Lisa's Tears
CHAPTERS. 31 Sella paralyzed

Aska's world is completely crumbling, the child who is his only hope must leave it as well, then where else he must survive. Aska immediately shed tears, shattered his hopes to see his son born into the world, and called him with the call of papa, able to play together with his son, but now destroyed by his own mistakes. Even earlier the doctor said that Sella was paralyzed by the impact of falling down. The leg nerves in Sella's tailbone were damaged, the doctor only said that her legs were paralyzed, but doctors could not confirm Sella's paralysis was permanent, or could be cured with therapy. Aska was silent while crying over everything that happened to him, he really regretted his actions. Why Aska could not control her movements which resulted in Sella falling and losing her baby, obviously she stayed a few months to see her child born in the world. Aska wants to be angry with God, but what he has the right to be angry, if this is the fruit of his own actions, God used to be so good to him even though he was not a devout person. The doctor calmed Aska down by holding her shoulder

" I know that you are very hard hit by losing your baby, but you better accompany your wife who is much more depressed."

Aska immediately left the doctor's room and passed to Sella's nursery. Aska saw Sella who had not been aware, maybe epek of the drug that has not healed properly. Aska immediately sat beside Sella's bed, she held Sella's hand and muttered an apology many times. Aska's tears came down again until they hit Sella's hand, which she held, until Sella's hand showed movement. Aska stared at Sella's face, she saw Sella's eyes begin to slowly open. Ask to press the button to call the doctor. After that a doctor and a nurse entered Sella's room, after checking Sella's condition, the doctor and the nurse went straight from Sella's room. Aska came back closer, then immediately sat next to Sella's bed. Aska wanted to explain Sella's situation, but he was also confused where to start, because the news he delivered there was no one good news. Sella immediately asked Aska while holding her flat stomach, because from earlier Aska was just silent

" Why is my stomach flat? Was he born?"

Aska simply replied by shaking her head, making Sella frown

" God had a plan for him, and God protected him from bad parents like us."

Aska paused for a moment before she continued her sentence, as her chest felt tightness, having to lose her child

" God doesn't want him to have anything bad either, because it's because of his parents."

Sella still digested every word that came out of Aska's mouth, until one possibility appeared, making Sella immediately ask as she had in mind

" So he died?"

No words came out of Aska's mouth. Aska was only able to nod her head in response to justify Sella's remark. Sella was silent for a moment, there was a feeling of sadness in her heart, but only for a moment, because only a moment of relief dominated her heart, relieved that her son would not live with such poverty as he did, what's more Aska is bankrupt, relieved also because he can leave Aska freely without the slightest burden

" Thankfully, at least he will not feel the poor life, because his papa fell poor, and I also do not want to live poor, so I can leave the Aska mas without having to carry the burden, because Aska's poverty is a burden to me."

You know what it feels like if we are hurt and exposed to salt, even if a little, but still cause pain, like that is how Aska feels today, he said, maybe God took him because he didn't want him to suffer the consequences of his papa stupidity. The two of them were both silent, so Sella felt her legs unable to move, she asked frantically at Aska while looking at Aska anxiously

" Why can't my legs move?"

" My legs are fine, right?! Answer me, don't just shut up!"

Sella asked while shouting, because she was very scared, she was afraid that what was in her mind was reality

" Your feet are paralyzed, because the nerves in your spine are damaged by falling. I'm sorry."

Aska said so with a single breath

" No, you must be lying! I don't want to be a cripple!"

Sella refuses to believe the words Aska gave her. Sella determinedly, getting out of bed without being prevented, made her fall down, because her legs did not move. Sella screams hysterically beating Aska while crying roaring. Aska feels very guilty to Sella, she immediately hugs sella, and tries to calm her down while talking to Sella

" I'm sorry Sella, we're going through it together."

Sella who heard Aska's words, made her even more angry, because she was paralyzed by Aska, she beat Aska with all her might, while Aska just silently received a blow from Sella. Aska hopes that Sella can calm down.

" Why should I be paralyzed?! Why don't you just be paralyzed?!"

Sella's rampage became increasingly uncontrollable, coupled with screams that caused doctors and nurses to enter Sella's room. The doctor who saw Sella was not okay to make the doctor send a sedative for Sella. Sella slowly calmed down, then fell asleep. The doctor gave encouragement to Aska to face his wife, because his wife certainly felt more pain compared to Aska

" I hope you are patient, of course it is very difficult to accept the reality if we become like this. You may be sick through the behavior of the father's wife, but of course more sick by the feeling of the father's wife."

After the doctor left, Aska immediately fell down, he immediately cried over his increasingly chaotic situation. Never imagined by Aska, if he hurt the sincere heart of a Lisa, would make it very painful. Now Aska felt pain and loss that was very deep, could this sadness and loss ever be felt by Lisa. God may want Aska to know, how the pain Lisa felt first, which she destroyed deliberately. Aska immediately stood up, he turned to look at Sella, then went straight out of the room without direction and purpose, until unknowingly his feet stopped in front of the mosque, he saw the mosque building in silence, he remembered how long it had not been his duty to be a servant. Aska chose to pour out her heart with her creator, begging for mercy and begging for strength through all trials, but open trials, but instead punish her for her actions. After Selsai Aska directly out of the mosque, he immediately returned to the nursery of Sella, then he went straight into the nursery room Sella, he decided to sleep on the sofa, to wait for Sella