I Want Live In Your World
Understand

"Stop not getting close! I don't want to live with a cold, haughty stranger" I turned my back, and saw Commander Cheng's face soaked in rainwater. He was silent and felt guilty.

"Don't dare enter my residence again, if you dare to do so, I won't hesitate to kill you or kill myself, so that you can't make what you want,"

I immediately walked regardless of the rain that pierced my body. Without looking at a look I can't guess.

My mind went blank, after hearing what was being told to everyone in the party.

"How can I take it?" unconsciously I muttered. I don't know what I'm feeling, honestly I don't know what to put on a face like after hearing if Commander Cheng will marry me in front of everyone. I know I should be happy and happy because all this time I always crave someone who loves me. But my feelings suddenly felt burning, as if not me. My joy and happiness because the waiting that now ends up swallowed by the anger that suddenly rose, without being able to hold it, even though I want to do it.

Now I walk, moving my body somewhere without my control, as if I were just one of the cells in my body that wanted to turn to Commander Cheng, and agree to Commander Cheng's wishes.

I have lost my consciousness very slowly.

I saw my body lying in the rain. Looking at me that feels sad. I can't do anything.

Then it was like a dream that could not be told clearly, that was my situation. And like a dream time quickly moved me back to seeing my other self with different circumstances, with super advanced medical equipment, lying withered. I tried to mirror the glass but there I could not find my face anymore. I also sat down next to the stiff body.

"Actually, who am I? You're who? Why do I have to keep two identical bodies at two times?" I held my chin, and watching the clear face would not answer every question I asked.

"Why did you leave your lives behind and drag me down in two lives?"

Then I decided to go out and walk without direction and purpose. From a distance I saw two strangers in my eyes chatting.

"I'd better marry Abidah soon, I don't want to see Abidah hurt" the man said.

"What about the man who saved you?"

When a woman says about her, I feel that she who is in the sentence of that woman is me who is now lying down.

"Then, when will the woman lacking self-esteem be aware?" the man snaps.

"I tried to make him aware but my efforts were in vain," he continued, now throwing his face away.

"He shouldn't have done this, he should have just died, why would he have to make us feel in debt?" ask the man.

"I didn't expect that, if, we had the same blood so that it became a family," The woman said in a tired voice.

"You better do whatever you want, now it's up to you. I just wanted to give you some advice so you don't regret it later on"

I'm getting confused about this situation. Because I felt unexpected my body gradually disappeared, and like a dew bulb that was shone in the sun bit by bit. Where else would my body be carried by this mysterious pull.