I Will Avoid The Death Flag [It's Published]
45. Disclosing

Finally I found the man after the pretext of going for some fresh air because the party atmosphere was so suffocating on Viten.

On a balcony far from the party atmosphere, the person who once took on many roles within the original novel to persecute Serethy, was sitting on a comfortable sofa on the spacious balcony. The panorama of the night was the only one that was judging by the golden bead in the silver-haired youth. Every now and then, his fingers wiggle the wine glass and sip the contents slowly, trying to enjoy the moment.

On the table, three bottles of wine lined up. Two of them had already been gulped down, while the other bottle had only half left.

When the Axel bead that was overshadowed by the moonlight in the sky glowed golden when it came into contact with my violet, I saw shock in it. Hurriedly Axel put down the wine glass and straightened his body.

Axel stood in front of me, then did his greetings.

"Greetings to the month of Asher, may happiness continue to accompany you," he said, making my forehead shrivel about how much his legs were.

Hey, where's the expressive troublemaker?

"Young Master Axel," called me, making Axel re-enforce his body. "Why did the star of the party disappear from his own party?"

Axel looked flabbergasted. Her cheeks that were reddened by the influence of alcohol made it even clearer that she had a problem locked in her mind, confused about where to vent it. Although his face was red, I could tell that Axel was not drunk at all. Can be seen from his clear eyes.

"Sa-I—"

"Young Master Axel," cut me in a stern tone. "Is there something bothering you?"

Axel shook his head. "There's nothing, Princess. You don't have to worry."

I let out a breath. "Something's bothering you."

Quietly I could still hear the sound of the orchestra playing even though the balcony distance from the party hall was quite far.

"I'm fine, Princess. No need to think about it."

I exhaled heavily. He was clearly hiding something. But why didn't he just tell me the problem? Can we not be said to be close enough now? Seeing him like this is frustrating.

"Young Master, how about we dance?" take me.

"Y-Yes?" Axel rounded his golden eyes. "S-I can't possibly accept it, Princess. I can't sassy—"

"It's okay" cut me. "Nobody here will judge the two of us as they please."

The reason why Viten rejected Axel's second gift was because the hundreds of pairs of eyes on the party floor would judge as if they were the truest. However, there were only the two of us here who made us not have to worry about the piercing sight of others.

I could see Axel's bead trembling faintly, but he lowered his body while extending his hand to me.

I received a helping hand and we instantly followed the faint orchestral rhythm that sounded. Track one by one the dance fields on the balcony floor, dance as freely as a bird, embrace each other, share warmth, stare at each other, hit violets and gold at the same point and time.

Within such a close distance, I could see a golden highlight filled with mysteries. I want to know what is behind the mystery. I was so curious about what he was hiding that I was frustrated.

"Are you upset with me?" I was in the middle of our dance.

"I might feel upset at you, Princess," Axel replied. This time, a gentle smile was painted on her face, making the party star look even more charming.

"I think you're upset that I took over Miss Clare's punishment" I said. "And you are so angry at what Miss Clare has done to your family."

His hand on my waist tightened, pulling me deeper into his embrace.

"No, Princess. I'm not upset with you, nor do I feel any resentment because you took over the punishment against Clare. Instead, I feel very happy because the Princess is able to avenge me and Sorena's revenge. Nothing is more satisfying than that."

I twisted my body, Axel grabbed my waist. We shared a dance plot and went back to dancing according to the study of manners, accompanied by the moonlight that looked.

"Then why does Young Master feel different?"

Axel silences. He turned my body and grabbed my waist again.

Axel shut up for a few seconds before he opened his lips, "I feel disappointed."

Pause. Axel was debating whether he should speak his heart or not.

"I'm really happy because the grudge in my heart is reciprocated. However, at the same time, I feel my heart is broken, Princess."

I frowned. "Why?"

"Queen of Asher."

Uh.

"You declare yourself to be the Queen of Asher decisively, as if not accepting the inviolability. Do you know what your own statement means? To be Queen of Asher is to be married to His Majesty."

So, that's what bothers Axel. The same is true of Sir Derick.

"And how devastated I felt when I heard the information slide right off your lips. I'm really desperate, I feel that I don't have any more hope of having you. For the sake of the Sun Goddess, I love you. I Love You from my heart. It was purely because of a feeling of admiration on my chest."

The orchestral music stopped, a sign that the song's half was over. Our dance came to a halt and I just stuck listening to Axel's explanation.

"Actually, when I expressed my full support towards you becoming the Queen of Asher at Clare's party, I did so without me noticing. In front of me was Clare, making me unable to think clearly, and making me pull crap out of my lips. I support you to be Queen only for a grudge in my heart. In fact, I don't want you to be Queen."

Axel took a breath. Try to prepare mentally before expressing his feelings deeper and further.

"Then, you are finally declared to be Queen Asher. I am happy, but I am also sad. I'm glad you were able to achieve your dream, but I was sad when I realized that you couldn't stand by my side, couldn't be with me. I really felt devastated at that moment.

"I'm in pain. It took me a long time to recover and make peace. Being willing to refute the truth for dozens of times, willing to reject the same fact for hundreds of times, the same reality will continue to slap me, that you will continue to be with His Majesty. On the side of His Majesty always, form a family, and live happily. Thinking about it makes me almost feel crazy."

Axel's breath hunted after he was done with his sentence. His face reddened by the influence of alcohol makes Axel look as if he is really desperate and does not know what else to do.

I was quite stunned by how complex this problem was. I never would have thought if Axel could love me too. Even though he had asked permission to love me at that time, but I thought there was a difference in context in terms of love and affection. However, apparently, the thing I don't know is that Axel's feelings are growing bigger, the more hurt Axel is, the more it destroys him.

