Forced to Marry a Girl of Mama's Choice
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Ayra returned to the apartment so listlessly. He thought again about his life. Ayra knew that she would always lose to Kinara's existence. While Kinara's name was still being echoed, Ayra could never win Karel's heart.

But he wants before God picks him up, Ayra wants Karel to love him for a moment. So he would once again attempt to make the man recall all the memories among them before.

The sound of the room door opening made Ayra stare there. It looks Er who entered the room with an unpleasant face in view. Maybe the man was in a lot of work, or maybe he was in trouble with Kinara.

Ayra tried to smile sweetly. He made his body stand up to look at Er by showing her a sweet smile.

"Good night, Brother Er," said Ayra. But Er is still like a frozen refrigerator. Er only glanced at a glance without answering the greeting of the wife.

"Sister Er want to take a shower? I'll get some warm water, okay?" tawar Ayra's. Er just nodded silently.

Er's never-changing cold attitude made Ayra so sad. But when Er does not reject Ayra's offer, making Ayra have a hope if one day Er will definitely remember him again.

After bathing, Er immediately laid her body on the mattress. The man decided to close his eyes. But he heard Ayra's voice calling him.

"Sister Er, are you asleep?" ayra asked looking at Er from her place. Er didn't open his eyes. He did not want to serve Ayra. So he decided to let Ayra speak as much as she could.

"I miss you, brother. I miss all your words that say I will always take care of me. Do you remember when we used to play together. Brother Er promised me he'd marry me and make me happy." Ayra chuckles at remembering all her little memories. Ayra thought that Er was asleep by now.

While Er who heard Ayra's words frowned. He remembered when he was a child that he had promised to marry a little girl and it was not Ayra, but Kinara.

Er was confused by everything. But he still ignored Ayra's words.

I don't know until what time Ayra keeps chattering. It doesn't feel so late now. Ayra decided to close her eyes. He felt relieved, at least he had said what was in his heart all this time.

***

Her morning.

Ayra is cooking for Er. This time he cooked Er's favorite food since childhood.

Ayra's smile rises when she looks at the dishes that have been neatly arranged at the dining table.

"Did you see that tie I wear often?"

Er's voice made Ayra who was busy immediately looking for the source of the sound. He found Er already wearing his shirt.

He already looked fragrant, handsome as always. Ayra really likes Er like this, even though the man does not care.

"Attent."

Ayra quickly stepped into the room. Er followed him from behind.

Ayra deftly looked into each drawer of the closet to look for the tie her husband meant. The tie was a tie given by Kinara, Er's beloved.

And Ayra shouldn't have to lament about this. The couple looked so loving. It was as if he was an impostor.

Ayra was still looking for where the tie her husband meant. The tie that Er often uses. When dirty directly in the wash and iron then Er reuse.

Er doesn't seem to need himself. Ayra knew that ever since He and Er got married, Kinara had cut off her relationship with Er. But now Ayra feels that now they are back in touch even though Ayra does not want to speculate further. It was too painful to think about.

Ayra still remembered where Er kept the sacred tie. That man would not let go.

If you don't wear it, the world stops turning. Earth's gravity is reversed, even stars fall out of the sky.

"Here we go" cried Ayra cheerfully. The woman smiled, revealing the tie her husband had been looking for.

Er's eyes suddenly brightened right from before. Previously he looked so gloomy when he saw his favorite object was not lost.

Er immediately took the tie, then wore it proudly. Whatever Kinara was related to, she was so excited. But not with Ayra's gift.

Ayra once bought a brown tie on her husband. But he knows that Er never wears it. His giving never meant anything to Er.

Ayra again struggled in the kitchen to cover up her overcrowded feelings, and no one knew.

Make coffee and have a great breakfast. And it ends up not being touched at all.

"I've made breakfast, do you want to eat?" tawar Ayra's. But Er would rather eat out than spend the food cooked by Ayra.

"No need." replied the man coldly.

Er pulled out her briefcase and headed straight to her office. Leaving Ayra who only smiled bitterly and had to be so patient with all her husband's cold demeanor.

Ayra promised herself not to think too much about her husband's cold attitude, but somehow she always got carried away. Until a clear grain escapes from the eye peluk.

Ayra smiled as she looked at the food that Er had never touched.

"I've prepared my heart for something like this. But still it feels so painful?" ask Ayra to herself. He remembered his memories back when he was with Er. Especially with the adult Er who at that time looked timid to him.

"How many months is this marriage? It feels like I'm almost amnesiac," Ayra chuckled. "May God give me a chance to live longer" he murmured.

Ayra opened an object that no one knew. That's a journal, notes all along he knows Er. When they first met, they knew each other's names. Even the promise Er had told him. All of Ayra noted in the journal.

Ayra made a playlist specifically for herself.

"Fifteen more years, even nearly two decades. Maybe if this feeling is used to install the house, I already have my own house now," Ayra chuckled at what she wrote. He tried to smile even though his heart was so bitter.

"Do I have to be Kinara first so you can see all my sacrifices to you?"

Ayra re-wrote What she wanted to write according to what she felt at this time.

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