Love Is Full Of Wounds
A fucked up feeling

"Have not laughed you guys. "creepy Juan a little angry mixed with shame.

Juan glanced at Kenzo and Charles. Kenzo was only able to hold back a laugh, while Charles shook his head in disbelief. Juan could only duck and eat again. The atmosphere became warm again as usual. Although still leaves a little doubt in Kenzo's eyes. A sense of unrequitedness and fear a little perched in Kenzo's feelings. Kenzo stared at Juan and Mattheo. At first glance Kenzo realized there was a tinge of love from Juan's eyes when staring at Mattheo, but not for Mattheo.

"May not happen again" said Kenzo lirih.

Charles stared and grasped Kenzo's hand gently as if to say don't think strangely. Both returned to the dishes.

Time just passed, all again busy with all the activities in front of them. College for those who are still in college, the world of work for those who have started work. Even at nightfall. The night job duties of some of Charles's adopted children also began their work. They finally realized who Charles really was, and what they were raised to be their two children. Although at first they were a little disappointed but eventually they also had to and wanted to jump as well. The mafia world, the underground world, the harsh world that aims to protect their families.

Time went by pretty fast for Juan. Juan's love deepened. The attention given by Juan, the sincere affection little by little made Mattheo melt as well. Little by little Mattheo began to open the door of his heart and sometimes even courageously Juan hugged or just leaned on the boat or slept on Mattheo's lap in front of the others. Mattheo did not mind Juan's attitude.

"Cie cie who is again kasmaran, really good again alone here. "the reprimand of someone who arrived suddenly appeared behind Mattheo and Juan.

Who saw the two of them were busy chatting in the gazebo. More precisely in a building without walls in the middle of the park. So you can enjoy the romantic garden view at night.

"You're wilmer. "creepy Juan who then came down from Mattheo's lap.

Mattheo quickly grabbed Juan's waist which was still slim even though she had been pregnant. Juan stared at Mattheo. The master only smiled meaningfully.

"Basic." sizzled Juan.

"Hadeh. You try to pay a little attention to me who is single. " complained Wilmer who then sat next to the two.

"Who told you to come and disturb us" said Mattheo coldly.

"I have a little need with Juan, if not urgent for what I look for Him" said Wilmer resigned.

"What's up Wilmer. Just talk, " said Juan who then leaned his head on Mattheo's shoulder and looked at Wilmer.

"Look.... " Wilmer also told me about a girl he liked but was afraid to tell Charles.

"Why should you be afraid if you like it" Mattheo said.

"Emm right Mattheo said if you really like and are ready to talk directly to Papa. Juan is sure Papa will consider it. "said Juan.

"Then why are you still not formalizing your relationship" Wilmer said staring at the two.

"What's wrong with us" Mattheo said.

Juan was only able to look at Mattheo with a look of disbelief with Mattheo's words.

"Not you guys dating. And again your age is no longer right in saying as a person who is dating. " explains Wilmer.

"We're dating? " ask Mattheo looking at Juan.

"Yes, if not dating then what? You guys are so intimate" Wilmer said.

"Hahahahaha." Mattheo's laughter suddenly broke.

And it's not that it makes Juan happy but it's heartache.

Mattheo stared at Juan who was looking down. Seeing the situation that was not so comfortable Wilmer immediately resigned and left the two.

"What do you mean, Juan? " ask Mattheo confused.

"What have you been thinking about our relationship.? " ask Juan again.

"Juan. Are you really taking this relationship seriously?. "asked Mattheo staring intensely at Juan.

Juan ventured into Mattheo's eyes.

"Juan love you, really love and do not play"." replied Juan seriously.

Mattheo stared in disbelief.

"Juan..... " Juan was only able to duck down and down from Mattheo's lap.

"Juan never played with Juan's feelings, Theo. Juan is really sincere in your love, there is never any intention to play the game" said Juan while looking at Mattheo with a sad look.

"Haa.... Sorry Juan. Not that I doubt your love, but you know for yourself I've just been heartbroken, and you know for yourself I'm a playboy. My lover is where. " explains Mattheo.

"Juan know where your lover is. But there is at least one person Theo can consider special, not ", Juan said.

"Juan, don't expect too much from me. You give me such sincere attention, okay I accept but don't expect much more from me" explains Mattheo.

Enfolded his back Juan's waist. Either because of stupid or too love Juan to Mattheo, so Juan only able to obey. Mattheo just smiled faintly. Juan leaned back comfortably on the mattheo, lamenting his heartache. His heart ached at Mattheo's words, but Juan could not say anything else.

While Mattheo was only able to fall silent in a thousand thoughts. Thinking of Juan's extremely sincere gaze plus the pain that was clearly emanating in Juan's eyeballs.

"Ah juan is too late in this game"

Juan said unconsciously.

A moment of unbearable feeling perched in his heart. Mattheo who tangent finally could not answer, which ended by deciding to go inside with juan and go to rest. Without a word said. That same night, Mattheo was pensive on the bed, while Juan was sobbing in his own room.

Soon the door to mattheo's room was knocked slowly by kenzo, and entered. Kenzo sits on the edge of Mattheo's bed. Seeing the presence of Kenzo without a second thought Matteo immediately sat down and put his head on kenzo's lap.

"Dad why do you always come when my heart is worried. Why is it that you always know best before my feelings are seen?" mattheo asked while looking the other way with a glare.

"The inner heart will not lie dear" said Kenzo softly.

"say, what's today?" ask Kenzo again.

Mattheo tells of the day that passed earlier, kenzo heard well while wiping the mane of mattheo

"Dad, How Theo should face Juan tomorrow. This heart is still not ready to accept new love again, the pain is still imprinting and shadowing my feelings? " ask Mattheo in despair.

"Theo, I can't decide what or how you feel, I can only support what you choose. " Advice of Kenzo.

Theo began to think back and still did not arrive at the right answer, there was still something stuck in his heart. The fear of being hurt, the fear of loss still haunts him. Kenzo leaves Mattheo after seeing Mattheo asleep in a dream crib.