I Reincarnated But Become a Girl?!
Chapters 27. Kaminata Yuka #1

I'm Yuka Halliwell, a mother of two.

My previous name was Kaminata Yuka, I came from the Hakka Islands, an archipelago located to the south of the continent.

The weather there is quite cold when compared to Altera.

I came to this continent because I was sent as a high school student representative from the Hakka Islands, there was a student exchange program at my school, and I was elected as a representative. My family was quite poor so I tried to get a scholarship in order to continue my education.

So that almost my entire life is only spent on learning and learning, no time playing, making friends with others, socialization and even romance.

I was the only child of my parents, so they held great hopes for me, but unfortunately they could not see me anymore, because they were dead.

They died when I was sent to the continent of Altera, I heard from my neighbor in the Hakka Islands that my parents were dead.

They died in a traffic accident while working.

They work for me, and I try to live up to their expectations of me.

I felt so guilty towards my parents, they kept working for me, until they finally died before I could make them happy.

I was given the opportunity to go home by a company that provided student exchange sponsors and attend the funeral ceremonies of my parents.

At the funeral there were no brothers or cousins present at the ceremony, I did not even know them because I had never met them either, and I doubt if they even exist or not.

The funeral was attended only by neighbors, some of my schoolmates and people who had known my parents.

"Once the boy's pity, he was immediately left by his parents just like that...".

"True, moreover he doesn't even have a brother or cousin who cares about him".

"What did their parents do to get their own families?"

"Somehow, maybe they have a bad trait behind it".

"Maybe so".

I heard these whispers all around me, they kept talking to me and my parents, even when my parents were dead they were still talking bad things about my parents.

It seemed like they had also died like my parents, but it was not her dead body but her feelings and dead heart.

They even talked like that near me, and it seemed like they didn't realize that I could still hear their talk, it really made me sick.

But the thing that made me sicker soon came after.

"We are so sorry Yuka".

"Yes, if there's anything you need, you can tell Auntie".

"True, you're like our own son".

"This is a little help to you".

"Thank you".

"Yes, you're welcome".

They spoke ill of me and my parents behind my back, but they pretended to be good in front of me, they just pretended to sympathize with me to make them look good in the eyes of others, they just took advantage of my parents' death to fix their masks.

They need a good, thick mask to cover their ugly, ugly facade.

Their smiles are fake, their actions are just pretending and their sympathy is a lie.

My friends are the same as them, they don't deserve to call them friends, they're just people that we happen to know because they're in the same class, I rarely socialize, I just kept focused on learning so there was no way I could have friends.

"Like, we're all so sorry about your parents' deaths".

"Yes, if there's a problem you can always tell us about it".

"Yes, that's right".

"We will always be there for you, because we are your friends".

They had never even spoken to me before, they were also the ones who incited the people I knew in class to stay away from me.

Sometimes I accidentally hear them talking bad about me.

"Hey. Look at that boy, even though he's beautiful isn't he just a nerd".

"True, I once tried to talk to him but his response was really boring".

"I'm also confused as to why men like it so much".

"You're right, yesterday on my date my boyfriend asked me about it, didn't that really piss me off?"

"Well! I didn't expect that".

"Could she actually be a cheap girl who only relies on her beauty to get the hearts of men?"

"You're right, maybe he sold his body for money, I heard his family's pretty poor".

"Haha you're right, though, it's possible that she could get into this school because of the proceeds of selling her body and she's just pretending to be a nerd to look smart but she's actually a very stupid person?".

"You might be right".

"""Hahaha"""

They even spoke loud enough in front of me and purposely so that I could hear them.

Moreover, they even spread bad rumors against me who likes to play with men and take advantage of them.

As a result, the rumor is almost known by all students in the school.

People started to stay away from me because of that, people who hate me hate me more and more, people who are good to me can only be silent so as not to be hated by those who hate me, and there are some people who choose to be neutral and turn a blind eye to this.

Some of the teachers had even known about it and their views had taken a turn for the worse towards me, and had even tried to harass me.

The same thing happened to the other students.

Going to school every morning is like going to hell every day for me.

So there was a point I was lazy to go to school because their actions were getting worse and worse against me.

It is not only through words that they hurt me but there has begun to be physical action.

I even thought about ending my life.

I am no longer strong, when I die too, no one will cry for me.

Maybe they'll be happier when I die.

Friends are a wishful thinking to me, I can keep learning until I can reach and set foot on the moon but I cannot keep learning to make friends.

Friends can not just come in someone's life even though they have been very trying to get it.

Friends can only come for those who are destined to get it, luck for those who get that fate, and misfortune for those who are avoided by fate.

Sometimes we try to make friends, but what we get is not a friend but thousands of enemies that we get.

We try to be good in front of others but in their eyes, we look very bad.

People who already hate and antagonize us will invite others to hate, antagonize and dislike us.

While people who are initially good to us will only be silent and eventually little by little come with those who are hostile to us.

Everything I know will eventually feel regret, immediately move away from me, and hate me.

I was always destined to be alone.

But my life has changed since then, which is since I met him, my current husband, Antonio Halliwell.