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Uneasy

Turn down the lights

Turn down the bed

Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me

Tell me no lies

Just hold me close, don't patronize

Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

Here in the dark, in these final hours

I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no you won't

'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

Just like the song "I Can't Make You Love Me." It was later re-popularized by Shane Filan. That's how Keenan Arka Adrian felt, when he saw Amanda Marcelia finally anchored in the arms of Zionino Andhika.

After their full moon is separated, Amanda cries in Nino's arms and vice versa. While Arka immediately crumpled for the sake of staring at all that.

He can't make Amanda love him, he can never. Because the woman's heart has been left in Nino's heart, even though Amanda's womb is growing their baby. Although in every moan when they make love, Amanda always screams the name of Arka. His heart does not belong to Arka.

"Where are you going, Nin."

Amanda sobbed looking at Nino, while Nino was tearful while holding Amanda's face.

"I'm sorry, Amanda. I'm sorry." Nino was like her chest tightness and they came back hugging.

Arka turned around in silence, stepped footily towards the car and left the place. While Amanda and Nino are now walking towards somewhere.

Nino takes Amanda to her residence. A luxury apartment not far from Amanda's penthouse. There they told me many things, including where Nino had been.

"So you live in Germany?"

"Yes, I live in a very good family. I have a father, a mother, and also an older brother, their biological son. We live happily there." replied Nino.

"Why didn't you tell me when you left?"

Nino threw away her gaze.

"Actually that time, I was leaving a week later. But since my foster father's business suddenly ran into trouble there, we had to leave as soon as possible. At that time I had come to your house, and send a letter to the maid at home."

Amanda was shocked to hear that statement. Because he did not get the letter.

"I can't take it, maybe Rachel threw it away" Amanda said.

Nino looked at the woman. It is very likely that Amanda's stepmother threw away the letter. Because he had heard Amanda talk to Nino about the crime of her stepmother on the phone. In the conversation Amanda repeatedly mentioned the name Nino. The letter itself was written by Nino.

"The point is that now I'm happy, I'm used to seeing you again."

"Me too." Amanda looked at Nino full of days.

"I'm glad you're alive. After so much mental stress that you used to experience at home." continued Amanda again.

Nino sighed, remembering how bad her past was. It was only with Amanda that she dared to open up and talk a lot.

"Man, I know it's too soon. But me, I really don't want to waste another chance."

"You mean?" ask Amanda confused.

Nino took out a box from her pocket. He opened the box in front of Amanda. Amanda was surprised, because a ring was seen from inside the box.

"Will you marry me?" ask Nino then.

Amanda was silent, her body was trembling.

"Mrs."

"I know maybe this ring doesn't fit in your finger size. Because we haven't seen you in a long time and I don't know your size. But you want to, right?" ask Nino again.

Amanda closed her eyes. He threw a glance at the glass apartment, then looked back at Nino.

"Aren't you nervous?" ask Amanda with a serious look. Nino frowned in confusion.

"What?" tanyanya.

Amanda sighed then unbuttoned the thick blazer that still covered her body. Due to the frequent rain and cloudy weather, Amanda has been wearing it lately.

"Amanda?" Nino's voice sounded trembling.

"I'm pregnant, Nin."

"Ha, pregnant?" Nino still can't believe it.

Amanda looked down and started telling me everything.

"I'm under contract marriage at this time, and the marriage will end when this baby is born."

"You mean?" Nino did not understand.

"I need a son to be my successor. Because I couldn't get married, so I made this decision."

Nino closed her eyes as she tried to take a breath. This was the most severe blow that had ever happened in his life. He was late for Amanda, he should have come a few months ago. A moment of regret also lurched in the man's heart space. Nino bowed, and so did Amanda.

"I'm sorry, Nin."

"I'm the one who's sorry." Nino said later. Making Amanda instantly raise her head and look at her first love was fixed.

"I'm wrong, Man. All this time I've been the one who's been gone, I've had no news."

Nino stared back at Amanda, Amanda herself did not expect that Nino would give such a response.

"But I won't miss you anymore" he added.

"You mean?" ask Amanda wonder.

"I want to wait until your marriage is over, I want to be a father to the boy."

Amanda was stunned, her heart was like being squeezed.

" But, Nin."

"You used to say that you don't believe in men and marriage. But you also said there were exceptions. You want to marry me. So I'm gonna take that promise."

Amanda couldn't say a word. Because in his heart he still holds a great taste for Nino, even to this second. He was silent and did not refuse when Nino clasped his hand.

"I'll marry you, man." said Nino.

***

"Braaac."

Arka closed the car door pretty hard. He returned to the penthouse after walking here and there in no direction, just to drive away the tired and sick that lodged in him.

"Arka, just got home?"

Liana came out of the penthouse loby, but the young man did not answer Liana's question. He just glanced at the girl, then gave the flower he was about to give Amanda.

He was staring at the flower. While Liana thinks that Arka deliberately bought it for her. Arka passed inside, while now Liana was stunned with a flowery feeling.

Arka took off all the clothes attached to her body. Then let himself get wet under the shower.

Slowly Amanda's shadow flashed across the young man's mind. Amanda's gaze on their wedding day, Amanda's screams, and moans as they make love. The way she talks, smiles, gets angry, laughs. Everything is now like a slide show, which appears every time Arka is silent.

He also remembers the day they made love this morning. How Amanda said her name so many times. Then remember how Amanda was so happy when she met Nino.

"Poooh."

Arka rubbed her face and head many times under the exposure of water.

"Aarrgghh." he cried out in anger.

He finished his bath, walked out and got dressed. He sat down in a corner chair and lit a cigarette.

"I told you, Ka. Do not use the heart. If you take heart, you die."

"Don't use feelings."

"Benefits are an opportunity."

The words that Doni once said began to roll in Arka's memory. He did not know if it was time to admit, if all the words of his best friend were true. Hearts and feelings have destroyed it instantly.

***

Amanda turned her head and looked at Nino, before she finally got into the car. His heart is now broken. Between happy, sad, and worried.

He was happy to finally meet the man. But he was sad because he had to disappoint Nino with her pregnancy.now he also worried, whether he deserved the kindness of Nino to marry him. While he had already touched another man's body.

"If only he had been a little patient. If only Nino had come early. If only...."

Amanda buried her face in both hands and breathed. That night he and Arka both said goodbye to sleep. Arka doesn't tell Amanda that she saw the woman with Nino. Amanda felt she didn't have to tell it. And now both are drowning, in a lie. They lie if they close their eyes.