MY HEART HAS DIJLEB-JLEBIN YOU
ONIONS

" … Why was I kicked out of their home? Because Mamah didn't tell me that Nia's birth mother was alive!" Monica's cry was heard from the phone connection that was diloud speaker. "And Mamah also did not say that Mamah used to treat Nia that cruel!"

"Ma–"

"Enough," interrupted Monica. "I don't want any explanation from Mamah." Monica ended the call.

Nila's tears spilled, along with her phone screen dimming. In the room of the president-type suite, Nila sobbed without anyone knowing. It's natural that Monica is angry. But for God's sake, Nila also just found out if Nia's real mother is still alive. Because for ten years married to Burhan, Burhan never talked about Nia's birth mother. Yes, although Burhan still holds a portrait of a woman who may be Nia's real mother.

"If I could make time, at that time I would only take pocket money for Nia, Han," said Nila.

*FLASHBACK ON*

" … I picked up Nia first huh, Han. It's late."

Burhan only nodded in response to Nila as he ran carrying the freshly washed meatball bowl.

"wait around. I don't have a dime. Tau itself is Friday. Must be a lot of trade in the mosque. Nia can't possibly ask for a snack."

"That's my wallet behind the tv" Burhan replied at last. "Backpocket yes. Bantuin wrap sambel," said Burhan finally.

"Yes-yes."

Nila searches for Burhan's wallet at the place she was told. At first Nila only took a few pieces of money two thousand, but he was fad to see the garbage receipts, sim, and photos stored under the photocopy ktp. Bak is struck by lightning in the rainstorm, Instantly Nila falls down while knowing the photo Burhan saved is a photo of a young woman who is very beautiful. Burhan who realized it was also reflex to snatch his wallet.

"Who, Han?"

"Nobody." Burhan folded the photo and put it back in place.

"Can you not throw it away even you keep it simple again? In front of my eyes?"

"Let's talk about this." Burhan pocketed his wallet. "Now please pick up Nia first."

"Pick it up yourself."

"Nil. Ja–"

"It turns out that what I've been thinking about all this time is not just prejudice. You've never loved me, Han." Nila started crying. "The color of the woman, right? Who's she?"

"Judah, I'm the one who picked up Nia. Please keep the stall for a while te–"

"Dear yourself! That's your shop! That's your son! Take care of yourself!"

Since then, Nila has changed. Disappointed, jealous and hurt, without hesitation Nila bestowed on Nia. Nia who was still sitting on a kindergarten bench was often beaten by Nila without Burhan's knowledge. Not infrequently even Nia was often given stale food. But worse than that, when Nila bampit bring Nia to have fun, Nia instead entrusted to the lonely widower who often gives an ambiguous touch to Nia.

PLAQUES

"So bad you are."

Nia just rubbed her arm that Nila had just hit with a rice pitcher.

"Don't waste food. Take a bite to eat."

"But it's stale Mamah. It stinks," Nia replied at last. "I want to eat that rice." Nia pointed at Nila's dinner plate.

PLAQUE

"It looks like this is a long-time child. Eating splinters. It was afternoon. Ferdi is also waiting."

Nia who could not stand the heat all over her body was finally forced to bribe the stale rice. "I don't want to be the same Om Ferdi, Mah. I want to be home."

"Heh, your father knew you were out with Mamah. How does the story go if the one who was invited even at home?"

"Mmm, if so, mmm, I'll just hang in the closet until Mamah gets home."

Nila was silent for a moment, but slowly grinned. "Can too. But if you get out before Mamah comes home how?"

Nia nodded quickly. "I'm not going to make a promise."

"Promise your rich brat where to be trusted. Mamah agrees not to nitipin you in Ferdi again from Mamah key's closet."

"Mmm, that's, mmm, but later I can't breathe, Mom."

Nila returned to grinning. "Judah, that's dead!"

PLAQUE PLAQUE PLAQUE

*FLASHBACK OFF*

" … But you laugh, call me Mamah and praise me in front of Burhan. Even though I have made you suffer every day," said Nila with increasingly crying. "Sorry Mom, Nia."

...•▪•▪•▪•▪•...

Ikbal clicked, "Grotto mummification."

