Love The Bule
Two dear santri Abi

Tok .. Tok .. Tok …

Tina, who was in the room, turned her head as the door was knocked. The door was not closed perfectly, but someone behind the door still respected the owner of the room until he knocked first before being invited to enter.

“Mbak Arafah.” Tina's eyes sparkled, because the one standing at the door of her room was the older sister.

“Shabira.”

Tina got up and immediately ran towards the older brother, then hugged him. Arafah accepted the hug with pleasure.

“Sorry, new ma'am can come here. Mas Alif can not be off, so there is no one anter Mbak if you go home.”

Tina nodded. He totally understands. “Again, Mas Alif also won't let Mbak Arafah come here alone right? Mas Alif kan bucin really.”

Arafah laughs. “ Yes anyway.”

The two beautiful women seemed to laugh.

“Pas Ummi called and said you came home, actually Mbak already impatient want to go home. Mbak kangen very same brother Mbak this recalcitrant.” Arafah pinched his sister's cheek.

“Aaaa .. pain, Mbak.” Tina scowled. But her face became cute and adorable.

“More beautiful you are, Dek. Surely In Jakarta care continues huh?” tanya Arafah is teased.

Tina laughed and laughed at her hedonistic and glamorous life while in the big city. How not? Jhon gave her a no limit card that Tina could use at any time. Jhon never questioned how much Tina used her money. The man is angry if he does not use the card given.

“Hey, how come you're dumb? Asked even dumbfounded,” said Arafah who made Tina re-conscious from daydreams and smiled.

Tina showed off those neat and white teeth. “There is a lot of fun to do, but still home as the quietest place.”

Arafah looked at his sister. “Well, it knows. But why don't you go home – home?”

“Fear of Abi.”

“But the proof, Abi ain't mad right?” ask Arafah.

Tina shakes.

“The old man, if angry for just a moment, Ra. He is not right – is really angry. It is precisely Abi who is very visible to lose you.”

Arafah and Tina were still standing in front of the door of Tina's room with Tina still hugging, struggling spoiled at the older sister.

“You know, whenever Abi asks to make coffee, definitely call it your name, because said Abi your most delicious homemade coffee.”

Tina smiled spoiledly hearing the elder sister's words. The spoiled smile remained with the teardrops flowing back. It feels like Tina's chest is so tight when she found the – people she cares about here waiting for her return.

“I miesel, Ma'am. If only I hadn't gone from home, maybe until now I'd still be a good boy.”

Arafah loosened his embrace. “Indeed now is not a good boy?”

Arafah looked at his sister. But the one who was stared at only shook his head with a meaningful smile.

“You owe the same story Ma'am. You know, Mommy's seen you in a cinema with a bule man. Is he your boss or your coworker?”

Deg

Tina surprised. “When Ma'am see me?”

“In Bali, about one year ago.”

“Why didn't you say? Then why don't you say hello to me?” tanya Tina bertubi – tubes.

“There is Mas Alif. What would Mas Alif say if he knew you were there with a man. Moreover, you are one hotel room.”

“Mbak? Mbak knows that I ..” Tina is very surprised. He pulled his arm into the room and closed the door tightly.

Arafah sat back in a chair where Tina used to study and is now used as a place to decorate.

“When you meet, the next Mbak looking for you, Mbak also found the place you stay because it turns out your place and the place where Mbak stay is not far.”

“Mbak ..” call Tina with blocked throat. “So, Mbak already knows my behavior?”

Tina looked embarrassed. He who sat opposite the brother on the edge of the bed looked down. Really, at this time he is right – really embarrassed, because it turns out his disgrace is known to the brother.

“What are you guys dating?” arafah's question was immediately answered by a nod to Tina's head, although a moment later Tina's head shook.

“It used to be, but now it's done,” replied Tina.

“He's your boss?”

Tina nodded.

Tina who was originally down looked up again and looked at the brother. “One room with him?”

“Shabira, you and him already ..?”

Tina nodded. “We are like husband and wife, Ma'am.”

“Astagfirstulloh, Deck. You're the same boss as your adulterer?” arafah asked involuntarily speaking a little loudly in surprise.

“Sorry, Ma'am.” Suddenly, Tina came back crying.

