MARISA'S TEARS
A step further

To be honest I really liked Fernandes, but it was almost three years we were always together, but Fernandes never expressed his feelings for me.

"now you're much prettier, but you're still the way you used to be."

I can only smile in response to His words, I really want to praise him.

"who are you here with?"

Trying to shift the topic, so as not to be awkward.

"alone because it's single, it's because of you."

"however you think of a woman who is not clear, you should immediately throw away from your heart."

"it's not so simple as Marisa, because you're rooted in my heart.

You should know why I never express my feelings to you, it's because I don't want to lose you.

if we're going out, there's a chance we're breaking up and we're far apart and not talking, I don't want that to happen."

"that's your fault Nandes, that woman needs certainty."

"i just realized Marisa, what about now?"

"mean Him?"

both of my hands were taken, and Fernandes looked at me.

"i still love you and love you so much, your name is always etched beautifully in my heart. I don't care about your status, and I'm ready to be the father of Elfata. you want to be my wife?"

Trying to calm down and be reasonable, I slowly drew my hands together, and then looked at Fernandes.

He is indeed the man I like, but not for now.I am not ready to accept the man in my life, because of my deep trauma and bitter past.

"i hope you are joking, you are single, handsome, a famous writer and of course you have achieved a lot.

I am the widow of one Fernandes, what your parents said later, your other family and your colleagues.

no other girl, heartbreak is common, not just because of me, you shut your heart off from the other girl.

wonder, ngaco ah you."

Fernandes' eyes looked so disappointed, and that's what I expected. If Fernandes had gone away from my life.

"i'm not forcing you to answer now, because I realize that it's not just you that I have to approach, there are Elfata who must be ready to accept me as his Papa.

At least give me some time, and later you can judge whether I'm worth it to you or not."

"Males....

Again, please think carefully.There's something you should think about His feelings. Both your parents, and your other families."

"i've been thinking about Marisa, my parents are dead. All this time I've been away from my other family, they never thought about me, so why do I think about their feelings.

Please give me a chance, if Elfata and you can't accept my presence, then later I will go away from you two hdup."

I just nodded in agreement, who knows if it can be a heart later.

Life must go on, there is no harm in opening the door of a heart that has been closed for a long time.

Tried and tested, whose heart knows how it will eventually.

I used to try to survive, even though it failed in the end, maybe because Fahar was not my heart's choice, this time it was the last place to lean.

The children, Nining and Margona, came to us sitting together. Elfata's happiness was perfectly painted on her face.

"it's three o'clock in the afternoon, there's a special show, yuk?"

A call from Fernandes was immediately welcomed by the children, mbak Nining and also Miss Margona.

Our food and drink were paid for by Mr. Nining, and we went straight away.

We rented a car rented by the hotel, and Fernandes drove it.

"what did you show me?"

The slurred Elfata asked Fernandes, so excited and so enthusiastic.

"actually it is a religious ritual, later there will be a kecak dance. oh yes, did Elfata know what the kecak dance?"

"know dong om, the original rope of Bali. his penali was a lot of men and wrapped around the peleli pelwomen.

kca........

that's kind of like, isn't it?"

Fernandes smiled at the reply from Elfata, and admired the cleverness of my son Elfata.

Not long before we arrived at the parking lot, then we wore sarongs and also special sandals.

It was a rule that had been applied, and together we entered the audience area.

There were a lot of other visitors, and we sat in a row.

It looks like Fernandes tried to get close to Elfata, and real it worked. Even Bani also looks familiar with Fernandes.

Elfata and her mas were, seriously listening to Fernandes' explanation of the dance, and the two children were so enthusiastic about listening to Fernandes' explanation.

The show was over and we walked around it.

"om can hold Elfata? "

Without hesitation Fernandes instantly grabbed Elfata's body and placed it on his shoulders.

"thank you, Elfata can see everything?"

"no fear?"

"no, Elfata is a boy."

Fernandes smiled at me, his face looking happy because he was able to get close to my son.

Fernandes is one step ahead, and we keep going and going.

"in front of that there's a very beautiful view, let's go there?"

Pinta Fernandes, and we headed there.

It was really amazing, it was like a beautiful valley and there was a cafe.

"we're all having dinner here, anyone allergic to freshwater fish and crabs?"

Bani listened to Fernandes' question and it seemed like he wanted to ask.

"om what is a fish tawal? and what is an allele?"

Elfata immediately turned to Bani, then smiled while holding her shoulder.

"tawal fish is a fish in the river, or fish that live in a pond, well fish that live in the sea are called sea fish.

the twelveal fish in salted ail, the beginning of the altitude is not salty and there is no lard.

if that allele, hives when we eat something food.that's the explanation of Bani."

"why could that be? why do you have hives when you eat any fish?"

"not knowing Bani, if Fata also does not itch."

Again Fernandes smiled at the chatter of the two lisp boys.

Then Fernandes explained it so patiently, that the two lisp boys understood.

It turns out that the food here is seafood and that package as well, very extraordinary price is fairly cheap for tourist areas in Bali.

Seafood that has been cooked with a tempting sauce, is now presented in front of us. where the seafood is placed on a table that is only based on banana leaves.