I’M Your Crush
Chapter 5
..."Until this moment at least I know what it's like to love in silence, harboring feelings of longing alone.”...
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It's been a week or so I've been hoping to meet with ‘dia’ again, but in fact my hope seems to be unfulfilled. The last time I met him was just that time when I was away photocopying my assignment, after that NEVER.
I was so upset, the universe was playing me. This is the first time I've really liked someone, I guess.
His social media never showed that he was alive, completely empty and deserted! He never made a story let alone post in his social media account feed. Though I struggled to leave early and go home later at school, I also went to the cafeteria every day, even I had passed her class a few times!! crazy, really. I was too deep to like and expect it. But still the trunk of his nose was never seen.
I thought he had moved school. Even during the ceremony and the morning apple he was invisible, but these two eyes had wandered everywhere. I am ashamed of myself for being a hypocrite.
“Otherwise I have to try to make sure that he's alive?” It was my murmur that might sound desperate.
I threw my body to the table and closed my eyes for a moment. At this time the condition of the class is very quiet, because at this time jamkos, and almost all my friends who are in the classroom lay their heads on the table aka mollor or sleep.
“Still upset mas crush you Ze?” The whisper of Zoya who was beside me.
“Ututu.. This is my best.”Tempted Zoya while rubbing my shoulder.
“I'm also confused, want to help nyari but I just saw her through the photo you pointed. I can't tell which person hasn't seen it, hufft.” Zoya continues
To be honest now Zoya is no longer much teasing and making fun of me. Now it seems like he understands me and supports me more not to despair, because he says it is not time to give up.
“Propay Yes Ze! You must fight for your first love.” Zoya's Spirit.
“I have been very patient even Zoy, but still he never appeared in the real world or in cyberspace. In school we never seem to, cancel us one school. On social media moreover, he is also not active!” Obviously I'm at length.
“Yee.. You don't have to talk to him about cake, self-introspection. You have never seen yourself in social media, in a new school lately you often come out.” Reply Zoya
“Before this? Where would a Hazzel step to the exit if not yet the bell home, to the canteen just do not want!” Zoya reminded me.
“Maybe your crush is one personality with you, kudet.” Zoya again.
“BRAK” Gebrak Zoya is hard on the table in front of her that makes all pairs of eyes on her.
“Don't you guys be JODOH.” Zoya Heboh
“Ishh what the hell is Zoy! I slept in shock again!” Pissed Feza with his face.
“Cave too Anj*r!” Saut Megan's.
“Bikin hangers, I think there is a teacher coming in.” This time it was Fira who chimed in.
“Ahh ga mood will be Cave,” said Dion by walking out, not how long the classroom door closed hard. “BRAK!”
All made gawking with Dion's sudden attitude, until finally Zoya's voice intruded back in the middle of a suddenly tense situation.
“Ehehe, sorry yes. Please continue to sleep, later if there is a teacher who wants to enter I hold and wake you first.” Squeak Zoya with a face full of sin.
Everyone goes back to their sleep activities. For them this is a very special time, because very rarely our class is jamkos. Therefore they will not miss this opportunity, xixixi.
But what made me very surprised was Deon's attitude which I think is a little excessive, hufft not netink maybe he is currently starving.
“Iss why that Deon, when I just broke the doang table. Is she all that?!”
“Sensi very much so guy.” Pissed Zoya
“Entah, more many thoughts times.” Answer me, raising my shoulders.
“OH YES!!”
“Sttt later the lions on wake up again!” Sergeh Zoya is fast when I'm going to make a loud noise.
“Oh yes why?” Ask Zoya
“I know Zoy how to mastiin mas Dzayyan!” I was enthusiastic, whispering of course.
“Where??” Zoya replied no less enthusiastically.
“Later to go home from school you have to nemenin I go to the bookstore usually!” I cried without rejection.
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“This is what book do we want to find Ze?”
“From yesterday you carelessly took a book while checking!”
“You if you want to find a book on how to code a guy say to his guard aja, if you do not tell me, what book you want to find later I car—ZEE! You were invited to talk!!” Pissed Zoya.
“Udah. I'm done,” reply me in the end.
“HAHH?!” Zoya Beo
“Stt don't be noisy,” I said.
“What do you mean? Oath yes Ze since you mengecrushin people your attitude added beyond reason.”
“Iss, let's go out first later I'm clearin.”
I pulled Zoya out.
“I really just want to make a story on my sosmed, you said I rarely active right? Well this is also my way to let you know later the Dzayyan mas watch my story or enggak.”
“Now do you understand, Zoya?”
Zoya just parroted hearing my explanation.
“You are too pinter yes Ze,” said Zoya in the end whose tone sounded scornful.
“Why should I post it in this bookstore?” Zoya asked annoyed
“Ya why? No one is forbidden either. I also want to smell new books, have not kissed.” for a long time
“I think I was wrong to support you so that you have gebetan, now you add f r e a k.” Zoya
“Duh whereas earlier I wanted to treat you ice dawet across there, but because you want it so yes not so.” I said, after I walked out of Zoya.
“HAZZEL you really have a hobby for me!” Said Zoya equalizing my steps.
“I'm sorry, let's treat me. I'm dehydrated too.” Zoya flickers her eyes which I find laughable. I also turned the eyeballs.
“Alright, yok.” I do, because it was just a joke. I had intended to treat him because he already wanted to accompany me here.
“Say you want to post? How not to post?” Zoya asked after we sat down and ordered two servings of dawet ice.
“Later at home.”