Hidden Feeling's
Chapter 1
I always hide my feelings, when I'm in love, lonely, suffering, angry I always hide them, that's why I can't give out any expression at all so I'm always called a doll with no feelings for my friends and my parents, when I was little I first fell in love, and she's my childhood friend Anisa, she's my only friend.
She always wanted to play with me, I would always be with her, so I studied hard to get a high school with Anisa, and I would express my feelings to her.
december 20, 2017, Today is the day of the announcement of the results of the school entrance test, I am very nervous, do I pass what is it?, What if I do not pass?, what if I do not pass?, I muttered in my heart while looking for my name, and I was surprised to see my name on the list of people who graduated not only that I was also in class with Anisa, today was the happiest day.
"Haa...Ragil looks like we're classmates, thank God for having a friend I know"Anisa said as she sighed in relief.
"Regular of the question" I replied with a flat face.
"Are you not happy Ragil?." asked Anisa with sparkling eyes.
"Yes yes, I'm very happy too, because I can class with you" replied Ragil with a flat face again.
"Well let's celebrate, my friend is coming too, you want to come?." asked Anisa with a smile.
"I'm not coming, I'm not interested" I said as I turned around and left.
Why can't I be honest with myself, eat and drink with Anisa, I really want to come along, sorry Anisa I said such a harsh sentence, next time I'll come with you.
january 5, 2018, today is the first day we enter school, we gather in the school building for the reception of new students, as usual I have always been the center of attention of people, but I'm used to it.
"Ragil can I sit next to you?.."Anisa smiled at me.
"Your turn" answered me.
After that Anisa sat next to me, akhhh.I was very nervous times, what should I talk about, surely she got tired of sitting with me.
"Murid who received the highest grade award is Anisa Azahra, please come forward and give a speech" the Head of the School said firmly.
There are many rumors that the headmaster here once defeated many parents in a fight, his face and voice are very sinister.
"Ready sir!.."Anisa came forward to say a welcome sentence, because Anisa was the student who got the highest grade.
"Woo.beautiful times, it's smart beautiful again, does she have a boyfriend.."whisper the whisper of the person in the room.
I realized again that Anisa is a beautiful, smart, kind person again, does she want to be with me?. I can't think negatively, I have to try.
After that we were invited around the school with our homeroom class.
"Okay kids, now I'm your homeroom teacher, class X A, my name is Sumedi call me Medi sir, I teach History, you understand"Pak Medi looked at us with a sharp gaze.
"Understand Mr. Medi"sumua class X A student.
We were taken around with Mr. Medi, although he looks scary but Mr. Medi is very good in explaining the place in school.
may 2, 2018, 5 months have passed my relationship with Anisa, there is no development at all, so I made a bold decision, which is I will shoot Anisa today, she said, so I want to ask Anisa for a date after coming home later, keep fitting date I'll shoot her.
"Teens...Teng...Teng.., for all the students it's time to go home from school,...Teng...Teng...Teng.."the sound of the school bell rang.
"Ah.oh yes, Anisa do you have a crush on Ragil, I always see you guys together." asked her friend Anisa, Melda.
"Ehh, why did it arrive, I'm the same Ragil is just a friend" Anisa replied with a smiling face.
"Eeeehh, so why are you approaching her" Melda asked again.
I didn't really hear what they were talking about, like they were talking about me.
"Right, right, what you like about the doll" laughed Anisa's friend Tasya.
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"I'm not interested in that emotionless doll at all, it's just my tool to become famous" Anisa replied with a wicked smile.
"Wicked times you're Anisa, not your childhood friends" Anisa's friend asked with a laugh.
"Actually I've had enough of Ragil" Anisa laughed.
"tuk.tuk.tuk.."people running.
I heard all their conversations, I ran away.
"True, there's no way Anisa likes me, everything is fake, I'm just a doll, so no need to be sad, everything is natural" I laughed as myself.
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Damn, breksek, *******, dog, why?why?, I'm always like this, when I want to cry and get angry, so why, why, me, me, me......
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