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The Prophet said : “Do not a male believer hate a woman you’minah, because if he sees any of his actions that are not liked, he will undoubtedly find other morals that he likes.”
(CHR. Muslim 1469)
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🌸بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ🌸
Happy reading
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Three days later
Azhar looks handsome in her casual clothes, she is waiting for Sarah who is getting ready but it has been almost an hour not ready as well. His plan today is to keep his promise to Sarah to take him for a walk and spend time together like a date.
However, before that Azhar will invite his wife to stop by the campus for a while to just leave her independent duties to students who do not feel a month away will face UAS and Azhar officially transferred to Indonesia. That's deal.
In addition to hearing Sarah's complaints about her regrets about ignoring the lecture until Sarah agreed to continue her studies after the Azhar affair was completed here, Sarah also expressed her sense of boredom that Azhar always left to work every day.
Azhar also admitted wrong because often leave Sarah by prioritizing her busyness. Even so, he did it all in order to accelerate the completion of his contract in this country.
Chequelek
“I'm ready, Come!” said Sarah.
Azhar blinked to look at Sarah's appearance at a glance. Sarah is beautiful in her knee-length pink dress and a hair-styled hairstyle that rolls up to reveal her neckline.
Azhar closed her eyes trying to find the right sentence to start again advising Sarah for the umpteenth time.
“Kok is silent anyway. So, don't you, let me walk? For two days you kept going. Said we want to start dating today.” added Sarah again when not receiving a response from the man in front of her.
Azhar swallowed all her words and nodded. He did not want to provoke a commotion like before just a matter of not liking the way Sarah dressed. Azhar also smiled a little until she stepped out of her apartment room first, she did not even look at Sarah in the slightest after the first look earlier.
Sarah looked at Azhar's attitude in confusion. He deliberately dressed a little more openly than usual to dress up excessively this morning. Not to seek praise from her husband, but she wants to be greeted and advised as before. Because, it has been a few days Azhar impressed to kiss Sarah.
Until Sarah was deliberately like this to provoke the anger of Azhar again because if Azhar scolded her today then Sarah was determined to try to change the way she dressed. But what, he got was opposite. Azhar did not comment or even chimed in on what she was doing. Azhar doesn't seem to care anymore.
Sarah was saddened by Azhar's change in attitude towards her. Sarah just needs to be advised a little more then she will try to be better because she needs to be strengthened from her sense of doubt.
“You silent kok, come on!” sarah's daydream was stopped by Azhar's voice.
Sarah nodded, she held her small bag and followed Azhar's steps which felt very different. When in the car was the same, Azhar did not invite him to talk and not even look at him. Is the word of love that Azhar often said is a lie. Think Sarah.
Is this what you call dating? Is this what she says starts the relationship gently? Azhar just ignored his existence and the man was even engrossed in receiving a phone call from someone named ‘Adzkia.’
“Yes, you don't be sad. What time do you leave?”
Azhar asked the figure behind her phone.
“...........”
“Alright, don't cry. Insya’Allah later I pick up.”
“............”
“Oke, you do not say that anymore. You should be grateful for this veil open now, if you have time to get married then you will be really sorry.”
“..........”
“Have it, don't cry anymore. Everything has happened and there is nothing to regret. I already know everything from your people, I'm sorry I couldn't see how you felt about me. But now it's too late, you already know how I am. Okay, you calm down, don't be rash and I'll help you solve this problem as best I can.”
Deg
Sarah felt a throbbing pain in her chest. Why could Azhar's gaze when receiving a call from the person across there also be this gentle? Who exactly is Adzkia? Is this Adzkia the same person as Adzkia who was present at their wedding reception?
Wasn't he a distant cousin of Azhar and also about to get married? But what Sarah heard was painful. Adzkia has feelings for Azhar and her husband knows about those feelings? Does Azhar regret marrying me now? thought.
Suddenly Sarah's eyes heat up hearing Azhar's worried tone for the woman.
“Sarah, later in the afternoon I have to pick up someone at the airport. Our plans later in the afternoon are forced to be canceled, sorry yes can not be according to plan.”, said Azhar after closing her phone. He said, looking at Sarah.
Sarah was silent, why Azhar attention to Adzkia and instead underestimate the existence of his wife even since two days ago he was cold to Sarah. Although Azhar was nice to her when she found out Sarah was late for lunch, but that attitude only lasted a little. Azhar had been flat with him again until now.
“Azhar, don't hurt me when my heart can accept your presence. Nor do you break my race that has even just budged.” Inner Sarah.
“Good.” replied Sarah briefly.
Seeing that, Sarah turned her sitting position until facing out sadly, why is Azhar's attitude. Sarah tried to hold back the tears that wanted to appear but hard to contain, her mood was so supportive that this clear melt soaked her face. Sarah cried and tried to hide her prey from the person beside her.
Azhar who was dizzy thinking about Adzkia's problem and accidentally ignored Sarah, now suddenly looked at Sarah who had turned her back. Azhar was confused as to how to start her conversation. On the one hand he felt very guilty about acting this way to Sarah, but on the other hand he had to follow
sarah's will that doesn't want to be advised.
