Garden Benches
Letting Go And Starting
Letting go and Starting
When it is time to let go, then be prepared to start the step, because when the breath is still flowing, life will continue rolling.
“Dia?”
I squint a little, I pull my hair back.
“Yes, the girl is beautiful and cute, Gie.” Citra said he still noticed Kunthi who was still fighting with Anton, while it was seen that Pak Cipto and Bu Cipto were in their midst.
“I don't know who he is, Cit. He bumped into me as I hurriedly chased down the bumblebee carrying Ghifa.”
“Bumblebee? Hahaha You mean Santi's car?”
“Iya ..”
Then slide the story of tension that happened yesterday. Sport the heart of the day while chasing yellow cars and fears for Ghifa's safety. Until Kunthi's involvement is just like that. Of course I describe it in a flat tone, so that no emotions are awakened. Anyway, I should support Citra for the beginning of her steps, not by starting from disbelief.
“He forced along when Lutfi mas already sent Bumblebee's point of existence coordinates. That's how Cit was, just like that until he met Santi. I can no longer be angry, my position has been taken over by the girl. He got angry and argued with Santi from where I met Ghifa, until he got home. Even when Iptu Risma came, they were still fighting. And this morning, suddenly he was nylonong again and forced to come here.”
The image again chuckled as it shook its head, still absorbed in watching Kunthi. My heart became bright, the dark that had been struggling lately gradually disappeared. I felt relieved, seeing the laughter inflate the face of Citra. Although sunken panda eyes, and her thin cheeks told of another reality. I hope things will improve, even if I am not willing to let go in this situation. There's nothing else I can do, except walk around watching him from afar. Because next to him there is Anton who has promised to take care of him.
“That's what Anton expected, I was busy saving Ghifa so I couldn't dwell. Anton is afraid I'm desperate to thwart your wedding process.” I said with a chuckle.
The image looked at me, moment wide and then quickly smiled.
“I'm sorry Anton, yes, Gie .. Maybe his ego will hold him back from saying this, but I represent my husband to apologize for all the silliness he made to you.” Citra said firmly but gently.
“Take it easy, I've forgiven her since Mom said not to renew the case, Cit.”
“Mother ..” voice Image choked.
“Main with Anton if you have time, Cit. I will be very happy to welcome you.”
The image looked down, I saw his shoulders gently raised. Either a sigh or a restrained sob. But when his head came back up he threw his gaze away from my face.
“Thank you, Gie.”
I nodded, although Citra did not see me, I was sure she felt that. A moment's silence between us. So this is what it feels like to let go of something that's stuck. The tightness of the whack becomes airy, but the pain is felt in the marks left behind.
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Silent during the trip. We beg to say goodbye to Mr. Cipto's family, after the arrival of several other guests who were also able to attend that day. Including Santi. Bu Cipto forced us to enjoy the lunch first, although we refused subtly. But Ghifa is in Citra's arms and will not be released before we complete his request.
If he obeyed Ghifa, he was sulking not to go home. I don't know what Kunthi whispered to him, until the little girl with curls turned and nodded strongly when I said goodbye. What did Kunthi say when she embraced and brought her lips closer to Santi's ears. Until the girl breakouts with the hair ponytail was just according. Once I saw Santi approaching Citra hugging tightly with a little glazed eyes, Citra's hands stroked her back and threw a smile. Santi also kissed the hands of Mr. Cipto and Bu Cipto with reverence and conveyed something, until the faces of the two parents Citra who had previously tensed it again softened.
Also, I don't know what Kunthi told Anton. Until the straight-haired young man with slightly narrowed eyes came to me with his gentle demeanor. And give up both of his cheeks or his body to be ready to take my blow back, if that can make me forgive him. Obviously what I did was to hold her in my arms. And whisper a word of threat to guard Citra well, or I will seize it by force. And Anton smiled, repeatedly conveying his apologies and thanks.
And in the end we waved with relief, at the new family of Anton and Citra.
But silence still colors the journey home. Ardi drove the white guy slowly, I saw from the rearview mirror, on the back bench, Lidya held Adam who enjoyed his nap, Ghifa lay his head on Kunthi's lap. And Kunthi?
Kutepuk. Pantesan quiet, Kunthi was leaning her head on the pillow bend while closing her long-haired and wiggly eyes. His face looks perfectly asleep, it turns out that the molor is also him.
I heard Ardi chuckling. Glanced at me casually.
“Why?”
“Pantes quiet, no firecrackers exploding.” My word. Lidya's giggling voice was greeted by Ardi
“Hihihi .. You miss hearing her voice, Gie?” ask Lidya from the back seat.
“Hahaha .. really!” ardi Goda.
“Ngaco! Kunthilanak's voice you mean?” my fierce.
“Who else?” Ardi chuckled, glancing at me with the corner of his eyes. I snorted in annoyance, but soon I stormed with my curiosity.
“Seriously nih, Ar. What happened earlier when I was talking to Citra?”
“Nnothing happened ... why?” replied Ardi casually.
“Totally? I mean what you're talking about, you saw Anton just opened himself up, took off his suspicions in no time.”
“Yah, so ..”
We were young
Posters on the wall
Praying we're the ones
That the teacher would not call
We would stand at each other
'Cause we were always in trouble
And all the cool kids
Did their own thing
I was on the outside
Always looking in
Yeah, I was there but I wasn't
They never really cared if I wasn't
We all need that someone
Who gets you like no one else
Right when you need it the most
We all need a soul to rely
A shoulder to cry on
A friend through the highs and the lows
I'm not gonna make it alone
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la alone
I'm not gonna make it alone
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La la la la alone
Then I saw your face
Your forgivin' eyes
Looking back at me
From the other side
Like you understand me
And I'm never letting you go, oh
We all need that someone
Who…
“I won't be alone ..”
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