Koi Wo Shiyou
16

Just hold your hand tight, though,

made me forget where I was headed....

to a place that is not inhabited, any,

to a world no one knows

....with you.

...

I returned home after a long time in the hospital.

*tings

my phone rang and it turned out to be a message from Acha, I immediately replied to him.

not long after that Acha came to my house and immediately hugged me at that moment.

"W....!!! I guess I can't see you opening your eyes again" Acha said as she continued to hug me

"don't talk about what you don't" I replied, replying to Acha's embrace

"Let's tell me now what happened back then" said Acha as she let go of her embrace.

"i really wanted to tell a story but I don't remember anything at that time.all I remember was waking up in the hospital and Lee said I was in a coma for a week" Obviously I sat on my bed hugging a pillow.

"haih, if you already remember the story to me later" said Acha and sat next to me.

Acha also told me about the events at the club during my coma, but things changed when she started telling me about Gavin.

"I don't understand Cha. I've never had a relationship myself and I'm still unstable about Claude or Lee"

"i don't know if the world is too cruel for me. I sometimes feel tired and want to rest about this feeling, when I should just give up because I already know the reality.but ..."

"but?"

"it's not about giving up or not. It's about if once you fall in love with someone you will continue to feel attached to him.The way to give up is just hate, hate, but I still can't do that" Acha explained, looking like crying but she seemed to hold back her tears

instantly my body moved with its own embrace of Acha and stroked her hair gently.

*don't cry*these words are always repeated in my head

"i'm sure Acha can get through this. Acha girl strong"

"thank you, Ruby, you are my best friend" replied Acha, crying.

Acha cried out what she had been feeling all this time.I could feel a little how Acha was feeling at the moment.

but I kind of remembered something related to Gavin a little, even vaguely.

*Seehelp Claude!* the instant the memory that tried to come out kept breaking through my head.

time showed at 3 pm Acha was home.I lay my body in bed while trying to remember the incident before I lay limp in the hospital.

and again .... why in the hospital at that time there was only Lee? where's my Claude? does he have no intention of seeing me at all?

thinking about these two men can sometimes make me even more confused about feelings.why they have a constantly changing nature changes without clarity.

*tings

the sound of the phone breaking my daydream, I immediately saw my phone guess who sent me a message.

I opened the door for Claude and let him in.

when I entered my room Claude immediately hugged me, the longer the embrace tighter as if there would be a fear that could not be explained.

"I'm sorry I failed to look after you" Claude said as he continued to hug me.

"wait, Claude .. do you mean? I don't understand.I just don't remember anything that I know, I woke up in a hospital bed" answered me confused while a little rebellious.

"no motion! like this, just for a moment .. I miss you" Claude said.

I also noticed claude. his hair is still a little wet, the smell of his shampoo can be smelled very clear. did he come straight here after the bath?. all I knew was that she hugged me and my heart felt like it wanted to jump out of its place.

but ....

why do I feel so ordinary now? I was thinking about Lee. Why didn't Lee come here?

Claude let go of his embrace and looked me in the eye.

"why-why?"

all of a sudden she kissed my lips immediately I immediately let go of her kiss.

"Claude! what are you!?" I asked her a little bit in a panic about what she was doing.

but Claude kissed me anyway, his kiss was a little forced to make me uncomfortable, but he held my head so I wouldn't let go of his kiss.

Claude pushed my body up on the bed and put himself on top of me. He held both my hands. As much as I could move so that he did not do more than a kiss.

but he held my hand getting stronger so I had difficulty moving.I closed both my eyes quickly

"Ruby! listen me!" Claude said, I opened my eyes. "I miss you, why are you a gini?" claude looked at my eyes

"What's this supposed to be? Claude, I'm not comfortable.don't keep going .. Please" answered me while looking back at Claude's eyes

"why? we did it and you didn't resist. But now, you're refusing a kiss from me. What's the matter!?" Claude said, the look in his eyes showed that he was disappointed in me.

"i just don't want to, I just got out of my coma. Please don't do this first"

"do you no longer have any taste in me? do you feel completely for your black prince?" Claude asked "Ruby I'll take him away from you, if I can't get you I'll get him for me" Claude continued while releasing me.

I got up and sat down next to Claude.

"just try to take him away from me" I said as I looked down and the head "Claude .. You are handsome, many women who like you, why should the man you are after? you should also know that Lee strict. You won't be able to get him" kept me while keeping my head down

"i used to be strict too, everyone can change depending around him. If I keep trying he can just I snatch from ka-" Claude had not had time to finish his words I also shouted

"DON'T!"

"You're ta-"

"I TOLD YOU NEVER TO TOUCH HER!"

Suddenly I remembered everything that happened before I went into a coma and about ka Gavin. My body shook, I was scared .. Please don't make my Lee like same-sex ..... I want you to change Claude.

I stood up and put myself in front of Claude. I gently stroked his hair and kissed him.

Claude returned my kiss in contrast to the one this kiss felt softer and not pushy.

while hugging my body Claude did not let go of his kiss.

*please change, * I said in my heart while replying to Claude's hug.

continues~