Love Monsters
Rethink

The heavy rain accompanied by strong winds and thunder, made Birdella very frightened.

Birdella felt fear and panic, her heart racing and her body trembling. He shouted indistinctly and let out his heart filled with anger. He started cursing Andreas and Lay, two people who had been a problem for his life.

Birdella felt like she was in a very bad situation. He doesn't know what to do, and is afraid if anything happens to him or his loved ones. He felt that such a situation was a punishment for all his faults and sins.

"No, no!"

"Darling, what's wrong?"

Puk puk

"Rescious Honey!"

Andreas tried to resuscitate Birdella, by patting her cheek.

But at that moment, in Birdella's own realm of mind, something calming was coming all of a sudden. He began to recall some of the events that had happened in his life, which were similar to the current situation.

Birdella experienced similar events in her childhood, when she experienced similar natural disasters. He lost his home and family property in a flash flood. At that time, he and his family had to evacuate and stay in a tent for several months.

Although she was young at the time, Birdella felt a great responsibility to help her family during this difficult time. He learns to stay calm and organizes his mind so as not to panic in stressful situations.

But there was a black shadow that seemed not to stop following him, asking him to leave his family.

This is also what happened when she had just given birth to her first child. She seemed to be terrorized by a black shadow that no two knew to kill Andreas, her husband. That's why he left home, his husband and son.

He disappeared and went into hiding, being held captive by an unknown person. Fortunately the person is very good and willing to accommodate it until the fear he experienced disappeared as time went on.

"Darling, I remember."

Andreas was confused by what the woman said, because he did not understand what Birdella was thinking.

Lay himself saw and heard all the talk of the two of them, just as he used to when he saw how her husband who was with Birdella in bed. And that's because of shaman Lena, just like today.

"So, Birdella was overpowered by a black shadow she didn't recognize?"

"What is that..."

"No!" cut off shaman Lena, refuting Lay's presumption of linking Birdella's problem with Armaro Baruto.

"Then, who did he mean by a black figure influencing his mind?" ask Lay curious.

"I don't know, but I know it's not Mr. Armaro." Shaman Lena replied firmly, if it was not the Armaro Baruto that Lay had known all along.

"Papa, Mama why?" asked Felicia who suddenly appeared from inside her room.

Lay again glared in shock, seeing the state of his son who was in fact able to accept the existence of Birdella. Even Felicia also called Birdella "mama" who yesterday did not want to do.

"You can see for yourself."

Shaman Lena did not give a definite answer, but asked Lay to think about it for himself. Of course this made Lay shake his head several times, not believing what he saw with his own eyes.

"Have they never sought my existence?"

"Did they never think about my fate?"

"How could they possibly do that to me, who has been sincere in loving and loving them?!"

Question after question was asked by Lay to the shaman Lena, who had always given him the instructions, directions and advice he should have done. Unfortunately, Lay himself always refused, even reckless with his own decisions.

The pain and disappointment Lay felt was profound, as he felt neglected by his own husband and son.

"Then, how do you feel now Queen? am I wrong for giving you the chance to see all this?" asked shaman Lena, when she saw the disappointment clearly on Lay's face after knowing everything.

"I'm very disappointed in Andrew. I saw him having an affair with Birdella, who turned out to be his own wife. Add to that his present state, which seemed to never consider myself to be in his life."

Lay said his heart, what he felt now saw and watched all in front of his own eyes.

"I'm so sorry to hear that. What made Queen feel disappointed with Andrea? because he betrayed her, or because the Queen trusted him too much?" ask shaman Lena to pry into Lay's mind.

"He had an affair with his ex-wife. Honestly I was so shocked and felt betrayed by her."

"But I am also guilty of this, for I am too confident that he loves me very much and needs my presence, as well as Felicia. But it's not." the words Lay said, as if to blame himself.

"I can understand how you feel Queen. But now it's all happening, and do you know? it was raining heavily, and these strong winds and thunder were the rage that occurred from Lord Armaro Baruto. He must be very angry."

Hearing the explanation given by shaman Lena, making Lay quickly turn to him. "I mean, does he know if I'm out of there?" ask Lay worriedly.

Nodding Lena's shaman head, Lay's face maker stiffened. He did not want to make the creature angry, so it made a big mess again compared to the present one.

"But I still feel very sad and do not know how to. Can shaman Lena give advice or cast a spell, which I can use so that my heart doesn't feel too heavy?"

"Of course, Lay. I can give you some spells that can help you cope with your feelings. However, I also suggest that you give yourself some time. Ponder and pervade every event that happens in your life. It takes time to heal and make the right decision for yourself."

Lay was silent again. He had no idea what he was feeling right now. Grief, disappointment, and heartache are mixed in the heart.

What he felt for Andreas, just as he felt for Felicia, could still change for Birdella. The little boy was not looking for her anymore, did not hate Birdella anymore, even looked like nothing had happened.

"I love others too much. Care about the people around me, without caring about myself."

"Is it still appropriate for me to think for them, and not to care for my own happiness?"

Now Lay begins to wonder about his own state, with the happiness he should have as well. You don't have to always think about the happiness of others, which is not what you think it is.