MY BLOCK OF ICE
I'm guilty too
POV Nadin
My heart feels tight, seeing all my family
after a long time without meeting made me feel guilty. They don't
guilty, but I put a heavy burden on them by abandoning them. I
got a lot of places to go home and complain about my complaints, but it turns out
I was too cowardly to understand their love.
We got home again, but my heart is still not okay. I let him go, I can't forgive him yet.
Even if I could forgive him maybe to classify everything, I'm pretty scared, I'm afraid if I can't. I don't know what I can do later if
I met them, what I would say, and what I would say
inquire.
Mas Rendi left us, he asked his men to accompany me, Ajun. I know Ajun well enough, he's like a little brother to me
mas Rendi, he's still my age, but his abilities can't be doubted.
I saw Rendi go alone, she was probably very busy. I don't know what kind of work they're actually doing
do it, Rendi and Alex.
Baby El was asleep, I took her in and I immediately put her to bed, I looked at the shady face of baby El, that face
it always reminds me of Randy.
“Sayang ..., what is selfish mother?” that's what I always ask the kid, am I being too selfish?
“You will definitely be angry with your mother, because it has set you apart from your father, your mother is not a strong woman, so you can
withholding all the ignitions!”
I sighed again, it felt so heavy that I couldn't contain it. Right or wrong who knows.
I needed certainty, my heart was too weak to keep pretending to be angry and resentful.
“Maybe I can ask Ajun something!”
That's what I'm thinking now, after all this
long ago, why did I think about it.
I'll make sure baby El won't
waking up, I covered him and to his right left I put a pillow and bolster
to sleep better. I kissed her forehead and slowly
put him outside.
Before meeting Ajun I first headed to the kitchen,
I made two glasses of cold drink and immediately I brought to meet Ajun.
“Ajun!”
“Bu Nadin!”
Stand up as soon as I come, I put it
the tray that contained the two glasses of cold fruit juice was on a small table that
separate the two small chairs.
“Sit back ..., I just want to talk
with you alone, don't be so formal!”
“Good, mom!”
I sat back down, and I sat down on the chair
blank.
“How are you?” ask me to open the word.
“I'm good bu!” reply Ajun with his chivalry without diminishing his decisiveness.
“Mas Rendi?”
Listening to my question, the man raised his head. It seems he was surprised I asked that, I just didn't
I thought I was asking that too. Actually, my goal wasn't
to ask that.
“Pak Rendi suffered greatly after the departure of Miss Nadin, he was like a madman looking for you.
Mr. Rendi is in
airport, go abroad, out of town even to places
secluded to find you, Rendi did not even go to work, locked up
himself at his home for weeks, until ...!”
“Until mother Davina gave birth to a daughter ..!”
“Definitely mas Rendi very happy!”
“Iya .., but trust me Miss Nadin. Mr. Rendi is not happy when he finds you and the young master. Mr. Rendi is back
getting his life after such a long time like an undead!”
Really ...., really like that 'do I not hear wrong? Mas Rendi tried hard to look for me, he was also injured when
i'm goin. Am I still so precious in the heart of mas Rendi, or mas Rendi
just wanted his son.
“It's been night, but sorry I didn't let you into the house, it's not nice with the neighbors!”
“No pa pa bu Nadin. I will stand guard in front of the house only!”
“Do Not …! You just go home, it's Mas Rendi's house. He definitely wouldn't mind if you were at his house!” say while
the house in front of my house.
“No pa pa ma'am, I'm here only. Rendi sir
giving responsibility for the safety of Miss Nadin and young master!”
“Alright if you're stubborn, I'll
leave you here, my door I key ya!”
“Iya ma'am!”
Actually not heart, but I also do not want mas Rendi to sleep in my house again like that time. I started walking towards
doorway.
“Bu Nadin!”
I turned to him again, there was doubt in
his eye.
“What?” ask me without changing my position, I just slightly turned my head to be able to see it.
“Sorry if I am too involved in the household life of Miss Nadin and Mr. Rendi, but I just want to say that ...!”
“Tell me, don't hesitate!”
“That Rendi sir never once betrayed Miss Nadin, all this time Madam Nadin just misunderstood!”
My heart trembled at his words, I believed in the man, but why did I not believe in my husband. Then who
what's wrong here? He's my husband or I'm too selfish and too scared
accepted truth.
I just smiled at Ajun, my heart is still not
ready to accept everything. I know Ajun does not lie, even though he is loyal to
mas Rendi but he also thinks of me as his friend.
I left Ajun outside the house with the door locked. I immediately followed Elan to bed, it felt like today was very
length.
I'm trying to figure it all out, the truth
what, if mas Rendi never betrayed me, then mas Rendi did not
married to Davina. Then whose kid is in Davina's sibling?
Where's Brother Davina?
My eyes could not be closed even though I felt very sleepy. My eyes stared at the ceiling of the room, counting every
inch sheets of the ceiling of the room, lizards who run around each other there as if
laughing at how stupid I am that doesn't trust my husband. I was before
never doubted his honesty, but why was I so blinded
by anger.
Until late at night my eyes began to water, poignant. I'm so sleepy. I lay my body down next to Elan. My eyes are getting longer
getting heavier. And subconsciously I began to enter into a dream lam.
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