Husband, Honey Mouth Poison
Nathan's outpouring of hearts
Nathan Pov.
I'm so glad to hear that Raisya has a child with me. I had a chance to re-refer to him for a good reason. But dear Raisya was too hurt and would not forgive me.
I tried to apologize, my heart was so fragile. I feel sure Raisya will not forgive me because the mistakes I made were indeed too many.
Besides Raisya having children, I was even more shocked. It turned out that the Raisya I married was the Raisya I had considered dead. Geez. My guilt increased to him.
I kept begging Raisya for her to forgive me. I know that my emotional nature is not one hundred percent healed. I became impatient to see Raisya. I became determined to commit suicide after Raisya refused me completely and did not want me to be Arsel's father.
I don't know where the whisper came from. I intend to kill myself with a pen still in my shirt pocket. I want to show Raisya that I really intend to apologize and want to go back to her.
Finally the ballpoint pen broke through my chest. I am sure that my life is on the edge, I don't remember anything anymore.
I thought I was dead. It turned out so bad I was in the hospital. Then I survived death. I just had surgery to feel pain in my chest. Yes, every breath I feel seems to be interested.
After I escaped the crisis I was transferred to the treatment room. The first one I asked the nurse was that I wanted to see Raisya. My longing I can't take it anymore. After my life was saved, I didn't want to waste the opportunity to meet him. I wish that if I were this weak I could melt Ray and take his heart.
Sure enough he came to me. From the look in his eyes, I could see that Raisya was very sorry. I was trying to take advantage of this moment. Because of my longing that was stirring I said**** her lips and Raisya did not reject my actions. We forgot to forget our problems. We seem to enjoy the action. Yes, for a long time I resisted the desire finally I can anchor without rejection even though only our lips meet.
I saw a red hue on Raisya's face. Maybe he's embarrassed and burned too. At that moment I expressed my desire to return. Raisya only replied that he would think about it first and would ask his parents for permission first. I couldn't force him to answer. It's been accepted like this I've had fun.
Since Raisya had to wait for Arsel as well as myself, she felt troubled. Finally he was intent on combining my treatment with Arsel's to make it easier to take care of both. That certainly makes me happy. Without being asked I could have a room with my son Arsel.
I was so happy and happy in one room. There's Arsel, Michel, Raisya and Ratna. Seeing their interactions made me want to get well soon and want to immediately feel familiarity as they did. By looking at them it feels happy that I can soar.
Yes, this happiness I felt was not long old. The arrival of papih makes the atmosphere tense. Raisya offended finally he came out of the room and looked for a new room for my son Arsel to occupy.
The doctor immediately put oxygen. The tightness I felt slowly improved. But the doctor went straight to check with a series of cheks that I myself did not understand. My body dropped, but yesterday I felt better.
And I never thought I had stage 4 lung cancer. That's a great blow to my mentality. I who just survived death as if the angel of death was not willing to give up his power to continue stalking me with a terrible disease. I don't know when I got that disease. But obviously my life is not healthy which is always a cigarette addict after my life is a mess.
After receiving the news, I asked the doctor who handled me to keep it a secret. I don't want everyone to be saddened by the news.
Now my breath is getting sick. It felt like something was gnawing in my chest. After yesterday my life was almost floating now I made my life gradually weakened. I realized maybe my sins were too much so God made me aware in this way.
I thought maybe my age would not be long. There is a desire I want to do in the near future. I want to marry Raisya. I convey my wish to papih and papih does not refuse to grant this wish.
In my bad state I'm still accompanied by Michel. The boy faithfully accompanied me after some time back was indeed the atmosphere of me and Michel was not good. But the boy faithfully waited for me without complaining or looking upset.
And it was unexpected that Jacky was in my room. I haven't seen him in a long time. Yeah, last time since my wedding and her wedding to Sherly. I don't know much about their lives and never find out. For me I have let Sherly go with her life and me with my life even though Sherly is not separated from the life of Michel is always mother and child.
We were suddenly familiar. Jacky actually started apologizing to me after the hostility between us lasted quite a long time. I don't know what wind made him come and apologized to me. I saw his eyeballs, I was looking for honesty in his eyes. He seemed to be serious about doing what he did. I can't deny his good intentions what condition I also don't know if I still have a long life or not.
I accepted his apology. I tried to defend my heart to accept his attitude that had tried. I think I also had a big hand in that hostility.
After Jacky apologizes, and the time to say goodbye comes Amora. I think she's a smart woman to take advantage of the situation. Several times he's been stealing glances at Jacky. I don't even like his overly aggressive attitude. Jacky says goodbye home. And now Amora is as freely tempting as I am.
In my heart I wish Amora would not do anything to me. When I couldn't get back at Amora, Jacky went back in and kicked Amora out.
The next morning, Papih unexpectedly made a video call with Raisya and Arsel. I am very happy to see both even through vidieo. That's enough for me. If I'm healthy, maybe I'll go right there. But unfortunately I was weak helpless.