Litmatch Made Us Meet
Afraid of Losing you

I can't hate time for making me wait, nor can I force her to keep telling me, because it's not about coercion but who can appreciate a feeling.

A relationship will feel torturous if not share stories, bear their own wounds without telling what we feel, it will make the relationship empty, empty, better to appreciate the time we still have with each other open.

If it is said I do not think carelessly about it is impossible, however we have a relationship even though it is not something sacred and attachment to dating status.

This is the umpteenth time I have not heard from him, I have tried to contact him through his social media account but there is no result I get.

If you were in my office what would you do? Over thinking or trying to calm down keep waiting, until getting a reply from the message sent?

After getting news of him has now disappeared again like swallowed by the earth, there is no news and greetings that he used to do every morning and night.

I can only wait until contacted by him, because no matter how many messages I give him there will still be no reply.

We haven't communicated with each other for a few days, I'm so afraid that he's really going to leave without even having time to tell me, that's why I can't take it.

Right now I'm clearing the barred grass, sweeping the lawn and watering the plants.

When I was sweeping suddenly heard the ringing sound of my phone, in a hurry I immediately reached the incoming phone.

"Callo, alisa?" there was a voice from across there.

"Yes, hello, why just call? You're okay, right?" I immediately confronted him with a question.

"I am currently so often asleep and not allowed to play mobile phone because it can interfere with my rest, you will know that I am sick again, so no time to call you" he replied from there to give an explanation.

"I'm fine, you don't have to worry, the important thing is you don't force me to keep telling you because I can't" he said from there.

"But I can tell you even if it's short so I don't wait, so I don't keep thinking of you, I'm afraid you're okay" I told him worriedly.

"Yes I know you are sick, I also realize at this time I cannot take care of you by accompanying you, so there is no need to be informed but at least appreciate my feelings, I'm worried about your health" I said getting tired of everything.

"You tired, huh? are you tired of me disappearing without this news? I'm sorry I let you down because of my circumstances, if you can't afford it anymore you can choose to leave" he said from there began to give up.

"You even told me to leave? I'm not saying get bored let alone tired of you, I'm just asking you to tell me even if it's a short message." I asked him.

"you think I'll choose to leave when you're not okay like this? I'm not that kind of person!" I said with great emphasis.

"sorry, I said that because I was feeling tired of our relationship so I allowed you to choose your own path, sorry I chose to give up on the situation even though you were trying to maintain" from there, he admitted the mistake.

"It is good that if you know wrong, next time do not feel this weak again just because of your circumstances, you become afraid if I cannot accept it and choose to leave you" I remembered him

"All right, let's not talk about it anymore, huh? We can just chat like this so we better use it to let each other miss, don't you miss me?" His words from there began to react calmly to him and to divert the conversation.

"Hem, well I don't talk about it anymore, let's just talk about something else.I also miss you even miss you very much" I told him.

I don't know where this relationship will go, and what will be like in the future, the most important thing right now is that I will keep it going.

"I miss you, I want to meet you and I want to hug you even once, I want to see you even if it's the last time" she said from there in a low, hoarse voice.

"Then how? Right now we are far apart" I replied with teary eyes.

"Just be able to hug from far away he..he." he said from there trying to cover his chest.

Honestly, right now I really want to meet him, hug him and put all the burdens on him.

Do you guys know? this kind of relationship is very difficult to live, if there is no news and communication makes us careless, let alone accustomed to every day but always be patient, however always be patient, give each other attention and pay attention to each other both health and maintaining food patterns.

"Every night I always dream of you and that is enough to treat my longing" he said again from there sounding sad.

"You know how else, dear, we can not meet because of the situation and conditions, so we just say accept it" I replied from here trying to strengthen.

"I wish I could meet you even once, before you finish college and go back to your house" her hopes from there made me speechless to hear it.

Not only is he the same, but things do not approve of us meeting for now.

"Our expectations are the same, it's just difficult to realize it because of each other's busyness" I replied from across.

"I'm sure if we were meant to be together we would be united, but if not I just ask the creator to be united with you" he said from there to make my heart feel warm to hear it.

"May you be my destiny" I said.

"Oh yeah, I want to tell you something" he said from across the street.

"What's that?" I answered quickly with a bad feeling.

"If later I'm not telling you again it's a sign that I'm not okay" his words from there made my heart race quickly.

What'd he say? I don't want to hear these words! I'm not ready if that happens.

"Don't say that, you'll be cured!" I said with a hoarse voice and teary eyes.

"One more time, if something happens to me, fina who will tell you, she will tell everything how I am doing to you" he said from there back to bring up his ex-girlfriend.

"Hem, does it have to be him?" I asked a little unhappy.

"Only he knows my condition, now I want to rest first, you are well there. bye.. bye. dear" he said.

"Hem, well, you rest I don't bother you anymore, yes I will take good care of myself, bye... also" after that the connection immediately disconnected the call bunch has ended.

"Huffff.." I exhaled a sigh releasing the fatigue in my heart, I don't understand the situation that is happening right now.

