Hidden Feeling's
Chapters 10
This is Ragil's story when he was in Elementary School, and his meeting with Anisa.
When I was little I liked to laugh, maybe that's why I also like to make people laugh, I was always laughed at by my friends and I was always told "Crazy" by everyone, I just want them to laugh and be happy, but I can only fake a smile in front of them.
"woy, Ragil was in your classroom crazy times, dare you say that same teacher ahahahaha.." my friend.
I just laughed a little and pretended to be angry.Everything was just fake....
Maybe later I will get a good reward, that's how I think...
Why are only bad people lucky?....
Why when people laugh, tears come out?....
Why does the word "good-bye" make me cramped?...
Why is everyone happy because of money?....
Why is the film that there are dead people is very good?....
I don't know.But I believe that if all my efforts will be reciprocated, I always get a 1st champion at school, maybe I can do anything if I try that's what I think, I like adventure so I always bring my friends adventure but they always refuse...
"Sensei I want to talk about my future can you?!! where will I be kayaking?!! a lot of people say it's just me who knows?!! is it selfish if you just want to live to see the sky?!, life is already very sick!! sensei how do I make things easy?!! what childhood sensei dream?!! what if an adult can forget?...!!!crying can make a strong man just nonsense, sensei I don't care about everything...
In my body there is an empty hole.
I always try more than others, because I'm sure my efforts will not be in vain, I'm always number 1, I can certainly be greater than others.
But everything was destroyed when he came, how much I tried and struggled I couldn't keep up, he had something I didn't have, which was....
Talent..!
Her name was Anisa the transfer student who entered my school, and the first time I saw her I saw God.....
God's Injustice..!
She was always alone in class, didn't want to hang out with anyone, every hour of rest she always went to the library read books, and I always paid attention to her, I always thought maybe he was God, he was too perfect in any field.
Is my emotion good or not?..
"aha. ahahahahahahahhaha...all my efforts are useless at all, I am not number one at all ahahahahaha.."I laughed at myself.
We're in Grade 6 Elementary, I'm surprised at what I did with Anisa, but we never spoke at all.
One day I realized something that Anisa never laughed, surely she laughed at all my efforts? that's what I think, no matter how many ordinary people try not to be able to defeat geniuses.
I was always upset because of Anisa, until one day we went home with her, she spoke to me with an innocent face.
"You are Gilak" Anisa said.
I was very angry then.
"what?, what face is that?, I know that better than you!! but that doesn't mean I like to go crazy!! I want to be a genius like you!! I tried but everything was in vain, I? me?...
Don't want to live..!!"
I yelled at Anisa loudly.
Anisa suddenly smiled and said....
"so crazy people are wrong, you are special, you are a genius, after all genius is only one level above crazy" Anisa said with a flat face.
That's a really upset word, but somehow my heart was a little relieved.
"I like you enough, actually I want to have friends, but somehow everything is away from me, but when I see you maybe I can be friends with you" Anisa said with a flat face
"maybe that's because you're too dumb" I mocked him.
"that can't be because I always got a 1st champion!!"said Anisa who was angry with me.
I realized something, if we were so similar, I kept laughing.
"what's funny" Anisa said
i smile.
"Anisa, am I selfish to say I just want to know you" I said
I saw you laughing for the first time and it was so beautiful.
It was really something that was very valuable to me, therefore I could be more free.
After we became close friends, I promised myself I wouldn't leave him alone.
Therefore from SD to College we are always together.
"that's all about me, have you satisfied my other one......
Despas".