I'm Yours, Not His
Chapter 8

With a face full of sweat, both of them were already extremely tired. They then entered a stall on the side of the road to fill their starving stomachs. Then the salesman came over and asked, "What do you want to eat?".

"Yes ma'am, we're both very tired. Please give us a drink first" replied Nadira with a sigh of tightness.

And the seller immediately complied with their request by bringing two glasses of fresh drink.

"Thank you Mom" after that Nadira and Lala just ordered what they wanted to eat while looking for a good side dish. Not long after, they sat back quietly, then Nadira gave a small smile to Lala. "Sorry La".

"Stop that Dira, I'm not gonna listen to your apologies".

Nadira chuckled, "But somehow I will still apologize to you La for bothering you like this, even you always give me spirit when I have started to give up".

"Mmmm, and I always tell you that I will always help you. So don't forget about it".

"I won't forget La, thank you my best friend" the two chuckled together to the point that they didn't realize their order had arrived.

"Well, it looks like it's good for Dira" said Lala staring at her food. "I haven't eaten in a place like this in a long time".

"Sama La, I am also very tempted to want to eat it immediately. But before that...

"What Dira?".

"Akh, just say it. Have a good meal, Lala".

"mmm".

The two of them immediately devoured their respective food to the point that they did not have time while chatting.

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Texas group, this company has long been established and has been derived from the ancestors of the Marsel family. And now that Marsel was in Rudian's room, the two men seemed to be enjoying a warm coffee.

"Bah" Marsel called him.

"What's a cell?".

"Why do you think you're going to retire soon? But this company still needs papa" said Marsel saw Rudian seriously. "And also other officials will certainly not agree with this all. Shouldn't you consider it before making a decision?".

Rudian took a deep breath, "This is all I've been thinking about since Sel, if as soon as possible I will retire and spend the rest of my time with your mama".

"really? It's just that papa is young, what if the others disagree?".

Rudian immediately fell silent. After that he saw Marsel return, "I believe in you Marsel. I trust you that you are able to take good care of all these companies".

"Well, if that's my decision. When will you retire?".

"So soon, I'll retire. But after you're married".

"Mmmm, you and I have been talking about this. Papa will retire after you find your soul mate, so marry Marsel with any woman you like. Or need your own mama to look for it".

"Hhmmss..." Marsel's upset. "Please never involve my future with this company. I still don't want to marry any woman".

"Why?" Rudian looked at her seriously. "Your age has almost entered the head of 3 Marsel. Do you still not intend to get married?".

"Mmmm, I have absolutely no intention of getting married. So stop talking about marriage let alone never involve it with the company. If in the end you still want to retire at this easy age, it's all up to you. I'll go first, excuse me!".

Seeing Marsel leave in annoyance, Rudian took a deep breath staring at the back of Marsel who had disappeared at the end of the door there. Until a few minutes Rudian was silent, he suddenly felt a longing that was so very deep with the woman who several weeks this filled the void in his life that Nadira.

"What is he doing right now? I miss him so much" without Rudian noticing he was shedding tears.

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And now that the clock is showing at 6pm, Nadira and Lala decided to return home to where they live and continue their search tomorrow.

Upon arriving there, the two men then saw Sarah standing alone waiting for their arrival from which Sarah did not know.

Lala smiled, "Ekh Aunt Sarah. What's up Auntie?".

"Where did you two end up?" Sarah looked at Nadira who just kept her head down with a flat face.

"That's Auntie, we're out looking for a job for Nadira. But the results were not there, and we were very tired of going around to look for it, but the results were very disappointing, no company was willing to accept Nadira" lala answered honestly without realizing that Sarah seemed happy to hear the news.

"Oh" Sarah replied briefly.

"So, what's Aunt Sarah doing here? Don't tell me Aunt Sarah's expecting our return?".

"Mmmmm, I'm waiting for the return of the two of you. And you really look really tired, you better just go in and take a break before work".

"Yes Aunt. Come Dira".

Then Sarah returned smiling happily after they had moved away from her showing a sense of happiness that Nadira would never leave the place and that was what she always wanted. Karan he would never want that until he lost Nadira.

And in Nadira's room dropping her body on the bed, she looked up at the ceiling with a face full of sadness.

"Oh my God, when I want to leave this job. Why can't you ease my path? Why can't you help me God? Why do you want to see me live like this... Do you really exist or not? Aadrrkkkhh".

Despite this, today Nadira is really very disappointed in herself and to God. Because at every step of his feet he always asked God to open the way for him, but the results were not as he expected, he thought that God was right to not help him.

"Aarrkhkhh... Aaarrrkkhc... Why does it have to be like this anyway? Why should it be like this hiks.. I want to disappear from the face of this earth. I hate my life, I hate my destiny aaarrrkkkhh".

Almost 20 minutes long Nadira cried alone in his room, he then entered the bathroom soaked his entire body with cold water without undressing the clothes attached to his body first.

"Lord, if you really exist. Please help me God, I beg of you please help me out of this burden of life. I can't take it anymore, I really can't take it anymore. Even my loved ones left me and now I don't know where God aaarrrkkkhh is".