For a Freedom
JENNIFER: FOR FREEDOM (46)

"Although it's quiet here, to be honest it's very calming. Sometimes alone is the thing most needed when we feel a sad thing." murmured me who was feeling empty.

I lay on that foreign land, right beside me was a lake. I no longer think like "Where is this?", "What kind of place is this". Because really, dissolved in a soothing silence.

"I don't care where I am right now, because I can be calm here. I hope, when I'm tired, I can go back home in this place." I said.

The sky is really blue, bright and beautiful. I have never seen a sky like this, the sky that appears from the Luria mainland has never been this bright.

My feelings are now so ungodly. I'm happy here very calm without anyone, but on the other hand I also want to have friends, on the other hand I also feel homesick with someone. What do I really want, why am I so hard to understand myself?

"I didn't cast my magic for long" and I got up and sat down, facing this beautiful lake. I clasped my hands together, I lowered my head and closed my eyes.

"Hey, I'm calling you." The voice said in my heart. When I opened my eyes and also opened my hand, I felt happy that he was not leaving.

I don't know why I can do this either, but I'm glad I did.

"Are you okay, I think I was too much at that time. I keep asking for your help, sorry if you lost a lot of energy because of me. But what I want to ask..., was my friend that night really dead?"

I beg you to say something I wish for, this time I call him, he who always helps me, the sparkling silver butterfly. His body was like it was made of crystal, but this time around, I actually called him the real one, it was not as small as a firefly. He is actually the size of two palms.

Don't be surprised if I talk to him, even though he is this form but sometimes he can also talk even though not much.

"You could have called me when you were in danger, why did you become like this. Who made you this way."

Nah kan! He really talks, sometimes he's a little chatty. Haha.

"It's okay, I guess you're still recharging your energy. Some time ago I tried to call you, but somehow the little butterflies disappeared quickly." I felt bad.

"Call me whenever you need me, I am your strength. The form of your magic and power is me. Don't let yourself hurt Laenore."

Emm, he did call me Laenore. Though I had already explained that my name was Vallene, but he ignored me and kept calling me by that name, but I didn't mind either. That's a good name in my opinion.

"Well.., I'm sorry. But..., do you know where I am now? What is this place?" i asked.

"This is the place that Master made you, actually your fetus grew and grew here. Until you were born into the world."

"W-what? I mean..., this place is the womb of someone who conceived me? Am I the son of your master?" I was a little confused, but he always said things I couldn't understand.

"You didn't answer my question, hey...?" my protest, which of course is not concerned.

"So you could say I'm in the womb? Will I be born again? But why aren't my memories erased by the supreme Savhatokha?" confused me.

"Serephone, Varanemione, Shopilliane, Scarabish, Moonaka, Phavana, Shavhatokha, Andromeda, and Merinados. They don't interfere with why you're here."

"Forget it, I don't care too much about it either. I'm glad I'm here, but I can go back, right? Back to my life in my world originally as Vallene." whine me.

"You don't want to stay here? Isn't it safer and quieter for you. Why do you still want to go back to that place called earth."

"How can I not miss the earth, there is a place where I was born and I grew up. There are also people who I love and my friends, even though there win my life becomes heavy. But who should I blame? Who else if not myself? Well, I should be able to get through all that. Not so much so that I cry.

Sometimes I'm thankful that I live as me, don't look at me when I cry, don't look at my wounds. See also when I can laugh happily ever after, I also meet good people who can accept and accompany me. See also when my wounds are on the trunk and treated, healed can be injured again. What I love is my healing process where I am accompanied and made happy by them.

It hurts when those who hate me paint my body with a punch, but it also makes me happy when people who love me heal me."

After I said those words that were somehow spoken just like that. He did not answer, did not reply to my words against him. I don't know why, I can't see how her face looks. Since she was really just a silver butterfly, her body and wings were sparkling, all I saw was a sparkling silver crystal butterfly, flying next to me.

"This is actually.., this is also where I live. This is also where you come from. If you want to come back, I'll let you come back. But remember to come back when you're tired, when you need a place to rest. Because you also have a decent home, your own home."

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"Vallene...! Vallene."

I came back, I could only see black. I heard someone calling me in a worried voice. Looks like it's Kenneth's voice, why can I hear his voice? Is he in this place too?

"Finally, you finally came to your senses.." With a heavy voice from crying, the sobbing sound of his crying could also be heard.

Eh? This where? Why am I in a different place in an instant?

Vallene regained his senses and opened his eyes, Kenneth feeling relieved at last. For three hours Kenneth had been crying because Vallene was still unresponsive when Kenneth tried to do healing with magic. But Vallene just kept staring up at Kenneth's ceiling.

"Vallen! Vallene.." murmured Kenneth while rubbing Vallene's palm, Vallene could finally glance at him.

Kenneth. Wh why? I was saved by him again.... Why am I just now regretting what I said earlier, I should have chosen to stay in that place instead of seeing Kenneth like this, damn it.