I'm Too Tired of Trying
10 Is tired

two days had passed , Alia was able to go home but her injuries were still not fully recovered , but in these two days no one visited her again , and when she was allowed to go home no one was with her so she could only use the RS phone to contact her driver, and from this it was Alia not the Alia that used to be, ' she said , because he no longer wanted to lie to himself

Flashback off

it was night Alia who had been preparing to welcome her father, heard the sound of a car coming

" at last" said Alia happily as she ran out

" wow beautiful sister" said Alina while looking at Alia who went down the stairs "you also said Alia smiled "beautiful sister just like mama" said Alina happily " don't equate me " said Alia coldly which made Alina smile stop "this time don't make drama, I don't want any mistakes so smile like before understand " said Alia

" mister, miss , the big master is already in front "said his waiter "good, then come on" said Alia happily as she walked to the door that was wide open to welcome her father ,

because Alex is the eldest so he stands in front of 'Alia on the right and Alina on the left "welcome papa " alia and Alina said happily while Alex just stared coldly as his father looked at the three of them coldly and then entered, which was followed by them , and they sat in the living room " whether you want to eat " said Alia happy but not cared by her father "well okay" said Alia happy

" how your school "says her father coldly "well Alia said happy but her father did not look "good" said Alina glad "you guys go back to the room" said her father coldly " pa how about we eat together, we all have not had dinner" said Alia happy "you guys only, I'm outside , Alia after finishing my room " his father said coldly walking to his room

which makes Alia happy "why brother called "said Alina wonder "there must be a problem" said Alex "whatever, I first" said Alia happy , ' said , then went to the dining table leaving her brother, after she finished Alia went to her father's room with pleasure

alex and Alina are still at the table

" pa" said Alia opening the door to her father's room

" then, what is this "said his father showed Alia this article "o , I accidentally had someone overtake my car so I chased after her but suddenly this mother was in front of my car so I accidentally bumped into her

and this is not entirely my fault, and I have also given him money ", said Alia explained "all problems can not always be solved with money" said her father coldly " I'm sorry but I think it could be, but the way is different because there's no one who doesn't need money , because here the law does exist but if the money has played then he is always the winner" said Alia "don't bring people into your own problems, you must be able to accept your mistakes "said his father coldly "then you should be able to accept the reality" said Alia "don't switch the topic "said his father coldly

" then don't talk about being able to accept 'cause from the beginning I can accept everything but papa himself can't accept the reality" said Alia flat "what do you mean " his father began to get upset

" just reminding that life is not always in accordance with our will" said Alia

" don't beat around the bush, say what you mean "say his father "I mean, papa should accept that papa's wife died of fate not because of me" said Alia " I do accept it but the cause you "said his father coldly "no, not me but all of you who started it by continuing to make me understand everything without understanding myself" said Alia

" it's because you can't hold your anger" her father said "I should have bought as many mirrors so that you could all see yourself before accusing" Alia smiled "silently " snapped her father stood up who made Alia stand "no I don't want to , otherwise can't accept don't always bring up " shouted Alia "silent " shouted her father threw a glass vase on the table next to Alia "continue, continue to destroy, after all everything has been destroyed" cried Alia "silent, silent, I said shut up if my patience ran out I could do anything that was beyond your expectations "snaps his father "what can you do, scatters kill, destroys me , it is not that you have destroyed me " cried Alia, while Alina and Alex were about to go to their respective rooms , hearing a noise that made them enter his father's room without permission because they felt something was wrong "silent" shouted his father wanted to slap him, suddenly "father " alex yelled, making his father stop him

" why do you stop, let's slap instead of the old days you always make me hurt" cried Alia

" what papa did, Alia you also keep your attitude "angry Alex "you just shut up, you don't pretend to protect me, instead you're the same , you always make me crumble " cried Alia already can not hold back her anger "you can only , blame, hurt and always pretend to be a victim , are you still not aware here I am the victim not you but always told me to understand that you are a victim and I am the one who must understand, here I am the victim I am " angry Alia let out all her anger while letting out her tears that she had been holding back so as not to look fragile

" Alia, you're angry you should calm down first" Alex said "I'm angry but what I'm saying is my true feelings do you not understand "snaps

Alia "we understand, but you better rest you must be tired" said Alex holding Alia's hand gently "let go no pretending anymore, I'm tired of everything , I'm tired of always trying, you hear I'm tired of lying to myself, I'm so tired I can't, I'm trying to make you understand but why can't you, I need you guys , I don't want to be like this I'm bored " said Alia as she shed her tears "we're sorry" said Alex sadly hugging Alia who was crying "let go, wherever your sorry is , I also don't need her I'm tired of this family drama, I'm not a toy that can be played with at will "angry Alia pushed Alex "and you, you, I can also do this "angry Alia saw her father then threw him a glass vase near her father which made Alina who was crying in shock 'and then Alia went away with mixed feelings leaving them