Sarah felt constrained by Azhar's many suggestions on how to dress her. Moreover, Sarah's speech a few days ago is still humbled by Azhar's eyes, Sarah hates her attitude that always shows love, is not it? Until Azhar was disappointed if it still persisted with such an attitude. Especially with the Adzkia problem.
Adzkia called him and told him all his complaints to ask Azhar for help. Azhar couldn't resist it until she agreed. However, does Azhar have the heart to cancel their joint event that will be spent until later tonight to pick up and help Adzkia?
Azhar was confused, because not only Sarah, Azhar was very much looking forward to this day and their togetherness to start a relationship called courtship. However, it cannot go according to plan. The atmosphere from just now does not describe two people who have just knit a relationship of feeling. Azhar was still at home with her attitude and Sarah did not have the initiative first to change the atmosphere.
Azhar occasionally stares at the street and occasionally sees Sarah, but Sarah is still loyal to her position. Azhar felt increasingly guilty and then frowned in wonder when she saw Sarah's back tremble slightly.
“Hei, Sarah. Why are you sitting on that side? Here straight.” said Azhar while patting Sarah's shoulder slowly but Sarah brushed Azhar's hand without turning her head in the least.
Azhar did not give up until she left her car to stop at the park parking lot which is still quiet this morning.
“Sarah, look at me! Tell me something, what's wrong with you?” azhar said again after releasing her selfbelt and approached Sarah until she held both of her open shoulders.
Azhar twisted Sarah's body until it completely faced her.
Deg
Sarah looked down and wiped her tears. Azhar's guess is right. His wife cried until she chose to back him earlier.
“I'm down here only. I can walk by myself. If you are busy, do not force it. You are very difficult to take your time for me.” said Sarah in a hoarse voice.
Azhar sighed, suppressing her guilt, she chimed in, “kok said that anyway?“
Sarah takes off Azhar's hand on her shoulder to release her selfbelt with a state of emotion and hurt. Who wouldn't be hurt if her husband ignored her and was engrossed in worrying about another woman who proved to love him. While he was with his wife who he deliberately ignored on the day they should have gone through beautifully.
Bruck..
Sarah closed Azhar's car door violently, walking quickly away to the park where there were only a few people there.
Azhar growled, dizzy with Sarah's anger until she followed his wife's steps. He ran after Sarah and then managed to hold his wife from behind.
Dep
Sarah again struggled to escape from Azhar. He came back crying. He admitted to some reason why he was so crybaby in front of Azhar. Especially since he had been hurt by Faris. He doesn't want to be hurt again. Not when it felt like it was just starting to show up for her husband.
“Why have you ignored me since that day? What was wrong until you came back to live with me like this and canceled our plans?” sarah said, still thrashing.
He ignores the shame if his whiny behavior is seen by others.
Azhar further tightened her arms to the top of Sarah's head trying to calm his wife who slowly stopped her movement.
“Sorry, I'm sorry Sarah.” muttered Azhar while turning Sarah's body towards her.
“Azhar, I'm confused if you're like this. To whom I complain if you just don't want to look at me anymore.” Sarah said.
Azhar wiped away Sarah's tears and dragged her back to the car gently.
"Sarah, don't talk like that. I explained that you are not wrong. I was wrong because I often disappointed myself if I looked at your face. I just don't want to make you uncomfortable and hate me more.” said Azhar when the two had returned to the car.
Sarah looked at Azhar, “how could you think I was uncomfortable with you and what? Hating you? You know, with you hanging out with me and no longer paying attention to me with your advice, I feel like you're no longer willing to stick with me. You regret choosing to be with me. Have you grown tired of being with a woman with a myriad of flaws like me?”
Deg
Azhar gently grasped the side of Sarah's face while shaking her head.
“You no longer want to know how I am when you are busy with your business out there. You no longer ask me whether you have prayed or not. You dwell on me as if we were just tied up in marriage without trying to knit a taste like the phrase you used to say to me before. You don't comment when I look like this and you're also excited to talk to someone on the phone. You were so worried about that woman when I was next to you and waiting for a warm conversation with you" Sarah said incessantly with her emotions.
"Sarah, listen to a-"
Azhar's words were cut off by Sarah who still could not return to tears. "Sickness, Azhar. It hurts so much to know that she loves you and you are willing to cancel our plans later that afternoon for her sake. I was so waiting for this day to be able to spend twenty-four hours with you. I am just unemployed to follow my husband who always ignores me. If this continues, you also hurt me like Faris even in the same country you make me feel unappreciated. I could have given up. So, if you feel sorry and before it's too late. Let go of me!”
Deg
Azhar didn't think Sarah would say this. Azhar held Sarah's body which shook again. How fragile his wife feels, his feelings are soft to very easy to cry. Think Azhar.
When he found out Sarah had not stopped her crying, Azhar stretched her arms until she landed her lips on Sarah with a little roughness. He hated to hear Sarah's words until Azhar rudely wanted to remove the traces from his wife's lips. He channeled his feelings with unexpected emotions.
"I love you Sarah, only death will deliver me from you." - Azhar
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Kerinci (Jambi), 07/10/2019