My Father Misses
Want But Shame 2

"**Ahhh...what do I think, isn't what you're saying true?"

"But Lila! Atan is your best friend. Isn't your principle, best friend is best friend**?"

"Aggggghhhh." My mind is turbulent.

I went straight into my bathroom, cleaned myself up and took a break.

I took my blanket and covered my body that was feeling cold.

I was swept into my subconscious, into the world of dreams.

Beautiful garden, with Atan sitting beside me.

Me and Atan looked so happy, as if this world belonged to just the two of us.

Many girls looked at me with envy, because Atan treated me like a princess.

Atan kissed my hand, stroked my hair, and kissed my forehead.

My eyes are against Atan's eyes, his eyes are so clear and shady. The light of love was clearly in his eyes.

Atan's gaze made me drift in it.

Atan brought himself closer to me, so that I could hear his heartbeat. As if - would our heart beat rhythmically.

Atan kept staring at me, I also blushed in embarrassment.

He held both of my cheeks and lowered his head to align with mine.

His face was getting closer, his red pomegranate-like lips were closing in on me, and....

"Tok..but.tok.."

"Crazy...Lilac...Lila..., let's get up, boy!"

"Crazy...Lila, wake up, kid, you're late for school."

Mom's screams made me realize and I smiled shyly mixed with disappointment with what I had just dreamed.

"Crazy..."

"Yes mom..."

"Wake up, son."

"Yes ma'am, Lila's still collecting lives."

"Where did your life go?" Ask my mother while leaving me.

I laughed when I heard Mom's words.

I poked my eyes still sleepy, and stepped inside my bathroom.

I took off all my clothes and...

Byuuuurr...

I wet my whole body with cold water.

"C.iiiiii..dingiiinnn."

I rubbed rose-scented soap all over my body, I enjoyed the fragrant roses that spread throughout my bathroom.

It feels like therapy, so refreshing.

Makes me linger - long enjoy the smell.

"Crazy...Lila..., let's have breakfast!" Shouting mother.

I also ended my shower, and immediately dried my body and put on my uniform. I tried to get ready as fast as lightning.

I went to the dining room where my father and mother were waiting.

"Good morning dad...."

"Good morning mom..."

I greeted both of my parents.

"By my dear, you look different." Said my father.

"What's different.., Lila's the same as she used to be."

"Today you look radiant - series. No - no?"

"Don't - don't what?"

"Don't your son fall in love again?" Said father with a smile.

"Not really well."

"Ah time?"

"Benaaarrr yah!"

"If you like to say like, don't hide it. Because if the taste is in the damper that there's tightness in the heart." Continue my mother.

I smiled wryly, there was regret in my heart.

"Father and mother..if you say you like it right?"

We laughed out loud - Bahak.

After finishing my breakfast, I said goodbye to my parents.

"Lila say yes!" I said while kissing my parents' hands in turn.

"Today Atan didn't pick you up?" Ask mother.

"Maybe in a minute, ma'am."

Tok.shock.

My door is knocked.

"That must be Atan. Dah..yah, bye...bu."

"Kok you know it's Atan? Open the door first, dear."

"Sheek.cek..indeed it is true that people say, if it is dear; motorpun sound is memorized." Tempting father.

"Dad!"

Mom and Dad laughed out loud.

I went to the living room and opened the door.

Creaaatkk...

"Atan, come!" Take me.

"I said goodbye to your parents, Lila."

"My father and mother still have breakfast and I represent you to say goodbye. So let's go, we'll be late."

"Hmmm..." Atan smiles.

This time Atan's smile was so sweet and so beautiful. Very different than usual.

"Come on!" Take Atan.

Atan drove his bike with his speed, so it did not feel we had arrived at school. Time feels so short, but I still want to linger with Atan.

There was a sense of disappointment flowing in my body.

It didn't feel good when we got to school.

A strange taste, a taste that always berrogoti my heart, a taste that always makes my heart pounding.

But, my principles break everything.

I'd like to say, "I love you Atan." But the word was like it was stuck in my neck, like something was propping it up and forbidding it from coming out through my mouth.

"Please, I parked my bike first."

I nodded in agreement.

Atan and I passed each class, heading to my classroom.

Today is different from the days before, every eye looks at us and talks about us after we have passed them.

The girls looked at me cynically and sirik and there were even some who were jealous of me.

Because Atan is only interested in me, not in them.

"See you for a minute!"

"It's okay."

"Well, there seems to be an increase, "vita.

"What is Vit?"

"Increased PDKTnya, or has changed status huh?"

"From friends to TTM (Friends But Friendly), from TTM to dating." Vita laughs curled up - even though the joke is actually not funny at all.

"About, we're still in office."

But my heart says something else.

"Yes, Atan is my girlfriend."

"I don't know that my principle is that friends are friends."

"Yes, the point is you don't regret it."

"Nyesal why?"

"It's just that if his heart, he leaves it to someone else."

I was silent for a moment through all Vita's words.

My heart doesn't want to lose Atan, I don't want it to give to someone else.

"Well, what's so dumb?" Vita shocked me, from my momentary daydream.

"Who's that begging? I'm just thinking about my grades." I said I lied to Vita.

"What's right?"

"really so. I'm afraid my bill's dropping."

"What are we afraid of, not that we have studied hard?"

"Yes, but sometimes it's too easy to be the result is bad."

"Thankfully at last, Vita doesn't talk about Atan anymore."

"Ahhh..ko talk about value? Aren't we talking about you and Atan?" Tanya vita, who realized that I was switching our conversation.

"You were intentional?" Ask Vita again.

"No really, at first we talked about me and Atan and then we pitched it with value, so!" Obviously me, so that Vita doesn't nag me anymore.

"You always have a good reason."

I smiled, feeling like I was winning. As if - will win a very fierce and tiring fight.

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