LET ME DOWN SLOWLY
Missed him
Chandra's mood was really upset. His fingers since then could not stand still knocking on his desk. His gaze did not shift at all from the dining box before him.
Yeah, Gricella's lunchbox. This afternoon Gricella returned to deliver food for herself. In addition, there was a gojek courier just sent an ice cappucino drink for himself and also Fedi.
Chandra sighed. "Why is he still sending me food?" Chandra monologues while leaning his head against the head of the chair.
"Do I have to apologize to her for my behavior yesterday?" mumbling back.
His eyes were still staring straight at the blue dining box. A few seconds later, he grabbed and opened the box. A thin smile was imprinted on the man's face, as he looked at the contents of the lunch menu sent by Gricella.
The menu he always liked, teriyaki chicken and vegetable salad. Although only two menus Chandra was very happy. Chandra touched her stomach which was already ringing. Finally, he ate with gourmet Gricella cuisine today.
Let him be called a hypocrite. Chandra just wants to appreciate everyone's gifts. That's all Chandra has in mind right now. Even if the person giving it thinks too far or too far, it's up to you. While not harassing her and defaming her good name, Chandra will never make a fuss about it. Unless that person gave and had evil intentions and disturbed his life. Only then did he act.
Elsewhere, in a small contract. A woman was busy feeding her 6-year-old son. The woman was so painstaking in nurturing her son.
"Mother, Dio will also go to school here huh?" ask the boy.
The mother smiled meaningfully. "I'm sorry, Mom. It seems that later Mas Dio will be the mother of les-in only in Mbak Ratna," replied the mother.
"Mother has not found a job. After all, if Mas Dio goes to TK or PAUD here. In a few months Mas Dio will go to elementary school and your age has also entered the age of 7 years," added the mother.
The boy named Dio nodded, as if he understood what his mother was talking about.
"Alright, Mother. In the meantime Dio will ask for guidance to study with Ms Ratna only," replied Dio.
Ratna is her cousin's sister who is now in high school. The crying sound of a two-year-old toddler distracts them. The two-child woman turned to the source of the voice. A toddler just walked into the house crying.
Not long behind him an 8-year-old girl came inside, catching up with the toddler.
"Oh, unfortunately, mom. Why cry?" the woman grabbed the child's tiny body and hugged him.
The crying of the toddler was getting louder.
"Cha Cha asks for candy, Auntie. But not Wardah. Because Wardah is afraid that Cha Cha coughs again" said the girl who followed Cha Cha.
The woman who hugged Cha Cha smiled as she gently rubbed her daughter's face. Removing the tears that washed his face.
"Already, yes! Don't cry anymore, Cha Cha has to hear what Ms. Wardah has to say. The candy is not good for Cha Cha, because Cha Cha has just healed. If Cha Cha is sick again, mother becomes sad. Cha Cha don't want to see a sad mother?" The woman pretended to show her gloomy face.
The toddler seemed to understand what the mother had just said. Cha Cha also nodded.
"Aa-aap Nda," Cha Cha Cha replied while cupping his hands in front of his chest.
The mother immediately hugged the toddler who she thought was getting smarter and adorable.
Not long after, a woman entered into the small contract while greeting. The woman brought something and gave it to Cha Cha's mother.
"What about the job show, Za?" ask the woman.
The woman named Kanza also sighed. "Not heard, Ma'am. I proposed to you yesterday at a restaurant. I hope they don't mind my marital status, which is now a widow" Kanza replied.
The woman sitting next to Kanza rubbed her back.
"The mother always prays for the good of you and your children" the woman said.
"I'm afraid that my status will make it difficult for me to find a job, Ms Lis." said Kanza.
"You just tried to apply at one restaurant, right? You haven't tried anywhere else. You can't be so pessimistic. Rest assured that Allah will always make your way easier in seeking his sustenance, for everything is arranged by him. Therefore do not stop carrying out your duties as a Muslim" Lisna added to give peace to Kanza.
Kanza smiled and nodded. He was lucky to still have a brother who loved and cared for him. Although here Lisna is only a sister-in-law, but for Kanza it is not like that. Lisna is for him her big brother. Even Lisna was the one who was the most against the matchmaking between Kanza and her ex-husband back then.
Given the events of the past, Kanza immediately remembered the figure that until now still cannot be forgotten. The figure of the man that was still stored in the bottom of his heart. The figure of the man he had hurt his heart, the figure of the man he was eager to meet. The feeling of longing for the man is now more and more felt. Then he looked back at Lisna who was holding Cha Cha. Yes, earlier when Lisna came, Cha Cha immediately asked to move into Lisna's lap.
"Eum, ma'am."
Lisna raised her head, staring intensely at Kanza with a frown.
"Why, Za?" ask Lisna.
Kanza seemed to squeeze the end of the negligee she was wearing. Lisna knew there was something that Kanza wanted to ask her or tell her.
"What's wrong with you, Za?" ask Lisna a second time.
Kanza raised her head, and ventured into Lisna's eyes.
"Eum, Ma'am. Does Ma know where Arlan is now? I-I really wanted to meet her," asked Kanza in a soft-sounding voice.
Lisna was quite stunned to hear her sister-in-law's question. Instantly one question flashed through Lisna's mind.
"Do you still love Arlan, and can't forget?"
The question from Lisna was able to make Kanza not wrinkle. The woman shook her head and silenced a thousand languages. Even he was confused what to answer? Considering it's been almost ten years they've never met.
Is it true Kanza still loves Arlan aka Chandra? Or, was that feeling just a feeling of guilt towards the man who once filled his heart?
Kanza is still confused about herself. Although he cannot deny, if he really misses the figure of the man.