My Friend's lover
recognizance
"Darling!!" Yuga holds the door of the room to be closed by Sesa. This time Yuga will not let Sesa avoid, although Yuga already knows about Sesa's feelings for him but Yuga wants to hear directly from the mulu Sesa.
Sesa let go of her hand that was holding the door, however her strength would be inferior to Yuga who was a man.
"Darling, answer the question!!" Yuga held Sesa's hand so that his wife would not avoid him.
"What question!!" Sesa threw away his face.
"Look at Mas!!" Yuga's orders are firm. But Sesa still did not budge. Really this was Sesa's fear all along, if Yuga asked about her feelings.
"Sa princess wiratama, please look at Mas!!" Yuga pressed his voice. Sesa shuddered in fear of hearing that heavy voice and seemed intimidating. Sesa closed her eyes as if resigned. Then turned his face to look at Yuga.
Yuga covers the face that starts to chubby. Staring deeply into Sesa's brown-colored eye bead.
"Mas has said many times that Mas loves you, loves you very much. But Mas never heard a single sentence from your lips if you return this feeling of Mas. Does your silence indicate that Mas's feelings are unrequited? Or do you have another heart? You don't love Mas at all? Is there no name in your heart, dear?" Both eyes were dewy hearing the words that her husband had uttered. The sentence that asked about his heart all this time. Sesa was silent, not unwilling to answer all those questions, but rather Sesa was unable.
"Jawab Mas dear!!" Yuga is pressing his wife. Actually Yuga has got all the answers just by looking at the bead of his wife's eyes full of love. Those teary eyes had already helped him find the answer. But Yuga's heart still wants a transparent answer, which is heard in his ears.
"What kind of answer do you want?" Sesa's voice trembled slightly.
"The answer to your love, your great love for Mas. You can no longer lie to your own feelings, dear. I know that!!" Said Yuga still staring at his wife intensely.
Sesa removed Yuga's hand from her cheek.
"If you know, why are you still asking about it?" Sesa replied coldly, then turned her body was no longer able to face the man she loved so much.
"Since when? Since when do you love me?"
Degs..
The question that had been feared by Sesa, now came out of Yuga's mouth. Sesa's neck seemed choked unable to make a sound.
Yuga held onto Sesa's shoulder and flipped it gently. His wife's face was wet with tears.
"Why haven't you been honest about how you feel? Why hold on to your own feelings for that long?" Yuga's question this time actually makes Sesa's emotions rise.
"Why?? Why did you say??" Sesa stared intently at her husband's eagle eyes.
"Mas aware of Mas's question?" Sesa did not care anymore about his secret that he had been quieting. Yuga guessed it too, right?
"Is it time for me to be honest?" Sesa's mind began to rebel.
"Just ask me why I haven't been honest all this time huh?" Sesa could not bear the burden on her heart all this time.
"What will I gain from my honesty? Was it then that Mas would let Della go and choose me? No right? There was only the look of disdain I got from you Mas. Where there is a woman who declares her love to her best friend's lover. Then only hatred from you will I get from my ridiculous act!!" Sesa wiped the tears with the back of her hand violently.
Yuga tried to grab his wife's hand but was patted by the owner.
"Dear mas_"
"IT'S TRUE I LOVE YOU, I ADMIT IT!! BUT I HATE IT, I HATE IT FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO GET RID OF THAT TASTE EVEN THOUGH I TRIED IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN!! I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTROL MY HEART. I AM FALLING, FALLING, FALLING AGAIN IN THIS PAINFUL LOVE!! Sesa took a deep breath, her breathing was wheezing from screaming in a crying state.
Yuga can no longer bear to hear all that, yuga brings Sesa into his arms. Yuga shook his head gesturing for Sesa not to continue. Yuga's eyes are already watering. His heart ached like a huge stone.
"But if Mas thinks that I wish you to separate then it's wrong. I knew I had to cancel our match, I didn't do it for Della, but I did it for you. I don't want to make the man I love live with me tormented. I was sick to see you with Della, I was also sick of getting your cold treatment, even blatantly rejecting all forms of my attention. But my heart hurts more when I see you're devastated by Della's passing" Sesa took off her husband's arms. Now it was Sesa's turn to stare into Yuga's bead.
"When you come home drunk, when you delirious Della's name in your sleep. You know Mas? I'm tormented. I was slapped by the reality that was before my eyes, that your love I would never get. I never expected my love to be together. Is not letting our loved ones be happy is the highest point in loving someone?"
"I killed my feelings, but I couldn't. I'm sorry Mas, but it's really hard for me to erase all that from the bottom of my heart" Now Sesa said in her soft voice, but it made Yuga's heart even more sliced.
"No dear, I never thought that way. I'm happy when I know you've loved me that long. Forgive me for not being able to realize all that long ago. Mas really a stupid man" Yuga hugged his wife more tightly.
"I'm sorry for always hurting you. Forgive Mas who never realized if there is greater love waiting for Mas, even has long been in front of the eyes of Mas himself" Yuga rubbed softly Sesa's wet cheeks. Sesa shook her head slowly.
"It's not Mas' fault, it's my own fault for bravely loving the wrong person. I_"
"Sstttttt" Yuga clings his index finger to Sesa's lips.
"You're not wrong baby, don't call your love wrong!! You loved Mas long before Mas was with Della. So it wasn't your fault. We are only found back at the wrong time. Don't turn on yourself!! I don't like it!!" Yuga kisses Sesa's lips briefly.
"Then, if Mas had met me first, would Mas have chosen me?" Sesa asked with her trembling lips holding back her cries.
"That might happen. It's not hard to love you, baby. The proof is that you managed to take over the position in the heart of Mas in a short time. Don't ask me why I fell in love with you so quickly. You don't know, you don't have an answer, and you probably never have an answer to that question. All I know is that the world is collapsing, Mas's life is ruined when you are no longer on Mas's side. Thank you dear, thank you for loving Mas sincerely" Sesa increasingly sobbed to hear Yuga's confession. Without hesitation, Sesa hugged her husband's body which felt thinner.
They both cried without breaking his arms. It was as if the cry was an expression of the contents of each other's hearts. Sesa's heart which had been hit by a heavy burden had now decomposed into light. Sesa believes this is the power of God who has written a scenario about his love. Sesa was grateful that God gave her a hard test of love so that Sesa would appreciate love more, so that later Sesa would not easily let go of that love if she remembered how hard she had struggled to get her love.
While Yuga is also very grateful to have been separated from the woman who once stopped in his heart, because now it has been replaced with greater love. The matchless love of a woman now in his arms. There is no stopping Yuga to thank the creator, because it has been met with a woman who loves him so deeply.
"Mas love you dear"
"Sa loves Mas Yuga more"
"Mas know that"
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