Love Me Please Channing
Honesty

"Channing who told me. Initially ... I just wanted to come with him home to see you. Then he said you moved on."

The answer from Evan's lips made Binar immediately guess, about where Evan knew the campus. Channing, she must be. Because it is remembered several times, before Binar never discussed it with Evan.

"Did you deliberately bring her closer to me? So I can stop loving you?" inner Binar with a sliver of feeling.

"I do this for one reason only, love. I still love you, Bin, and I can't get away from you."

Again, a statement of love was thrown from Evan's lips. After a long time never discussed seriously, tonight.

Just like before, Binar also has no answers that do not disappoint.

"I don't mean for you to want to date me, because love comes from the heart, right? But .. I want to know. For a few months we were together, was there a difference? Or ... still kayak first?" keep up Evan carefully. As much as possible not to offend Binar.

Long enough Binar was silent, and just let the rustling of the wind that became the voice between them.

"If there is a lack of me that is unacceptable to you, say so. Don't be afraid I'm angry or offended. Maybe ... It is something I have to fix," continued Evan, increasingly making Binar have no words to say.

"Nothing is lacking in Evan. It is precisely I myself who is troubled and deserves to fix myself."

After silence until a few minutes passed, Binar dared to lift his face and say the sentence. A statement that made Evan take a deep breath. His hunch was suddenly not out of his mind. He caught the flop again in his love statement this time.

"I'm not done with my own feelings, brother. And I can't have a relationship with Evan's sister, while my heart is still for another guy. Brother Evan is very good, love also looks sincere. It doesn't seem fair if I can't keep up with Big Brother's feelings? I don't want to play with Evan's sister" Binar continued.

Although Evan's premonition had already felt in that direction. But when you hear for sure, it still hurts in the heart.

"I can't be with that guy, but as long as this feeling is still there, I can't accept Evan's love. Wait for me to finish my own feelings, then I can start a new feeling with Brother."

Binar's remarks this time, carried little hope for Evan.

"You want to consider me?" tanyakanya.

Binar nodded. "But .. I can't promise you a good time, whether it's a day, a week, or a month. But one thing is for sure, I won't learn to love another guy, other than Evan's sister."

Evan's feelings are turbulent. Worrying about happy or sad. Glad because Binar gave a big enough hope, sad because the girl's heart had not been melted to him. Especially if later the heart of the man that Binar loved would welcome, he's finished. The great hope of that day will fall apart by itself.

"Binar ... What if he loves you too?" In a soft voice, Evan asked something most disturbing.

Binar shook his head while laughing discordantly. "That's impossible. He never loved me, and we could never be together."

"Why? Love is sometimes hard to guess. It could be that he also keeps the same taste for you," Evan replied. It hurts a little, but he has to say it. Rather than a broken heart in the back, it is better to prepare from now on.

"That's impossible." Binar shook his head again. "If possible, we would never be together" he continued.

"Why is that?"

Evan looked at Binar in confusion. So far, he has never seen Binar close to a man. However, in fact, the girl had stored a deep sense for someone, who she said could not possibly unite. What reason? Whether different religions, or the man already has a wife, or even .. ahh, no. Evan did not want to continue the latter's guess.

"The shine!" call Evan because he has waited long enough, but still did not get any answers from Binar.

"Because there is a distance between us, which." The answer remains confusing.

Binar. It was hard enough for him to say honesty, recognizing Channing as the man he loved.

"I just want to know" Evan continued.

Really, the more here he was more curious about the feelings of Binar.

Meanwhile, Binar gripped the bag strap firmly, as an outlet for the turmoil of the heart that crossed the limit of control. With his eyes still closed, Binar said softly, "Sister Channing."

A similar answer to Evan. In fact, nature seems to listen. To the extent that the moon above is hiding behind a gray cloud.

Long enough Evan did not say a word, just calm the feeling of chaos and mess. The last guess he had looked far away, turned out to be a fact. Channing, a friend and person who is expected to be a sister-in-law, is in fact the figure that becomes his toughest rival.

Evan's suspicions some time ago, regarding the problem that seemed to occur between Channing and Binar, now he found his mouth—love.

Evan's memory was forced back in the past, where Channing told him about a younger sibling who loved her brother.

"It turns out it's not a confidant of friends, but he's experienced himself," said Evan.

"I know it's wrong, I shouldn't have kept that feeling. That's why I'm going here, brother. I wanted to get away from her and forget all the flavors for her. I want to be able to think of him as a big brother, like he thinks I'm a little sister."

Binar's explanation is more detailed, just make Evan understand what happened. However, there was one thing in his mind that was not in line with Binar's opinion.

Deep in his little heart, Evan has the belief that Channing also keeps the same taste. The memory after memory he combined—about Channing, already explained how the man felt. There is love, but it is not recognized. Perhaps, the familial relationship that made Channing dodge and dismiss before was too deep.

"You're free to judge me, brother. This love is ethical, and it makes me shameless to dare to express love first. I'm not as good as you think, am I?" Binar ventured to raise her face, and looked at Evan who was also looking at her.

With a smile etched sweetly on his lips, Evan tucked the hair of Binar behind his ears.

"Saying love isn't a bad thing, even if you're a girl. It's just honesty. And ... It's only natural that you can love him. You and he have no blood relation. He's also .. as good as it's the same you."

Binar. While Evan, dive even deeper on the black bead belonging to Binar. In the beauty of the eye that captivates, there is a crisis that is so dominant. A thing Evan describes as a picture of a deeply wounded heart. Binar loves Channing very much, but circumstances force her to erase that love. That's the conclusion Evan came to.

"I want to get out of this feeling, but___"

"I'll help you." Evan immediately replied, because Binar had trouble continuing his sentence.

Evan raised his hand and wiped away the tears that were wet on both cheeks.

"Love is coming slowly, the going will also be slow. We can't erase love in hours or days, it takes time. Let alone Channing who is still real caring and kind to you, loving someone who is clearly hurting, sometimes it takes time to completely erase the feelings that once existed," he said.

Binar nodded. Then, on his lips was also implied a faint smile.

"Thank you for being honest with me."

Evan half whispered as he said that sentence. Even with the answer of Binar afterwards, just like a mutter.

Seriate...