
Felix and Jova have arrived at the funeral home. Instantly the sadness was felt in the thick of the morning, where at this time the clock is still directing four mornings the atmosphere was cold and quiet. So that the sense of loss again enveloped them, especially Jova, although it is undeniable that Felix felt loss, a sense of loss when he was left by his mother again felt. Felix rubbed Jova's back, as she sobbed back. "You who are patient well, show Jini that you are sincere and not sad."
Jova nodded weakly, but lying that Jova could be like that showed sincerity and not sadness, as hard as Felix gave advice is still difficult, he said, in the moment just came sadness over control of Jova's feelings. Then how can he be sincere in facing the body of the younger brother?
With a heavy step the couple entered the house where in the house there were many people who prayed for Jini.
The crying broke again when Jova immediately ran over hugging the stiff body of her little sister. Felix was behind Jova and continued to rub his wife's back. "Prophe Jo, you must be sincere and strong" Felix said while Janu and Lasmi just sat leaning against the wall of his house that had been peeling at some point.
Even the two eyes of Lasmi had been very red because she had been crying for her daughter as well as Janu who looked very sad and sorry.
Jova's hand opened the cloth covering her sister's face, where Jini was ready to be buried, her last clothes were neatly attached to Jini's body.
"Jini, why are you lying to me. Why are you staying, Ma'am, if you don't have Mbak will play with whom? Ma'am will tell you who Mbak's problem is, you are the brother and best friend of Mbak, but why did you leave Mbak? Tell me what's the hell without you?" Jova continued to talk to Jini in a quiet voice, as if she was whispering to Jini.
Jova saw Jini's face though pale and lips that had turned blue, but her beauty did not disappear. Jini is indeed a beautiful child, and does not talk much, especially with new people, she said, including Felix he prefers to leave and also chooses to stay in his room rather than being suave and controlling things that are not important. But when with Jova mosquitoes pass by will also be discussed by them.
Memories with Jini continue to be tried to be remembered by Jova to try to mengikhlaskan. Jova continued to talk to Jini, telling her stories from her first time to Jakarta, and working with good friends, and also everything he lived while in Jakarta did not escape from Jova tell me, as if Jini was listening to him. Of course without forgetting Jova also told who the cemong who according to Jova is a creature of God best understands him.
Jova had wanted to tell Jini a long time ago, but the opportunity did not exist, but who would have thought God's scenario was so unpredictable. Jova hasn't told me yet but Jini is gone.
"Jini, Ma'am sorry well, if during your life Mbak there is something wrong with you, honestly at this time Mbak is very confused to start from where without you. You are one of the goals of this hard life."
Felix behind Jova continued to listen to what Jova said that was able to make her heart tremble, which turned out that Jova's fate was also no better than her, Jova was both left behind a valuable person for her. Although it was not until depression like Felix who almost lost his direction due to the departure of his mother.The only person who was very influential on him, with everything related to his life. At that time Felix was depressed because he was confused about what he should do without a mother who had always been an advisor and care for Felix.
The man thinks that without the mother the world is destroyed, and it's true that his life was colorless and there was no spirit until he lost his sympathy and compassion, especially with the first man who was supposed to be a booster for his mother and Felix in fact it is precisely to be the first person to damage the foundation of the mother's defense.
"Bak we buried Jini now well. Jini's last wish has been fulfilled. Your sister just wants to meet you," said Janu with a heavy and hoarse voice.
Jova just nodded weakly. "Pardon Jova because Jova can't help you to keep Jini, sorry Jova is also not there when Jini needs Jova." Again, Jova was more and more sliced when she saw Lasmi who looked very lost. Although Janu and Jova also felt lost but the heart of a woman who gave birth to her baby and saw her baby was lifeless, her destruction was no longer shaped. If anyone says ikhlaskan because it is best for the departed baby and pray for you to regroup later. It feels like a person who has conceived and given birth, wants to ask the Khalik so that at this time he is also found with his baby and gathered again.
The truth is that his heart will be grieving forever. Feeling will not forget the loss of a loved one, it is just a matter of learning to live his face. He will heal and will rebuild his broken self amid a sense of agonizing loss. Life may come back to being whole again, but there will never be the same taste again. Loss will continue to scar and become a wound that continues to scar. The sadness that can not be evaporated again is a very deep sadness. It has reached the point of deepest sorrow. That is what Lasmi is feeling right now.
Not that he did not love Jova and ignored her, but Jini's strong figure and always advised people to be strong in the midst of her own feeling tired of fighting, and she was very tired, make Lasmi remember those memories.
After everything is done, they take Jini to her last home. Maybe this is God's way of protecting Jini.
"God has given so many blessings to my life. Whether it's a pleasure I'm aware of or not. Then the Lord tested me with all my fears, hunger, lack of wealth, soul and feelings. I also gave up on all the tests God had given me. However, I always think back that people who believe certainly believe that the power of God is limitless. Nothing is impossible for God. God can change the problems we face with pleasure, and ease. God can easily treat the sick to be healthy. Until I am again convinced that the power of God will surely come." Jova kept staring blankly at the people who helped bury Jini.
"Why again when I wished so highly and entrusted everything to God, it turned out that God had again given a terrible ordeal, my hope was so intensely crushed that destruction was before my eyes." That's what Jova felt when slowly her little sister's body was piled up with the ground. Even Lasmi has been unconscious since seeing her husband for the last time.
Jova is not not not sad, but she herself still hopes that the miracle of God will come the promise of God will be completely filled with her bang sister. However, he gasped in shock that what he hoped for was sheer futility.
"To Allah only, I complain of my sorrow, and from Allah also I know what I do not know. May the secret you are planning today be a good one for us in the day to come."
"Jini, you're not sick anymore. You've been healed. Maybe this is God's way of healing you. You are now completely healed for as long as you have. Forgive your brother who couldn't be present the last time you wanted to meet you."
"But look at Jini, Ma'am takes you all the way to your new home. May you be happy in there. Until any time the memories with you are the most beautiful memories you will make for a sweet story."
"This you have left us with fond memories, your love, your laughter, and your kindness is still a cure for our tiredness. Even though we can no longer see you with all your misgivings, you will always be in our hearts. Rest in peace, dear brother, be present to us who long for your story even if it is only in a dream."