She said earlier if something happened to her I would be informed by her spell, her question if the girl found out about it were they still having an interest in each other for the time being?

Do they communicate often? No need to think about it I should try to trust him.

I resumed my activities that had been delayed because of receiving a call from the dianran earlier, while also waiting for vidya to come from shopping for kitchen needs.

At this time I just finished taking a shower, Vidya also came back from shopping, so we decided to cook soto chicken and rawon food typical east java our menu tonight.

I helped Vidya prepare the necessary ingredients, while she was chopping the meat into pieces.

After all the ingredients had been prepared we immediately made them, I cooked the chicken soto while she cooked the rawon, she said, because I'm not Javanese so I can't cook rawon and I told him to cook it.

Since we split the tasks, made the dishes so quickly completed, me and Vidya ate them greedily, we have not made dishes like this for a long time because it is often busy, and we have not eaten them, so usually we just order food from the stall.

We have finished eating, we are currently watching television in the guest room, vidya with a great focus on watching our favorite Korean drama series both on channel K drama.

When again the focus of staring at the television screen suddenly my phone rang indicating incoming calls, but strangely there is no name of the caller listed there, aka it's an entry number that is not known who belongs to.

Because the sound of the television was a little large volume I chose to stay away, leaving the vidya alone in the guest room.

Vidya briefly looked at me, but immediately retracted her gaze to the television screen.

"Hallo, is this alisa?" There was a female voice from across the street.

"yes I am alisa, what is it?" I immediately want to know the purpose and purpose of the phone.

"I'm finda, her former daughter and childhood friend" the man told her.

DEG

As soon as my heart beat, my body became weak, did she come to report so soon? no way! we just had a chat he couldn't have left so soon!

"Hallo are you still there?" There was another sound from across there.

Waking me out of shock, I tried to shake off the no-no thoughts about dinran.

"Yes, what's calling me?" I asked quickly.

If later he said about the current state of the terror, I should be ready to listen to him even if it was very painful though.

"Em, no one just wants to get to know you" he said from there casually.

"Huh"

I gawked at him, meaning what is this? why didn't he just say it straight away?

"That's all?" I don't believe it.

"Yes, I got your number from Dianran, you're her boyfriend, right?" Throw it from there to me.

I am confused about what to answer, because our relationship is not currently dating status but very close, I do not know what kind of relationship we are living.

"I..yeah, what's wrong?" It made me a little nervous to answer it, as I was also confused by our true status

"Nothing, I just want to tell you, that right now I'm with dianran. uh, you don't get me wrong I'm just looking after him who's sick" his words from there made me stunned to hear it.

I know I can't be by her side right now, but does it take her spell to take care of her? is there no one else who can take care of him?

"Sorry to trouble you, I thank you for taking my place" I tried

"No problem! I've known dianran for a long time, besides me and him being very close friends so I should have taken care of him" he said from there like there was a certain purpose of his words, making my heart inflamed to hear it.

I know I can't take care of her, but why trust her ex to take care of her? why didn't he tell me first?

"Well, I put a shadow on you, take good care of her because I can't keep her as you do" I replied trying to calm down.

I realized with that, he did not need to say frankly like that to me, his impression of me as useless for the mirror.

"definitely! I'll take good care of him you don't have to worry" his response from there further made my heart ache.

Although he is only an ex but able to make me jealous, because they had known and close before my presence, automatically did not rule out the possibility that the feeling did not reappear between the two of them.

"You don't think that I don't just take care of him" here he tried to straighten out his words earlier, perhaps realizing that my inertia was not responding to his speech.

"It's okay I can understand, is there anything else you want to say?" I want to end it immediately.

"Nothing, sorry I've been interrupting your time, in the future hopefully we can be friends" he said from there.

"Hem, alright I close first then" I said flatly, I immediately ended the call after saying goodbye to him.

I thought I was going to get some bad news from her regarding the condition of the mirror, so it scared me, it turned out that the girl only reported if she was the one taking care of the mirror, and showed off their closeness.

Again made my mind run amok, between his condition and those who were nearby that made me unsettled.

If this continues to make me so unreasonable and no longer excited in every activity.

I did not know to be happy or sad, after knowing that the spell contacted me was not related to the health condition of the dianran, but the words of the girl was enough to make me depressed.

Because my mood was not good, I chose to walk directly to the room past the vidya in the guest room.

"Alisa what's wrong? why did you just go and leave me here alone? who did that call you?" The consecutive questions he asked me when I was almost in the room.

"That's. I'm not feeling well, so you watch yourself first, no one just calls about the activities of the campus" I replied lying to him without turning back while talking, not just talking, afraid he'll realize something.

"Oh, like that. Yasudah, you rest only then" he replied and did not extend the conversation again.

I immediately stepped into the room to pour myself into the bed, with tears seeping out, tired of crying and finally I fell asleep on my own.

Losing is something you don't want, so keep it going while you can still fight~ Lalisa nayyala trishala