with her tears that did not stop to flow. The more he read it the greater the love he had for Abi. But he knew that he had to erase all those feelings.
Although he knew that Abi would always have his own position in his heart. Although later he has a new person to continue his life.
January, 2022
And finally today I'm with him. He's someone I won't let go of because of the love I have for him more than anything.
January, 2023
Our one year anniversary. But I was lying in the hospital. I had to lie to him by making my twin my replacement.
Sorry, Ay, I just don't want you to worry. Because I don't want you to be sad.
Still in the same month. It's different now that I've been found out. Wkwk he knew I was in the hospital. He's crying. I really don't have to look at it. I want him to always be happy. Uh I even made him cry.
Sorry, my dear.
March, 2023
I don't know how much longer my life will be, but it may not be long.
If I go Ayumi must be sad, God can not give me a longer chance to be with Ayumi.
If you can't. Please take care of him, God. Don't tell him he's a boy like me. Make him happy, god. Love him my better replacement than me so that he is always happy and can escape me god.
I don't care if he escapes me, if he's happy.
He's Ayumi
The beautiful girl I met by accident.
The girl who rejected me when all the girls were willing to be the umpteenth for me.
Girl with all attitude bar her money b3result attracted my attention.
The girl with her kindness who broke my heart.
He's Ayumi
A girl who can't be replaced with another girl for me.
The girl who came brought a new color to my life.
The girl who brought kindness to me.
The girl who was always there in my day in all conditions.
She's Ayumi.
The girl I love without me expecting anything in return.
The girl I'll keep even in my last breath.
The girl who filled my emptiness.
The girl who I was a complement to me.
I say thank you dear.
Always happy without me.
Remembering all that without feeling the tears Ayumi spilled back. Abqa who saw her immediately brought Ayumi into her arms. Ayumi and Abi love each other. It will be hard for Ayumi to forget Abi.
"Aula yuk, we will go home to Abi's tomb together," asked Abqa after Ayumi felt calmer. Ayumi took a deep breath before finally nudging her head.
And this time Abi's letter of sincerity. Abqa and Ayumi took it. They also prayed together for Abi.
Although Abi is notoriously naughty but still the man has his own position in the hearts of all of us.
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