If Destiny Had Wanted
Fear of growing up

Year after year has passed. now it has finally reached the age of 16 years, where all the complaints suffered by me began

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:"At this time I have started to grow up"

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:"There is nothing bad about adults"

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":yes, a lot"

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when I see a lot of people complaining because I'm an adult I think

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:"that's how mature I am" I said when I was 12

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it turns out that there are many complaints from adults I also had time to hesitate because it was as severe

is that becoming an adult?

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I always think when I grow up I start to grow up how I am

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...when in the room...

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while eating I always thought about being an adult the thought went on

haunt my mind

:"when I grow up I want to be a doctor ah" I said when I was a kid

:"ohh Wid wants to be a doctor?" said my mama

:"iyaa ma let Wid can nolong a lot"

:"good hope yes"

:"yes"maa"

that was my word when I was a kid

there are so many dreams I want but so many dreams are buried for

the sacrifice of sleep

being an adult is like this, I always have

seeing people working hard, I always

seeing adults work hard even poor he was in school

when I was a kid I always wanted to be an adult, I said as an adult

:"no patience to be an adult must be exciting, have their own money, anyway

exclaim"

turns out all I saw was the sweet side

being an adult I was always so scared when

I became an adult liliya once said

:"grown-ups are so boring, I don't want to grow up."

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that's how I always used to be at first

wanting to be an adult is now a real fear of being an adult

when I see my sister who always

in college and while working I once said

:"is that bad for an adult?"

"being an adult is a lot of responsibility" said my friend

:"self-responsibility?" Said I asked

"yes there's a big responsibility what else you are an only child the bigger the responsibility"

I was afraid of growing up because I wasn't ready at all

but what else is the name destiny, though,

no one knows.

being an adult is not easy

being an adult when you are really ready to experience it just like your parents

:"This kid wants pocket money yes, you pack the necessary yes"

when I wanted to be an adult there were so many exams I faced what else when I

being an adult will be worse

being an adult is a lot of things that will test us.

I'm so scared of being an adult because of what? because kak evil feels not yet

successful

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The biggest factor why KakEvil is afraid of growing up is that you feel not yet

success. Success or achievement as you expect. Samapi kak evil

ever talk to yourself like

:"when I grow up, can't you? I became successful I was so scared that I let my mother down" I said

Maybe right now I feel that you are not experiencing any progress and because

I still look like a child

I feel like nothing has changed about me

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scaring me to grow up, where life will feel heavier. This

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I've become envious But I say to myself again

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:"other people when they become adults can become successful"

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:"I would love to be like him"

:"but I'm so afraid that I'll fail and disappoint my mother" I said"

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Not yet financially independent is a problem experienced by young people today

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start growing up. Your current living expenses may still be borne by your parents.

how to become an adult, if now brother Widodo is still a burden on the family that is still Mintak

:"if I want to be an adult I have to study independently from now on"

self-study when it is important, what else when you want to work far away or you are a school away from parents

:"kangen mama know, Where mama and I miss once I'm with mama"

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Another sign that I am afraid to grow up is easy emotions. This can be caused by various things. It may

right now I am depressed by the reality you face, so you are easily emotional by it.

Frequent complaining is also often faced by people who are afraid to grow up. They

often blame others for the responsibility they should bear.

Anxiety about the future is also often experienced by

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people who are afraid grow up. They worry about the clarity of life

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them. They worry about which steps they will take.

:"duh how the future will come"

there are many thoughts that we experience because

how we will be in the future.

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The ideals of people out there, especially young people, are impacting around.

They want to do something that can help around the environment

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what more when we are eager to be useful people in the future and others

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You guys never ever worry about expectations.

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Expectations often kill ourselves. How not? Expectations from parents, for example. Expectations often

parents are too tall and we are afraid we cannot make it happen, hence this fear

followed also by worries if the more adult upset the parents.

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:"I don't want to disappoint my mom"

:"I will continue to try to imagine wanting to kill me"

:"I'm gonna make my mom proud"

sometimes we are adults always

negative thinking

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...in my room...

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exactly when I was thinking that

I'm scared to grow up because I'm so scared

it will disappoint my mother

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:"I'm so scared of being an adult"

:"I'm afraid I'm gonna let my mom or my family down"

:"because I haven't been able to be an independent child, I still want to be close to my mother"

I'm so scared to want to be an adult because I don't want to be an adult yet

because I always think negatively

about what if I let the parents down what else am I

:" what if I fail to achieve my dream"

I always think about how I am

in the future, I am not ready.

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...chapter 7 completed 💯...