Forced to Marry a Girl of Mama's Choice
chapter 12

Do I have to be Kinara first so you can think of me?

It's all about Kinara, but I never envy her. He was my friend. And I love him.

Nara, can you just give me a little time to feel a little love from my husband? You will surely be happy after this, for I will never again be an impostor in your life.

I know you are a couple who love each other...

Ayra ended the writing with a few drops of her tears falling right on the paper which made the writing appear to fade and look like a special signature she wrote for her husband.

Too many things Ayra wanted to pour in her journal. But because it was too crowded, finally only little by little Ayra made it.

"I don't think I want to count down. Because it will only make me die slowly. Now is not the time to mourn something like this. Just a few months left and Brother Er will get a life of his own brother without a shadow from me."

Ayra tried to strengthen her heart. Rubbing old journals that are very old, then he put them back in a place that others do not know.

Ayra started to return to the kitchen and tried to prepare Er's lunch. Ayra did not want to continue lamenting her endless fate. He prefers to explore himself in the kitchen for cooking.

"Ta... Fried chicken sepesial in cooking with love," he exclaimed cheerfully and prepared provisions for her husband.

Ayra returned to the room after finishing preparing the provisions for Er. He sent a message to Er.

"Today I cooked Kak Er's favorite fried chicken. Maybe Er wants to? I'll deliver it." Ayra wrote.

Waiting for a while there was no reply. Ayra is still trying to get Er's love. Today he returned to work at Arkan's apartment. Because it was Arkan who told him to rest considering the face of Ayra who looked pale at that time.

So Ayra took the time to take her husband's heart.

After getting everything ready, Ayra started taking her off to her husband's office. He had already ordered a taxi. Ayra stepped out of the apartment humming to cover her heart.

"I know I'm not for you, Brother Er." said Ayra after getting out of the taxi and walking towards her husband's office.

After delivering her husband's lunch, Ayra decided to shop for a bit of kitchen necessities using her personal money.

Ayra got into the elevator with the stuff she was holding in her hand. He tried to smile every time he passed the employees. Not many of them know that Ayra is the wife of her superior.

Ayra greeted every employee who passed her. He kept pounding what if he met Kinara. How will he react later.

Ayra asked the secretary Er who was outside her husband's room. And the secretary said it was a break for his boss.

With a certain step Ayra began to open the door of her husband's room. "I'm sorry, I don't think there's anyone else" Ayra said guiltily.

Er is seriously talking to his co-worker. This was indeed a break for lunch, but Er had not ended her conversation with her co-worker.

"I've replied to your message that I don't want supplies" explained Er coldly. The look on his face was so obvious if he was upset.

"Sorry, I haven't checked my phone yet."

Ayra smiled and walked out of the room. As much as her energy held back her tears. He just kept his head down. Her crying broke as she re-entered the elevator.

"He was so close to me. But it was so hard for me to reach her heart. His heart was locked and only for one person, Kinara."

After wiping her tears, Ayra came out of the elevator still with a sense of tightness in her heart. Even though it is much better now. Ayra decided to eat the food.

No matter how broken her heart was, Ayra still could not bear to throw food away.

"Just a few months, forever I'll let go of that feeling. At least I know I've never been wanted."

Cooking was fun for him. This is what makes him manage to divert attention from the hurt feelings he constantly feels.

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Kinara contacted Er and told her to have dinner at her apartment. The man's heart was very happy because his lover was no longer angry after his rejection some time ago.

After returning from the office, he decided to go straight to Kinara's apartment. But she gets a message notification from the mother who wants her and Ayra to have dinner at the main house.

Er in the dilemma landa. He could never refuse his mother. But he also did not want Nara to become even more angry at him.

Inevitably Er also drove his car to return home. He will invite Ayra to dinner at the main house.

"Quick change your clothes, we'll have dinner at Mama's house" Er said as she saw Ayra in the room.

"Why did Brother Er tell me all of a sudden?"

"It's quick to change your clothes and then we leave. I don't want Nara to wait too long for me" said Er annoyed.

Degs...

Kinara again? Ayra remained silent. Could it be that during his life he would feel one-sided love? Her fertile love for Er always breaks. Loving Er is like holding a fire in his hand.

Ayra nodded her head just according to Er's wishes. He immediately changed his clothes and they immediately went to the main house.

Arriving at the main house, Mama Via and Papa Bintang welcomed their arrival warmly. Er also suddenly acted like a husband to Ayra. And that made Ayra so surprised.

"Darling, let's go in" Er asked.

Although Ayra knew that it was just Er's play, but still her heart was so rustled with Er's pretentious warm treatment.

Mama Via so spoiled Ayra. Makes Er so careless to see it. From then on he was not calm. Er just kept glancing at his watch.

"Why don't you eat, Er?" mama Via asked when she saw Er who looked agitated.

"Well, Mam, I eat." said Er. He scoops a bribe, but his phone makes him sure it's from Nara. Maybe Kinara was already angry because the message was not answered by Er.

Er also finished eating. He wiped his lips with a eating tissue.

"Mom, Daddy. Looks like we should be home soon. There's a file Er hasn't finished yet. So Er has to revise it." Er told a lie.

"But you guys just ate it a little time to be left behind? At least let's finish dinner tonight." said Mama Via.

"Yes, you can still revise later tonight, Er. We'd better get it done." Papa Bintang's chimpanzee.

"But Dad, this is very important. Very big project . So sorry, Ayra and I are just gonna go home. Next time we'll stay here, Mam, Dad."

After a long debate, Mama Via and Papa Bintang finally allowed them to return disappointed.

On the way home, Er dropped Ayra on the road. Then he gave Ayra a few hundred bills.

"Find your own taxi. I have to get to Kinara's apartment, right away" Er said.

Ayra wants to protest. But Er looked at him sharply. Ayra finally got off on the road. He stared at Er's car which was getting away from him.

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