I'm Too Tired of Trying
18. outpouring
" my sister first yes" said Alina while holding a bag containing Alia's clothes but not Alina who entered and took it in Alia's room "do you enter her room " said Alex worried "no, this is a new brother's shirt in the iron so this has not been placed in the room sister" said Alina smiled "good , let me take you, I'll go see him " said Alex
" tumben, sister does not work" said Alina
" why, brother is the owner of the company "said Alex "yes it's come" said Alina smiling
" wait a minute" said Alex reached into his pocket "why " said Alina but not answered by Alex , then called
" hello, sir" said his secretary
" hello, today you handle everything" Alex said
" what but sir sa_" said his secretary was cut off "I don't want an excuse if you don't take your severance " said Alex immediately turned off his cellphone
" sir, hello hello pakkkk "said his secretary was upset that made the other employees see her "why do I look like a princess so you guys look at me hah " annoyed that his secretary made employees who saw him refocus to his work, his secretary went to his seat with annoyance
" basis , bosses do not know what if I'm very upset" said his secretary annoyed
" yes you don't know, so if you say it in thought first" said Aslan suddenly entered
" you you, you're, you're not polite" said secretary Alex upset "my name is Silla Alianza, do you understand Aslan otherwise I can teach you to understand how!? " silla said "why you don't make your boss understand me" said Aslan sitting at Silla's desk "silent, if he heard you'd be done" Silla warned " indeed, there is something that can make us finish besides that person "said Aslan quietly "don't discuss it in front of me, why are you here" said Silla arrived to judge " don't judge it dong dong ditang beauty later say "said Aslan smiled
but ignored by Silla "well, this I only bring provisions for brother" said Aslan
" tumben, what do you want" said Silla flat
" hm this brother knows aja, brother is indeed the best ter brother "said Aslan happy "don't talk stale" said Silla flat "well, this is soon my birthday so, so, I want you to come and be with her, you know what I mean and you guys are the ones who set it all up " said Aslan "I understand but you know it's impossible " said Silla flat
" maybe, as long as you two really care about me, all this time I've been following you and this time I want you to obey me" Aslan said " how about I give you the gift you want " said Silla bargaining
" and this is what I want, I know brother won't let me down, and I don't accept excuses, you know where to look" Aslan said walking away , not letting Silla talk
" what should I do, there prestige dong "said Silla confused "not to go there, meaning I lose dong but otherwise the damn sister can be snooped " silla was upset
" duh, you fucking "silla screamed
" you why "said his co-worker "yells himself, what's "said Silla annoyed "strange" said his colleague while shaking his head
" meeting will start unless you want to hear the sound of your heart wanting to be dislodged" said his colleague "I understand go, I'll follow "said Silla annoyed, ' said , his partner also left while Silla upsetly took the file that will be discussed
" sister" said Alina smilingly into Alia's room which was followed by Alex who entered with a normal facial expression
" what's "said Alia flat "this we bring a change of clothes for my sister" said Alina "just put it on the table, you can go" said Alia flat
" have you had breakfast" said Alex flat
" why do you care, just go here there is a nurse who takes care of me" said Alia flat
" you want me to buy you some porridge" said Alex flat
" i don't like porridge, just buy me some bread" said Alia flat which made Alex happy but fixed with her expression "do you want juice and other snacks" said Alex flat
" maybe but, remember this is just a debt so I'm asking you because I'm going to pay you, not for free or because I've forgotten what you guys did, I'm just taking advantage of what makes me profitable so don't think more " alia said flatly turning her eyes that made Alina look at Alex who looked at Alia with her expression but Alina knew that Alex was sad to hear that
" why are you quiet, if you don't want to go don't go and get out of here, you two are not just you but, Alina you should also go" said Alia flatly
" no I'm going to go, Alina if you want" said Alex who was followed by a smile from Alina , Alex left and Alina was sitting in a chair beside Alia
" what you know, brother Alex always thinks of us, brother knows first when no one visited brother, brother Alex always comes when brother Lia is asleep, I did not come but, uh, I did not come, brother knew at that time I also had a fever and at that time he wanted to take care of me and not let me be cared for by people at home , after I slept brother Alex always came to see brother but he never came again when brother woke up after brother arrived angry at that time, brother Alex was afraid that if big brother was emotional when he saw her he would instead hurt big brother again and again so he did not dare to meet big brother, ' he said , one day my brother called me when I had a fever hoping that papa could take care of one of us so he could also take care of one of us but, at that time papa was very bad brother Alex was very angry to hear the words of papa and at that time Alex no longer asked for help papa and silent to keep us " alina said at length explained gently after she finished Alia turned her head "you know, your words cannot make your treatment of me be justified , maybe if you hurt me just once maybe , maybe I can justify it with this word of yours but you know you hurt me so many times that it makes it hard for me to forget everything and that includes you , I know you're a kid but until when you'll be considered small and pampered while I'm , I can just keep forcing myself to understand everything you know it's hard I know there's more to suffer out there but people's ability to accept it is different so don't push I have to forget everything because to me it hurts so much and even now I can understand you, you can talk like this that's because you never feel what I feel so I'm asking you better tell yourself if you understand me so well that you deserve to tell me " said Alia let out her tears slowly while trying to hold back her emotions then turned her face and wiped her tears " you know I'm so confused why I shed my tears in front of people who never understand me I always understand all of you without exception but I'm confused why you guys who are a lot cannot understand me who is just this one " said Alia wiping her tears that continued to flow while turning her face away from Alina