Life Ku Plot Twist Banget
So adults are not good
Turns out to be a bad adult yes a lot of demands here and there . The pressure is higher but the gini life - gini aja. In the past, when I was a child, I wanted big cepet-cepet eh in fact so big person waist pain hehe.
That's how life is always a challenge every time you level up. I'm the last child, the last hope, the expectations of parents and big brother are very high as me but unfortunately I have not been able to achieve that expectation.
In any case I like to be considered a child but the expectations are extraordinarily high.
"Your friends want you to work a good salary so that you can help the family economy". My mom used to complain to me every day.
"yes, pray in aja or I also try to run.
"yes, marry a rich man, people are important mh men, not grandfather has a business so do not have to work cape - cape".
The soul mate is also part of the journey of maturity where we must find a companion for life.
sometimes like dizziness if the word when mating already has a candidate yet, what age is it again. My mother married at 18 YN as well as older sisters married at a young age. I'm 21 and I'm still flirting.
"Look at Bu Dian's son abis in the same apple as his girlfriend, when you were in the apple". Ledek my mother
"Boyfriend can not say Bu ustazah also stay halal.
"Stay halal-stay halal is not santri as well". said my mother
Emang in my family is dating normal things yes maybe for this era a very natural thing. Sisters, my cousins met their soulmates through my boyfriend at this age still never girlfriendran .
I used to love being sad why no one liked me. But now there are those who like to date me his uneasy first, ilfil first and end up choosing it yourself . I have a trust issue from my family, and it's hard to fall in love. So I choose not to date ya keep the soul mate people, continue also complicated must report at all times.
I've been horrified that the soul mate is a reflection of myself so I try to improve my relationship with the creator to be better again so that I get a good soul mate.
Like wonder why people value singles or singles as a disgrace . To think that the person himself is pathetic. But it's not a sin, is it?.
The more mature the more I think that the soul mate is not easy should be the mission sevisi, have good communication, have a careful preparation. A lifetime is too long if one chooses not to return.
I never judge people who marry young, mature people everyone has their own timeline. No one knows except God.
Pursuing a career, chasing a mate, expectations and age of parents simultaneously honestly I can not, should how, should be honest confused.
Before graduating had hopes of a good job, happy in parents, meet the best mate, happy marriage. Eh reality nyari job here and there do not get a small salary, live gini-gini aja.
Now I'm more often overthinking the problem of the future what my future will be like if my life continues like this. But sometimes I also always believe that God did not wrong to make me into this world because there will be something beautiful waiting there.
I myself but the contents of my head are very crowded and noisy with the same self, answered by myself, same kelas yourself, self-wronging . Sometimes very tired already way later also there must be an end.
The more his age the more afraid of what to do, the fear of disappointment again the same expectations that are never the same reality.
I want to go back to childhood. Free laughter does not worry about the future. It used to be a cry because it is not given money now cry because it is difficult to find money.
His word this is the name of the quarter of life crisis is a phase faced around the age of 20-30 years feel worried, confused, confused, and have no direction ahead because there is uncertainty in the continuation of life.
That phase that I'm going through he said it's a normal phase in everyone's feelings. Sick not really?. sometimes we are excited to live life , accept our own situation but always broken by the people around who should be a support system even this judgment is very painful.
I almost gave up everything but it turns out I am still strong to survive just cape aja.
People say if you have a lot of problems it should heal going far. I heard the best healing talk was to get closer to the one above and that's what I'm doing right now to be able to survive ,Because no one is good in this world. All are at war in their respective fields.