Gendhis
Chapter 5 I'm Accustomed

Everyone wants to live happily, no one on earth wants to live miserable. But God is decisive for every destiny that man himself lives, as I am. I've been suffering because I'm always looking for happiness. I'm looking for ways to be free from suffering. It turned out that after yesterday afternoon, I felt like I was finding a new purpose in my life. I feel that God loves me so much, I have been trained to be patient. I was also trained to be an independent and strong woman. What a test of my life yesterday and once was a field of reward. Just imagine with me taking care of my mother, has achieved a reward because one of my filial forms at this time mother is taking care of her.

I looked at Mom's pretty face, her eyes were sad. There was no communication between us. Mom just opened her mouth when I put some rice down. I bought two packs of rice for breakfast. Bribe after bribe finally mom spent it, I this morning inevitably have to leave mom in the room. I kissed mom's forehead long enough. Mom just shut up.

‘I'm sorry that Gendhis hasn't been able to serve his mother well. You have to be alone every day. Gendhis promises not to leave mom.’ Say me in my heart. With a heavy heart I closed the door to my mother's room. Some aqua bottles I filled with drinking water, I put them on my mother's side. Some of the bread I bought I put in my mother's room. I was worried I would be late. I'm gonna find a new lease, and last night Vya gave me a house to look at for lunch. I arrived at the restaurant still quiet in the kitchen, I took a broom and some cleaning tools. I washed all the dirty tools. With a slight pull of my shirt to cover my nose, I picked up a trash that stung enough of its smell. I put it in a sack lalau I tie it tight. I pulled the sack containing the trash to the landfill and it was transported by the janitor. But suddenly I saw Uni Desi who was vomiting.

“Astaghfirullah.. what is Uni?” Ask me as I try to massage the nape of my boss wrapped in a headscarf.

“Uek... uek..” there is no answer precisely the Union is increasingly spewing out its stomach contents. I turned my face away even though the smell of vomit felt nauseating.

After the boss of the restaurant owner stood up and one hand held the bathroom wall, he turned and turned to look at me.

“Uni can ask for help with you Ndis?” uni Desi asked me with a pale face.

“What Union? If I can help later.” Answer me.

“This is a brash night shift work all, no one wants to clean up the people in front. Mumpung is still morning, Uni is afraid there are customers and they will be disgusted to eat at our place. It's brazen once there is a BAB and seems to accidentally throw in front of our restaurant.” Said Uni Desi while holding her mouth. He looks nauseous.

I also tried to clean up the dirt. I picked up some equipment that I thought could help me clean up that human waste. I headed towards the front right near the entrance saw some smudges and mounds of human waste. I didn't cover my mouth and nose, I don't know if it's disgusting, it's more rotten than the chicken shit I threw out earlier than the shit I'm currently picking up with tissue. I even clean my mother's shit when she's fussy. Moreover, lately mothers often do not routinely take the drug that I usually redeem in pharmacies based on the prescription of the doctor who handles the mother.

After I saw that there were no more stains, I cleaned it with perfumed soap so that there was no more aroma. I don't know why I prefer to wipe the last time the glass and wall that had dirt with wet wipes. I just feel nauseous, if some people feel the wet wipes are fragrant. I just feel nauseous. Almost every mother is fussy, so I use wet wipes to clean her body affected by dirt when BAB and I are not home. It is not easy to clean the dirt when it has dried, not to mention getting into the sidelines as a mother's fingernails.

When I finished cleaning up the human waste, I hurried to clean my hands. As soon as I make sure there's no color, no scent in my hand. I went ahead to mop the floor in the section where guests used to eat. Uni Desi suddenly came and sat down at the cashier table.

“You're not disgusted Gen?” Ask Uni curiously. I stopped from mopping and turned towards Uni Desi.

I don't know what Uni Desi thinks. He kept looking at me. In the afternoon, I will return home as usual. I didn't tell Uni Desi that my mother had a mental breakdown. I'm just saying that mom can't walk.

“Yin, later in the afternoon Gendhis portions two yes. Starting today afternoon Gendhis bring two servings of rice.” Decree of the Union of Desi on Yiyin one of the servants in the field restaurant owned by the Union of Desi.

“Ya Ni.” Yiyin replied while glancing dislikefully at me.

“Ndak Usah Ni, ndak. Just one serving. I can go home during the day thanks.” I said.

“Have not refused sustenance, ndak elok. You've been working here for a month. You are also the most obedient and diligent. Don't refuse, this is an order. I do not love you, love your mother who is home.” Uni Desi Speech.

I nodded, as usual I went home on a bicycle. When I got home, I opened my mom's door. In the mother's room there was only one mattress and pillows. As I was dealing with human waste this morning, this time I had to sigh deeply. I glanced at the watch. There's no time to straighten your waist for a moment. Mother's hands, the walls of the room and also the mattress are dirty with dirt. IBU BAB is likely still early so that the dirt has dried. I quickly rolled up my shirt and opened my jeans. Only wearing shorts. I cleaned my room and took my mom to the bathroom. I even resorted to using a lid to clean the inside of mom's nails. When I finished, I gave a pack of rice to my mother. I saw my mother eat voraciously, somehow I never get tired of the rice field. I'm just getting bored.

“Pelan-pelan Bu...” I said while taking one rice at the end of my lips. Mother did not care about me, she continued to enjoy the rice field. Until the banana leaf that became the base he licks until clean. I just smiled, it has become a mother's habit. At least mother feels full, I also opened one drug that is usually consumed by mother, I give it to mother.

“Bu, sit in the room yes. Don't get angry or yell. Gendhis work first.” Say to mom. I closed my mother's bedroom door and slightly rested my forehead on my mother's bedroom door.

“Sabar Ndis... strong.. strong... don't give up. Forgive Gendhis ma'am, be patient. Forgive me God if I have to leave my own mother.I have to fight for a better future again.” I said bitterly. I feel guilty every time I leave my mother at home. But this is more human than me staying one roof with Mother.

I was tired and was still pedaling my bike a little quickly because I was late. If I hadn't cleaned up the shit in mom's room and body, I might not have been late. Just got to the kitchen door. A pair of eyes stared at me cynically.

“Enak yes, feel like your golden boy!” He said while ruffled by the waist.