Love Me Please Channing
Disappointed not to be

"Evan has changed, he's not a playboy anymore. I agree if you want to be with him, because I see .. he's sincere with you."

The lightning tub that struck in the scorching sun, was very surprising. The answer Channing gave was very different from what Binar expected. So surprised, Binar until fixated until a while. Just eyes that stare in disbelief, as well as a mouth that is half gaping. In fact, even as breezy as the cold wind was, it was now slowly cold until it pierced the bone.

"What do you mean, brother?" Binar asked me softly, the concubine of love who might be forced out.

"If he's still a playboy, I'll stand up front to prevent him from approaching you. But, if he really meant it, of course I agree. As a sister, I just don't want to let you go to the wrong person."

Channing's answer was clear and firm. Without asking any more Binar already know what it means, there is no jealousy nor is there love. The truth is contrary to what he imagined yesterday.

"So what's been all this time, brother? From starting us to Malang when the day, your attention is more different to me. You deliberately give false hope to me, brother?" protest Binar. Up here he felt played, but I don't know. It could also be because he is easily carried away by feelings.

"Nothing is different, let alone false hope as you say, Bin. I'm like this, you're my sister, girl again. If I don't pay attention, what should I do?"

Binar got up from his seat. Enough of this, he's after Channing. The man is like air to him, there is but it cannot be grasped.

"I thought after your Lala left and might not come back, you__"

"Where do you know that Lala left and may not come back? You know something, Bin?" channing.

Binar scrunched his forehead. "What do you mean, brother?"

Channing.

"You want to accuse me of meddling in her disappearance?" guess Binar. Very precise, but Channing did not have the guts to answer 'yes' or just nod.

Nevertheless, Binar understood. Channing's silence was enough to explain everything.

Realizing that, Binar smiled wryly. The older brother whom he loved, in fact, has become the love slave of another woman. In fact, until you close your eyes and accuse him of all sorts.

"I remind you that you may have forgotten, brother. Your lala is on campus with me. And he's also popular, not like your brother. Do you think that if he suddenly leaves without any clarity, the rumors do not spread? Moreover, his parents are also rumored to be bankrupt, do you think it is not a trending topic?" binar.

Channing also got up while looking at Binar who was standing in front of him.

Binar continued his sentence. However, it has not received any response from Channing. The man still understands his own feelings, which is honest.

"Yes, now I understand, brother. In the future I will not bring up love again, even if necessary .. I do not need to appear again in your life. Sorry for all this time," said Binar as he stepped away, and deliberately nudged the rough arm of Channing, until the man's body staggered and almost lost balance.

After Binar's body was not seen again, Channing again sat in his original place. Full moon still looms over the pond, the night wind is still faithfully greeting the leaves, but the calm in Channing's heart is gone. There are many feelings that are now raging and he does not know where the destination is.

"I'm sorry, Bin."

Of the many sentences crammed into his mind, only those three words were capable of muttering. The others were too difficult, as they conflicted and broke each other. Ahh, maybe that's called a war with yourself.

Meanwhile, Binar had already arrived at his room. Tears were unstoppable again while still climbing the stairs. Pain, pain, and disappointment. All mixed into a gaping wound. Denied his love, it might be normal for Binar. The pain can still fade and slowly heal over time. However, accused of meddling in Laurent's departure, he could not accept.

He loves Channing. But the reply ... she was only considered a sneaky girl. How ironic.

"Tonight, last time I brought up love. In the future, I promise there will be no more. Satisfied you are with Laurent, Brother, as much as possible I will move away from your life," Inner Binar while shedding all tears.

He won't hold back for tonight. Let as many tears come out. Then later ... he won't let Channing ruin his life again. As much as possible Binar will learn to remove the feeling of love.

After crying for a long time, and his face was messy, Binar got up and picked up the phone lying on the table. He searches for Evan's contact number, then writes a message for the man.

'Brother, sorry for my answer. I lied by saying I haven't thought about dating. Actually, because I can't return the feelings of Brother. Sorry if this honesty makes Brother Evan upset, I just don't want to give false hopes to Brother.'

At first glance it seems cruel, but Binar had no other choice. He now felt the pain of false hope, and he did not want to do the same to others.

"Where do you know this, you don't take me anymore, brother. Because after what happened tonight, I don't want to be close to you anymore either. Because right now, I don't want to be in touch with anything related to Channing's sister" Binar said, sending the message.

Without waiting for a reply from Evan, Binar again put down his phone and covered his face with both hands.

Under these circumstances, he recalled with a thought that had been tucked into his brain the other day. A thing that might play a role in his future if he really chooses.

Seriate...