I Need Your Love
Chapter 68 " Still Thinking "

" Manda, what's wrong with you ? why don't you answer it ? is it because I was married to Vienna ?"

Amanda shook her head.

" So what's dong ? tell me so let's let your feelings be relieved "

" I'm afraid, I'm afraid that Denis may hate me,"

" I promise, I won't hate you, but tell me why you won't marry me !"

" I am ? hhmm..me, I am not a virgin anymore mas, hiks..hiks...!" Amanda was crying. Denis fell silent and was surprised to hear Amanda's explanation.

" Aren't you a virgin again ? who dares to desecrate you ? answer Manda !"

Amanda kept crying. He was so scared.

" Manda, I replied, who would dare to desecrate you, until you should be left like this ? answer Manda !"

" Hikss..hikssss...Li - Li - Linga, mas !"

" What, Lingga ? The Prabu Nigrat phallus ?"

Amanda nodded her head. I can't believe it, but Amanda can't possibly lie. Denis is very furious, it turns out that Lingga who uda desecrated Amanda. Denis clenched both hands, he was very disappointed in Lingga, he did not expect that his friend could do that.

" I'm sorry, I'm too stupid to believe the same Linga, "

Denis just kept quiet, he couldn't say anything. He was very sorry for Amanda's innocence.

" Manda, why don't you hold Lingga accountable ? why are you just quiet? why ?''

" It used to be that the Lingga would promise to marry me, after the accident, the Lingga had to go to America. Mas Lingga also told me to stay away from him and now it has been a year since Lingga has no news. I can't possibly hope, I realize who I am, I might not expect another Lingga mas, especially Ms. Nania does not like me, Nania's mother also told me to stay away from the Linga. I resigned mas, everything I submit to God, no matter how my life, I am sincere. "

" You can't give up on Manda!"

" Who wants to have this fate, no one wants to ? I can't do much mas. Denis can say no can give up, but I'm not strong mas. Many problems I faced, not to mention Mother Sekar,"

" Why again with Mother Sekar ?"

" The first lady was my mother, Mas. The mother who gave birth to me, the mother who left me and the grandmother,"

" Your mother ? Is Mom your mother? your birth mother ??"

" It was Denis. My Mom was my real mother, "

" How could ?"

" Yes that's the truth, time answers everything."

" That means that Nadine is a ?"

" My half-brother, mas. My step-sister,"

" Did Nadine Uda know this problem ?"

Amanda shook her head.

Amanda was crying again.

" Want to talk about this heart problem, but I don't know who to go to, I don't have who. It hurts to live like a kara, no one wants to know, no one wants to care. My destruction, yes only I know, my pain, yes only I know. Happy for me, only I know. People want to be happy, they can laugh without burden, while I, laugh sometimes can not afford, the weight of the burden that I have to bear. What if I'm old, is there someone who will help me?"

" What the hell are you talking about Manda ?"

" Bene to mas? I'm alone, I don't know what my life will be. I love Nadine more. Mom says, I'm just making trouble, so burden people,"

Amanda's crying broke.

" Can't say that, everyone has their own way. Maybe you now this is the fate, do not know in the future how ?"

" Denis, Denis thinks - think again if love is with me, I am not useful mas, I can only make people become more burden. I don't want someone to love me just because of pity, pity me. I don't want to mas. Denis is an educated person, surely know which is best for Denis. I'm afraid that someday there will be regret in Denis. "

Denis could only shut up. He breathed in - deep. He looked at that beautiful face. Denis is really very concerned about Amanda's life. Abandoned from childhood, never getting affection from parents, kindness and innocence in misusing others who do not behave humanity. It's very unfortunate.

Wanting Denis to embrace her, but given Lingga's treatment of her, Denis was reluctant.

How could Denis accept the unholy Amanda again ? it took him a long time to think if he could take Amanda for granted.

Amanda, a strong and patient woman, does not want to be too hopeful for Denis. Amanda knows who she is. Even if Denis loves him, loves him, he is afraid that later there will be problems that will befall his relationship.

" Manda, forgive me,"

" No papa mas, I know how you feel."

" Be sure you will find the right man for you, "

" It was mas. I'm sure it is. Even if I don't find it, I just want to be happy with the life I'm living. Mas Denis was definitely able to find a better woman than me, which is equivalent to Denis mas. Bener, to ?"

" That's not the case Manda, but Linga. You must be able to return to the Lingga, because no matter how he has to be responsible, he who uda takes your honor, "

Amanda speechless. Amanda was crying again.

" No, I don't want to expect too much. Mas Lingga uda ninggalin me, "

" No Manda, he has to take responsibility for everything he did to you,"

" But Denis, I just believe in destiny. If destiny should be me and the Lingga together, what can be done, if not, yes I have to accept, but I will not be too hopeful."

Denis hugged Amanda. Denis felt very sorry for the woman. He could feel what Amanda was feeling.

" If you want a story, my same story, I'm ready to help all your problems, "

" Inje mas, mature suwon ya mas, hiks ...hiks..hiks.."

Denis' tears flowed. Actually Denis really dead love to the woman. Whether Denis will accept it or not. Denis needs time to accept Amanda. Not because of the virgin Amanda or not, but for her honor, she wanted the Linga to be responsible for all this. Denis promised to try to help Amanda, if there is no goodwill from Lingga, Denis will replace Lingga.