Madelin Tough Women
39. Birds in Cages

"Isn't this better. I mean I really want you to be more open with the others. Your nature is really restraint Jonatan, really not good," said Madelin upset.

"You're uncomfortable with my nature, Madelin?" asked Jonatan awkwardly.

"certain. Any woman would give similar words. You should know how to control that possessive side of you. Throw the trait away because there will be no women who like it" said Nike suddenly.

Hearing Nike's words, Jonatan looked a little regretful.

He felt attacked from two directions at once. She took a deep breath trying to ease her emotions before finally replying, "I'm sorry if my attitude makes you feel uncomfortable. I didn't mean to control you, Madelin. It's just, I care about you."

Madelin let out her breath slowly, trying to ease her anger. He understands that Jonatan has good intentions, but his possessiveness sometimes leaves him feeling restrained. "Sobble, I know you're kind. But you should also know that love is not about owners and possessions. We should trust each other and give each other freedom."

Nike nodded in agreement, "Madelin's right, Jonatan. You have to learn to let go of your possessiveness. That's not true love. True love gives you freedom and space to grow. Don't let your possessiveness destroy your relationship with Madelin."

Jonatan fell silent, he glanced silently at Madelin and found the woman, still staring at him with a sharp gaze.

Nike throbs. "I think we should just finish our gathering at this time. Shouldn't the three of us go home? I'm sure Madelin must have been exhausted after work, Jonatan please take Madelin home." Nike stood up from his chair. "I first. There's still something I have to do after this" he said goodbye.

After Nike left, Madelin stood up. Jonatan remained silent in his chair. "Do you still want to linger here? Don't you want to go home?" ask Madelin.

"I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable with me. That's why I didn't dare, take you home" replied Jonatan slowly. Who would have thought this tiger man, could turn into a cat in front of Madelin.

Madelin almost laughed out loud, if only he could not remember being outside. Holding back his laughter, he persuaded Jonatan to drive him home.

"You're still getting carried away with the atmosphere? I didn't expect it to seem like men like you could, carrying this kind of feeling. Take it easy, for now I'm not arguing or sulking in front of you. Please take me home Jonatan, if you don't mind" Madelin pinta in a calm voice.

Jonatan was surprised to hear Madelin ask himself to send her home. Though he thought, Madelin would just ignore it and go straight home. Apparently Madelin himself seems to still give him a chance.

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That night, Jonatan was seen standing in front of his bedroom window. That night, he let the night wind rub his face smoothly. Letting out the cold wind of the night, stroked her cheeks gently. In the silence of that night, he began to think about the events that had happened in the cafe earlier. He recalled how the words Madelin and Nike kept filling his mind. As if those words, it felt so disturbing his thoughts and made him unable to think clearly.

In his mind there is an inner war that continues to rage and ravage his world.

Am I so selfish that I feel hurt? thought.

Jonatan began to think about how his actions so far, which he had done in front of Madelin. All this time, he had never thought about it deeply. For him the way he has done to show his love for Madelin, is the right thing. He did not think too much about how his actions turned out to be, felt so bar-bar and made Madelin feel uncomfortable with him.

For a moment he tried to think about it again for more and more. And oh .. apparently it's true that he's selfish. He began to realize that the possessiveness in him made Madelin feel uncomfortable with him. Although it had appeared just a little, the feeling of self-improvement, suddenly there were words of denial in his heart.

Wh why? Why should I feel uncomfortable? Isn't this my way of trying to protect her. If I don't care and protect her, doesn't that mean I don't love her at all? He is not as breezy as the wind that passes by in my life, he is the breath of my life that I must take care of with all my heart. Therefore, the nature of protecting him too much is the best way Jonatan can do, to show his love for Madelin.

Jealousy and possessiveness, which he often cannot control, is also not entirely his own will. He often does this unconsciously. Where when the feeling of jealousy and possessiveness, it appears because all this time he saw with his own eyes that Madelin never found a genuine feeling of love. For her Madelin is a beautiful woman who is less fortunate in romance. That woman is very poor ... Jonatan himself was eager to bestow a widespread love in his heart just for the woman.

The love that almost ended the obsession became more and more, when Madelin actually ended with Sam. The most bastard Jonatan has ever met in his life. Jonatan who feels increasingly jealous and worried when Madelin prefers Sam. Jonatan knows that Madelin and Sam will never be together, for him their two relationships are just like a temporary station that will not linger. Jonatan believes the two of them are just destined to meet not to be together because Madelin is destined to be with him.

Even so, Jonatan still felt very scared if only one day, Madelin would leave him again. Just like when she would rather marry Sam than him. And ... Jonatan would never let that happen for the second time in his life. His intentions were already so unanimous as to reduce the possessiveness in his heart. He is willing to do so so that Madelin does not leave him for the second time.

He did not again feel like a failure in defending Madelin who was already standing not far in front of his eyes. He felt guilty for making Madelin uncomfortable with his nature. He did not want his relationship with Madelin to end up being in vain.

He must change his bad nature. Although he was self-aware that, he had to fight against the selfish desires in his heart. But a little open-minded, telling him that Madelin is not a pretty bird in a cage that he can forever brackets. The bird will definitely not be happy though, it offers a lot of luxury in such a magnificent cage. The bird will feel much happier when he is willing to let it fly high and live freely there.

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