Hidden Feeling's
Chapter 3
I killed my parents, I woke up and just knew it but somehow I didn't cry or suffer at all, today I'm going to live in an orphanage where I see many children who have the same fate as me. I became a doll, no one wanted to play with me.
My friend is but a Silence, if I close my eyes I hear the sound of birds, the sound of water droplets, and the sound of a child's laughter.
November 1, 2007, I was able to attend school today, and today is also the day that I started my bullying, every day, every day, every day, every day, every day, all I had was a wound, but I didn't want to make the man in the orphanage a hassle so I made a fake smile when I got home from school.
"A disgusting, disgusting, disgusting, disgusting, disgusting, disgusting" inside me as I smiled falsely
"hueeekk...ha.ha..tomorrow should I make a smile like what?.... troublesome" I reflected with a pale face
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Why was I born?...today in school I was given a task that is when I grow up I want to be what?..haaa...I do not care about it, fake doesn't need a dream.
November 5, 2007, my bullying worsened, and I complained to the teacher, and they were scolded out by the teacher with this my bullying would end....I thought so but they didn't stop at all, really stupid times I, I forgot if they were just trash, where might want to stop hahahaha...
After school I invited them into the forest, there I was just beaten by them like they were angry I did not meet the teacher.
"dolls like you don't get a cock"
"Ragil looks like you should be taught a lesson"
"dolls like you why can't they live?"
"really why am I alive?. troublesome" I replied in my heart
They vented all their anger at me, but I felt nothing, yelled, cried, I felt nothing, like a heartless doll.
"Woyy.... Stop..!!"Female voice
It was there that I first met Anisa.
"Stop it.I'll tell you your teacher"Anisa threatened them.
"Eh...no, aren't we just playing the ajanya?"they're scared
"play around?, really?, if that's not papa" Anisa went from there
But they were trash, where maybe they let Anisa go, they tried to attack Anisa from behind.
"Woy lookout!!" I spontaneously said it
Anisa was conscious and evaded him.
"Damn why you told me, you fucking doll" by stepping on my belly
Anisa attacks back at them, they lose badly because Anisa is learning martial arts.
"thank you for saving me" Anisa smiled
"that's what I said you should, why did you save me?"much
"done.."Anisa smiled
Suddenly My heart was very sick when all this time I did not feel anything, and somehow I cried.
"loh why are you crying, did I say something strange"Anisa Confused
"i don't know..why am I crying?"I cry constantly.
I remember everything, why did I kill my parents?, everything I remember, and I was probably in love with Anisa, I wanted to stay with her.
November 7, 2007, today I had to put together my assigned duties, and I realized that all this time, I had gotten my answer, I laughed
in class
"next Ragil read what your dream is if you grow up" the teacher asked
I stood up and smiled.
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want to be a puppet"
One class was surprised by my answer and I kept smiling throughout the lesson, and the lesson was over, I called out to those who bullied me.
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I laughed
"what are you laughing at the doll"
"monster base"
"me, now very grateful to you" I said with a smile
"huh!"they're confused
"because of you I can remember everything, I, I, I, I, killed my own parents" I smiled.
"what did you say?"ask them while shivering in fear
"i'm very very very happy" I said
"in return I will kill you all yes, just relax I'm used to it, kill your trash I'm used to it" I smiled
I took the knife in my pocket, they were scared while running away, and I chased after them with a smile and a laugh
"today we play a chase, I take care of ya, you run" I said with a smile
"mo.the monster"
"sreeekk"
I smiled
"mama, papa, congratulations to me"
"sreeekk"
I smiled
"akkhhh.., please don't kill me"
"sreeekk"
I smiled
"i'm not wrong, so please don't kill me"
"sreeekk"
I laughed
I killed them one by one and the forest became a beautiful red forest.
"so disgusting.."