"Young Master Axel—"

"It's okay, Princess," Axel cut off before I even intend to reply to his long sentence. "Don't pity me, don't have to reciprocate my feelings, and don't need to feel guilty. This is my feeling. I was the one who presumptuously allowed my heart to be entered by the Princess until it was hard to deny it. However, as long as I spend time with you, I feel happy not to be a bitch. I will continue to appreciate the same moment. Now, I am trying to reconcile the Princess with Her Majesty. May you be happy always with Your Majesty, Princess."

"Young Master Axel, thank you for expressing your feelings. I appreciate it."

When I heard my words, Axel remained mired in disappointment in his face but tried to stay firm.

"I know how hard it is to hold everything alone. Young Master Axel is amazing. Thank you for loving me and forgive me."

Oi. Who said I loved that psychopath? No, kok. Although lately he's been a little soft on me, but still I don't love him.

"I'll be waiting for your wedding invitation soon" Axel said.

Hearing it gives me goosebumps. Who decides who I like, huh?

But this Axel guy really. I let out a breath.

"After I get married, will you still love me?" my many.

"I'm not sure my feelings will disappear so quickly. I'm sure my feelings will continue to perch in the same place."

"So, how about you be my concubine?" Pause. "But I'm kidding."

Although I already said that I was joking, Axel still could not hide the shock on his face.

As if awakened, Axel then patted his thumping chest.

"I think the Princess is serious. Too bad," he said.

Hey, what's so bad?! I don't think he really wants that position if there is one.

However, is the Queen allowed to take the concubine as well as her partner? In some of the novels I've read, it could be, anyway. And instead of a bad idea also to attract Axel so sel—enough, Serethy, do not add to the problem.

I let out a breath. "I was just kidding. Don't take it too seriously."

"However, if anything, I want that position," he murmured which I can still hear.

Well, did I say the wrong thing, yeah. My jokes are taken seriously.

"Then, Young Master Axel, what if you go back to the party hall? The stars in this party shouldn't have left the party for too long."

"In that case, I'll go first. We can't go back at the same time if we don't want to reap the no-no rumors."

Makes sense.

My affair scandal with Axel will definitely spread if I get caught back with Axel to the party.

Axel stretched out his hand, I unhesitatingly accepted his words. Axel kissed the back of my hand, then smiled gently.

"May happiness be with you, the month of the Kingdom of Asher."

Axel retreated with a lighter smile on his lips.

It seemed like the expression of those feelings made his burden disappear a little. Well, I'm pretty happy.

I approached the wall and leaned slightly there, looking at the shadow of the moon goddess in the sky.

The burden on my heart also broke.

...***...

Axel poured the wine in both glasses on the table, then handed one of them in front of Viten.

"I didn't think His Majesty would want to talk to me" Axel said, opening the topic for the first time.

Viten shook the glass of alcohol before sipping it slowly. "Well, let's just say I'm a wise king who wants to settle things that never end between us."

Axel smiled as he looked at his alcohol glass. "Sorena, huh?"

Silence in the party room.

"I'm so happy with your engagement to the Princess" Axel continued, he looked at Viten right in his eyes. Gold and red collide. "However, I hope you sincerely love the Princess."

Viten frowned. "I love her very much."

Axel smile. "Thank God then." Axel sipped alcohol in one gulp, then returned to pour alcohol in his own glass. "I'm only worried that Your Majesty only loves the Princess because the Princess is so similar to Sorena. Regarding how pink hair, violet eyes, and gentle behavior. I'm just afraid the Princess is a victim to your unfinished feelings. I'm afraid that Your Majesty just can't turn away your feelings for Sorena and take them out on the Princess. Either way, your story is not finished at all, it has only just begun, but it has to be resolved."

The handle of Viten in his glass tightened. "I love Serethy sincerely."

Axel smiled gently. "Then, I feel the worry in my heart diminishes."

Viten sighed, then finished the alcohol in his glass in one gulp.

"I'm not crazy about Sorena anymore" said Viten, Axel positioning his attention. "After all, inevitably I can't survive at the same point. I have to keep moving forward. And being stuck in the past with Sorena wasn't a good choice, where I should have taken it off. Take off Sorena."

Axel smile. "Thank you so much for loving my sister. For nine-year-old Sorena, it is not the age she deserves to have a love story, but I know best how happy Sorena is when she gets your attention."

It seemed, just this time Axel and Viten engaged in a serious conversation without unnecessary debate. This makes the atmosphere of the room feel calmer.

"Thank you again because at that moment, I who had difficulty expressing feelings, could feel a foreign feeling in my heart," Viten replied calmly.

Axel chuckled small. "Imagine that seventeen-year-old fell in love with a nine-year-old boy."

"You." Viten just sighed. "Whatever. Sorena is my past that I can't just throw away, she's too precious to be thrown out of my mind. However, I can confirm that the one I love is Serethy. There was a difference in taste in my chest when I thought of Sorena and Serethy. I feel more alive with Serethy."

"I hope that feeling will settle within you, Your Majesty. Please make the Princess feel happy all her life. Otherwise, I will snatch the Princess from your hands."

Viten grinning. "Just try it."

"By pleasure." Axel smiled broadly.

Now, both Axel and Viten have felt better after revealing everything buried in the chest. Where both continue to hold the same thing until almost crazy.

The past problems that have not been resolved need to be resolved to start a new story. That's why Axel needs to make sure that Viten really loves Serethy or is he just stuck in an obsession named Sorena to be ventured on Serethy.

To be honest, both Axel and Viten never hated each other. Although the two had secretly blamed each other for the death of one precious existence, neither could hate each other. There is a strong bond where both are still playmates and partners.

Small-scale debates are how they convey their feelings and support for each other. Because, for both of them who have lost a valuable figure in life, they feel so devastated that they do not know what to vent it with.