Arafah got up and sat down next to his sister. “Not the same Ma'am, you apologize Dek. Repent, ask for forgiveness. And apologize to Ummi Abi.”

Arafah hugged his sister's shoulder and hugged her. Tina's tears are getting worse. His head nodded, he agreed with the request of his brother.

“Iya, Ma'am, Shabira will do that. Shabira wants to repent, would like to apologize to Ummi and Abi.”

Arafah's embrace tightened on the younger brother's body. “Do not repeat that mistake again, Deck. That's what we call tobat.”

Tina nodded. The woman who is often called Bira by her family also replied, “aku will not return to Jakarta, Ma'am. I want to dedicate my life here in Abi boarding school. I want to be a better human being.”

Arafah also shed tears, his chest rumbled when he found what happened to his sister, just as when his shock at that time found the brother who was together with a Caucasian man.

After weeping and pouring out everything in Arafah's arms, the elegant and graceful hijab-wearing woman broke into a hug. “Then, how about that bule now? Why are you separated? Is he not responsible after what he did to you?”

Tina told her story with Jhon. He also recounts the beginning of them knitting love until trapped in a deep relationship and committing adultery several times.

“Until finally, the woman came and said that the little boy she had brought with her was her daughter. She chose her daughter over me,” Tina continued explaining her love story with Jhon.

Arafah was listening. He did not pause the narration of the brother who was telling the story. Arafah hugged his sister again. His heart also sighed, especially when Tina told him when Jhon agreed to the request of his daughter who wanted him to marry the mother.

“Every child would want to see his parents unite, Dek. And in the little boy's eyes, you are the barrier.”

Tina nodded.he was as thoughtful as the older brother. “Mean it, I'm backing down. I realized I was their barrier. I am also aware that this is a punishment from God because I have gone out of His way.”

Arafah looked at the younger brother softly, then hugged back. “As long as life has not reached the esophagus, it is never too late to repent.”

Tina nodded.he rubbed her back wet cheeks. During these three months, he had already tried to change. Apply for forgiveness in the third of the night and follow a routine study led by the father every week, ba’da isya.

Tina chose to sit in the corner and pervaded every meaning conveyed from every verse that her father described. There was no other activity Tina had done other than that for the past three months. Tina still does not trust herself to interact with anyone other than her family. He still wants to organize his heart by contemplating and making room for himself.

"What's his name?" Arafah asked the name of the boss of his brother who was now an ex.

But for former lovers, Jhon who was far away did not think that they broke up. Jhon only considers them temporarily separated, giving pause to their relationship because of the focus of Jhon currently caring for the princess.

"Jhon Louise, he's Australian. Born and raised in Singapore, then settled in Jakarta on a work visa," replied Tina recounting the origin of Jhon.

****

Like tonight, Tina returned to follow the routine study. He participated in congregational prayers at the pesantren mosque with his father Arafah, considering this pesantren is also where the brother's husband studied religion.

Tina stands in line with the worshipers who perform Islamic prayers. He listened to the sweet sound of a holy verse from a priest. The melodious groove that made him powerless to not shed his tears again, remembering every sin he had committed before. The chant seemed to invite him to look at the story of his life journey.

“Mbak, the priest was not Abi huh?” tanyanya after praying isya done together.

Tina sat right next to her sister. Arafah. “Iya, Abi was going directly to Jombang, wife of close friend Abi died.”

Ah, Tina forgot. Though the father had said goodbye with the mother when they were about to leave.

“Keep, later that talks him too, Ma'am?”

Arafah. “She was her friend Mas Alif, Abi.”'s beloved santri

“Loh, Abi's favorite santri instead of Mas Alif? Is there any more?” ask Tina.

“There, you forgot? He was always with – with Mas Alif while still mondok. They're like twins.” Arafah laughs. “She is also her son Kiyai Sunan, Abi's friend from the next town.”

Forehead Tina frowned. He was right – completely forgot the – people who were present when he was a child until he grew up. Because for him – people are not important, especially he felt forced when he had to go to the boarding school led by the father and was led by the grandfather. Just because he was living a family tradition and did not want to disappoint, he followed his father's will. Although in the end, Tina still disappointed the father, even though the father did not know it.

This is the appearance of Tina wearing a hijab

And this is the appearance of Jhon abis sports