I’M Your Crush
Chapter 4

..."For someone like me who can only harbor feelings, love can only give a suffering."...

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After school I felt very disappointed, because today I couldn't find it and see it. Oh yeah, I remember one thing. I have found his social media account but until this moment I have not dared to follow him.

His intention was that at school I would follow his social accounts when I returned home. When I got home, I hesitated a little. Because I still maintain my ego and my principle, which is that I will not follow a man's Instagram account first, unless he is a celebrity.

Your eits should not judge me right away, because everyone has different principles of life and we should respect and respect each of those differences. Yeah, although I know my principles are too much, but for a woman to have a high value woman.

But it seemed like my principle was about to collapse, and again I felt like I had licked my own saliva. Crazy indeed, falling in love has made me humble myself. But the other side of me also says that falling in love is natural.

It did not feel like this hand had worked until it was on someone's home page. And yes, with courage and also breath I finally clicked the ‘follow’ sign on the person's social media account. No need to ask who that person is, it's definitely her crush emm.

I immediately threw my phone on the bed, and I threw myself on the bed and covered the pillow in my face, and said to myself “crazy!! Hazzel is now completely CRAZY.” Yes, this is my furthest step in liking people.

I tried to neutralize myself, and moved on to change my clothes. But not long after I left, the non-tification of my phone rang. I rush to get close to him and yep, don't I. It was just a message from Zoya saying that she's going to visit my house tonight. Huft, I think I was too hopeful that the student would follow me back.

The non-tification ring went back, but this time I ignored it, because I think it was Zoya who sent me a message. After I finished changing into my clothes, I took my phone to answer Zoya's message. However, my heart suddenly cracked violently while looking at my home screen that featured a non-tification of ‘dzayyan.agasta started following you’ .

I was astonished to see it, this CRAZY has not been there 10 minutes I followed him and he has followed me back. Yes, my heart really cheered happily, and went back to making sure it came back that he was really following me. And it is no longer wrong that it is true.

Although the veranda of the owner of the name Dzayyan is very empty, even his profile does not exist, but I am very happy because he wants to accept my friendship and even follow me back. Look at the madness of people who are in love, when maybe according to others this is just a very trivial thing but for people who are kasmaran like myself this makes me flowery.

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Night has arrived, and now Zoya is in my house, even now she is looking at me sharply asking me to answer the demands of the questions she has asked earlier.

I had a feeling that Zoya had prepared a line of questions before she came to my house. I don't know if I'm so confused about Zoya why she's so curious about my business, she's too K E P O.

“So who you mean it, Ze!” I don't know how many times he asked that question after I told him the beginning I liked that person.

Hufft, I sighed a little harshly. Actually I was afraid to mention her name, even though I knew that Zoya was not the bucket-mouthed type of person, but still I was afraid to say about my feelings to others.

“I know his name is Dzayyan, he's a upperclassman, son of IPS.”

“WHAT! AHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA HAHAHAHAAAAA.” Zoya's laughter was loud. Iss I was very upset to see his response, eager for me to take my socks and stuffed in the mouth of Zoya who laughed so wide and satisfied it

“...HAHAHAhaahaa huff huff huff-“

“Udah satisfied you ngetawain me?!” I'm sorry for Zoya.

“Lagian yes a Hazzel who said he would never fall in love and would never have a crush, now states that he likes the same upperclassman, IPS class again, ahahah hahaa.”

“Ha ha ha finally my long wait happened.”

“There is no harm if IPA children like IPS children, but that does not apply to an ambitious Hazzel.” Reply Zoya.

“I think your taste is a pinter IPA child, nerdy and neat, it turns out my guess missed.” Call Zoya again.

“Yee Zoy you can not judge people from outside and yak can not also ngebedain people,” reply I do not accept Zoya's assessment of IPS children.

“ Yes who is already bucin same IPS child! uh same Dzayyan who said IPS.” son

“I just heard there is a student at our school whose name is Dzayyan,”, Zoya said again.

“I also just found out and just saw that student,” I replied.

“So kepo, you have the picture? Pengin see dong,” said Zoya while blinking her eyes.

I snorted at her gaze and Zoya's very oversized nature.

“Huh, yes have.” But I didn't stop showing it either.

“Anj*r— eh maap-maap keceplosan hehe.” I only cheered him because he said the sacred word I thought was forbidden.

“This is so handsome crazy Ze! Where did you get it, heh?! I just noticed there was such a handsome person who went to school in our school! Uh, he's really an IPS kid?? not match BGT.” Shoo Zoya after I show you a photo of Dzayyan.

“Dah ah do not over time you follow like again.” I said while grabbing my phone in Zoya's hand, which immediately made Zoya smile ignorantly.

“Ciye ehmm I think my besti is already very bucin nih, uhuy uhuyy.” Zoya's temptation to me.

“Quiet, this besti mu already has someone else who is the scene, so don't worry, I might not like let alone that first falling in love bebebku this.”

“But maybe if you like it anyway, ahahahaa,” continued Zoya.

“That happened, I don't want to see you again, dot.” My reply was just a joke. I'm not gonna let go of my friendship with Zoya just because of love.

“Iss is so cruel you Ze!”

“Indeed.”

“HAZZEL really good!!” Zoya Getet.