I'm Too Tired of Trying
26. eyewitness slap

" how hurt, but fortunately not hurt, if I want to see, it feels good" said Alia smiling , suddenly a loud slap from Alex landed on Alia's cheek which made Alia smile and stare back

" i'm in pain from a wound again, but you slapped me instead, if my face is too big for you to see my pain" alia smiled as she turned her finger pointing at herself in front of her face

" you see, your anger at me doesn't mean you have the heart but, you should know my anger is immediately considered a crime, you know why " said Alia smilingly looking at Alina " that's because I don't mean, yes " said Alia smiled and then switched to see her father " you see how hard you and I tried in my life I always felt that it wasn't because of you that my father never made me feel meant , but you no longer need to make me feel meaningful because now without anyone I already consider myself valuable not for others but for myself" said Alia smiling while holding back her tears

" i told you I don't want to fight" said his father "yes I know , and this is what I'm trying to say , I'm not fighting , I'm pouring out my heart to you as my father but, baby you don't understand, this proves that you always think I'm complaining and keep complaining when I'm trying to tell you , if I'm, Alia, your daughter is in need of you, not others" said Alia smiling as she shed her tears, after she finished her tears

" you see me crying but you never ask, I cry because of what, what the reason is what the cause is, you know why " said Alia "it is because, because, you never want to know about me, my life, and how I am, but you instead told me, and taught me not to be selfish " cried Alia angry" but now look realize it here , I am not selfish only you who are afraid to accept that here you are selfish" said Alia venting her emotions "you always tell me this is it, Alia do not be this way do not be so, ' ' said Alia , Alia you have to be like this, it has to be so " said Alia " hey you have to realize, I'm not a machine not a robot or an inanimate object without feeling, I'm human, I'm alive , you should know that " said Alia explained by pressing "and you should be satisfied with me, not you guys who make me like this" said Alia alternately staring at the others

" Al, not so " said Alex walked over but Alia did not want to and turned to leave but was silent when she saw that Silla was there , seeing Alia who was silent Alex and the others also looked towards the door

after staring for a moment, Alia left without changing her clothes, while passing Silla , Silla also regained her senses and ran after Alia

" what have I done" said Alex feeling guilty as he looked at his hand which was used to slap Alia

" thank you "said Silla smiled "no need, anyways you did follow me" said Alia annoyed, then walked away "uh wait dong " said Silla heard Silla Alia did not stop but slowed her way, for fear of falling Silla also opened her shoes and walked barefoot

" i don't like stale talk "say Silla hesitates to walk beside Alia "i don't like it either" said Alia flatly "soii, you're fine" Silla said " you pity me " said Alia stopped and looked at Silla, Silla shook her head, saw that Alia was back to walking "no, I was just worried , like you said you're not just complaining, so you don't get me wrong I don't like to pity someone but I often worry about people" Silla smiled

" why do you care, maybe they don't care about you" said Alia who made Silla smile " I don't care because if I repay them as soon as I have, I am pitied" Silla said

" i don't think so, because my life and your life are different and so are our ways" Alia said expressionlessly "if I reply them , it will only make me feel like a person who needs to be loved so much, because I am afraid of losing someone who does have pity on me that I will only focus on one and forget the other " said Silla "what if I reply to them, it will not make me become like those who only look from one side and immediately judge without seeing how someone is " said Silla smiled "why are you talking like an old man" said Alia "yes I am older than you, much different" said Silla "o it's not look at it anyway, you're like there's no growth" said Alia smiling

" the plant is" said Silla smiling

"like you have nowhere to go" said Silla smiling "I have just not accepted" said Alia smiling "you want to come with me" said Silla " do you want to take me to be a prostitute" said Alia smiling "can, but you don't want to, today you just stay at my apartment" said Silla " I don't know you but if you kill me it doesn't matter either because I'm still confused about the purpose of my life" Alia smiled " I tell you the suffering is not to be mourned but to be enjoyed "said Silla smiling "ngaco, are you drunk" said Alia "no, just dizzy" said Silla smiling " aish if I know gini I don't want to go to the bar gini" said Alia annoyed, Alia also memapah Silla out of the bar and walk staggering but fortunately his awareness is still there " from here straight " said Alia staggering while holding Silla and holding her bag "hm what, I've said straight " said Silla annoyed unconscious " aish wants to feel good even so gout, ad duuuhh really heavy "sad Alia began to walk while staggering, when in the middle of the road Alia saw a group of men , realizing that Alia also took the initiative to turn around and pass the other way because she knew if something happened she would not win because at this time she was half conscious "hehehe grandfather married " muttered Silla