It's Not Me Who's Your Wife
Episode 18 Raditya's Confession

Raditya POV

The cold night air I let pierced my body on the porch behind the room.

Anxiety permeates the soul that has been shaken by the inequality of the treatment of the two women who are filling the heart, many times I ask for guidance to the Yang on the Top with this heartbreak, he said, and always he is the one who appears in the eye as well as the heart.

" Mad, it's night, don't get a lot of cold in your bones," that soft voice always sounded in my ears when I was just able to sit pensively with its restlessness.

With shoes to help my feet not full as a body support, my hands holding his shoulders walking to the mattress, I sat on the side of the mattress, he took off the shoes and touched both feet softly.

My eyes do not want to waste looking at every body snore in front of me, especially the beautiful face and shade that has made me unable to withstand the chest pounding that always rumbling and hope that Ay is currently dropping the body in the my chest, so that it can hug her body tightly.

" Ay, please put your hand on my chest, too, "I ventured to beg her.

" Have your chest hurt? " i have forbidden to call me sir.

" Yes Ay, my chest pain, come closer Ay, "my eyes are ceaselessly staring at his face, as well as his beads, but he is reluctant and remains busy wiping my foot swabs.

" Will I repeat the request? " gumanku's.

" Ay, come closer."

" It's Mas, I'm sleepy, he said tomorrow to make fried rice," he could always refuse what I wanted by diverting the word.

Since I found out there was no food stall near the campus, and what he always brought for my lunch was his cooking, then I always asked to be eaten.

" Ay, you're not afraid as the wife doesn't obey the husband?" I said, and do not get tired of his bored eyes look at a pretty face without polishing, he still gently massaged the soles of the feet and stroked my calf elus and this time Ay would obey my request to put these two feet in his lap.

" Well, why are you?" I know he is confused, he replied.

And every night as long as Kiara doesn't come Mami, Papi or Mas Raihan always goes in the room even Aliandra sleeps with Ayana, so how hard can I be together long with Ayana.

I'm a normal guy, with always in contact with Ay, let alone a woman of the dreams of men, making my heart very heavy if you take it off.

" She, you will soon be able to walk," said Mami, her eyes looking sharply at Ayana's face, and she was only able to look down, while my heart was in pain, it hurts because I know the direction Mami said.

" Ay, Aliandra wants to sleep, let Ditya with Mami, "pinta Mami, my hand reflexes hold Ay's hand, it's not willing that the woman who patiently took care of me for 5 months, should get off the bed.

" Detya, you begin to reduce dependence on Ay, " said Mami, this heart is like a dagger, sore, sick.

I took off my hand, while my eyes did not blink looking at my woman coming down from the bed, not realizing that these eyes were glassy by imagining I had to release Ay from my side.

" Mommy... understand me, "my words, Mami's eyes widened sharply, I grumbled with sadness.

" You, love Mas Raihan, right, " said Mami again.

" Please Mi, don't ask for this, don't I always give up on Mas Raihan? " saying.

Papi's company that is getting ahead, let alone having two boys who are said to sometimes continue it, but firmly Mas Raihan refused to jump into the business world, he said, the reason he prefers to devote himself to education, and after I manage it, the share of the results is not worth the energy I spend.

Mas Raihan who did not participate in managing got the same results as me whose mind and energy were more poured into the company, even very sad when still with his mother Aliandra, who was still with him, I have to give more for the sake of following the same lifestyle as Kiara, if Kiara does not mind using her own money, until I am forced to complain about spending money just to obey Mas Raihan's wife.

" Ditya, Mas Raihan really loves Dania, you should be able to develop this company again, cooperation with Pradipa Group should not break up, and until whenever you have to wait for Kiara, " Mami knew Kiara always gave up when invited to get married, so I had to keep waiting for her, until my fateful event occurred, and at Kiara's insistence that I be cared for by others and Mami find Ayana.

Then which man in a state like me in full care of sincerity by women kayak Ayana let alone been married thinking of leaving him even let go.

No matter how strong the defense I had, I ended up breaking down as well.

" Ditya, Ayana tomorrow no longer need to take you to the office, you can be the same Darto, in the office, right, it's not like still in a wheelchair, " said Mami.

" Mi, I still need Ayana's help, "with Mami's words, inside there felt slashed by a pointed knife, sore, I did not let go if Ayana moved away from me.

But I can what? whatever Mami said it was very difficult for me to answer "no" even though the mind was tormented.

How foolish I am, who can only be silent, wish there was good luck on my side, without me being able to fight for what is already mine.

" Ay, will your heart have a taste like mine, a feeling that is difficult to describe with words or can even be decomposed with various beautiful strings of sentences? " my inner.

Tonight hoping for a miracle on my side, Ayana goes back to sleep in this room, even in a long wooden chair, but when I opened my eyes I could see a body wrapped in a baby doll shirt or that was stretched out in a cot chair tightly closed by a blanket, like when I was still hanging from a wheelchair.

" Raditya, your leg bones are not yet strong enough to walk upright without help, but your heart and mind can walk to fight for the woman who has become your right," I have always been able to monologue in the heart, as well as holding a feeling of pain in the heart, so many times I had to exhale hard, until I coughed.

" Ay, Aliandra's asleep, I'm making some warm tea, and I'm going to get on with the job" I wrote.

And every night is the only way I do this, just to be able to see up close and smell the smell of his body.

My face glowed after the two blue ticks appeared, as well as typing writing in the upper middle.

It didn't take long for Ay to enter the room with a large glass of warm tea, which was placed on the desk and then approached me, to put the shoes on both feet.

I looked into her eyes, like I was crying.

When Ay wrapped both hands around my waist, the habit I always did was to bow down to kiss the tip of his head.

" Well.... " Ay looked up with lips to smile and close his hands, I never wasted this, the hand that I always circled was even more tightly held so that our bodies were always sticking.

Eyes dewy and felt my tee shirt wet until it penetrated to the chest.

Where I was able to take off the woman who for 5 months patiently helped so that my legs can return to normal, without fatigue, even when she was sleepy at night still woke up.

This heart prefers a rich woman to a material rich, though I have to fight with Mas Raihan who has more supporters, especially Kiara and Mami.

" You married Ayana on my support Mas, but it was married temporarily," kiara said a few months ago with the threat of breaking the cooperation between Pradipa Group and Adi House of the Group and revoking its shares as well as aid will be withdrawn.

The dilemma for me, while I was charged with the condition of my feet not being able to walk had to advance the family company.

That's why I always hoped for a miracle to stay with the woman I was holding so tightly, until I didn't hear the call of Mami who was sleeping in the long chair.

" Don't let go of me Ay, "my door cleared, because the hand that was looped to my waist began to slacken.

" She, the tea is cold, not if you want to make fried rice in the morning, "my back is soft, the pounding of my chest is getting rumbling, "my back is soft, and I really enjoyed his pure hand movements.

" Ay, Aliandra's left alone!" Ay was aghast until he took off both hands that were coiled around my body.

" That chest is sore, "I complained in my heart.

" With Him who leads Mami, you wait for Aliandra! " tidas Mami to Ay.

" Mi, I've always troubled you. "I haven't finished my words cut by Mami.

" Therefore, according to Mami, if your Papi company is destroyed, it could be our bubble, " said Mami kenceng, and Ay is not seen again in this room.