It was the curse of countless Ikbal swears that I had several times. Ikbal who had stood looking at the door of Nia and Ushi's room alternately finally gave up and went down to the first floor. Perhaps a can of cold soda could clear Ikbal's brain so it soon came up with a way to comfort Nia and Ushi. But the brain that is only crowded with ninja fruit games and a series of dreadlocks for women is really not working even though it has been sprayed two cans of cold soda!

Not without reason Ikbal said that. Bunga, Ikbal's lover who is a fanatical fan of Zaim, almost always talks about his idol. Gradually Ikbal became to know Zaim what kind of person. Even Ikbal was willing to disable his phone in order to find out the origin of the pseudonym Zaim in Zet, by reading a novel called JUST KILL ME. If Zaim does not mind likening himself to the main character of the man in the novel, it means Zaim is indeed a bucin psychopath!

"Flooding. How's nih? Where on the balloons eat malem again."

CLAMPS

"Eh, Mum?" ikbal said, hurriedly moving when he heard the sound of the door opening. "Where are you going, Mom? Not in Taiwan, right?"

"Do not waste money just to meet dajjal. Meet your father is the same." Ushi locked the door of her room. "Mom's going to get out for the wind."

"Do you want me to go to China?"

"No need. You're at home just take care of Nia."

"Mom."

Spontaneous Ushi turned around. "Hm?"

"That, don't think too much about Mother even sick. And then yaudah sincerely. After all, we want to regret how rich it will also not be changed right. What matters is the present that we can still change as we wish."

"You rhymed the words from google what is motivator?"

"But, Mother. People are serious too."

Ushi continued his steps while chuckling. "Yes-yes. Thanks for that. Yaudah Mother's street. The gate doesn't need a key."

Ikbal did not reply, only looking at Ushi until his back was gone from behind the door. Ikbal knew Ushi was lying because Ushi's goal was not to simply seek the wind but to make a pilgrimage. On a pilgrimage to the navel of her first and last love, Burhan. Ikbal knew not from the all-black clothes that Ushi wore but from the look of his eyes that seemed impatient to want to immediately rampage, roar, and spill his exclamation that was missed excited.

Ikbal glanced at Nia's room. "That girl can't kill herself, right? He is not strong. Uh, but if he's tired of how anjir is."

"Room?"

Ikbal. "Eh? Aye? Brother Zaim?"

"Where are you going gini?"

"Zi- uh, that means wind." Ikbal smiled forcefully in response to Zaim. "For a time, Brother."

"Oh. Are you eating?"

"Belom-belom." Ikbal helps Zaim carry a plastic package of food. "It's really laper again, sister."

"Jude eating. Where's nia?"

"In the room, brother. But he's sleeping hard."

"So long?"

"She may sleep spit."

"That's yeah. What can you do if that. Can I pinch the toilet back?"

"Come, Brother." Ikbal heaved a sigh of relief shortly after Zaim entered the toilet. "Almost aja. Du–"

BRACKET

"Pithecanthropus erectus, big news! You must be a belom know, right? Si Nia, the steel-strong Nia is na–"

"Sstttt." Spontaneous Ikbal smothers Vina's mouth. "Duh should've been the cave's the conci gate."

"What the hell." Vina brushed off Ikbal's hand. "You should be enthusiastic dong. An Elvina Priska who is always busy in the mall week until martial arts came here. That means there's big news. Nih denger ya ma–"

"Diem-diem."

"Lu why the hell is anjir." Vina again brushed off Ikbal's hand while running up to the second floor. "My guy just wanted to say that Nia has a really cute stepbrother. The same turns out nia Nia whose name is Nila is crazy know not. Time Nia persecuted …"

Ikbal gives up on stopping Vina. Because no matter if Zaim is currently turning on the tap or flushing the closet, he can certainly hear clearly the voice of Vina who is eleven twelve with campaign speakers.

" … Nia has been beaten by TK anjir. Pantsesan pas Pas TK skinny very rich continue to be sick. It turns out that Nia is not only beaten but also given stale rice. Keep it worse what is co–"

CLAMPS

"What, Vin?" ask Zaim who just came out of the toilet. "What's worse?"

"Who? Za, uh, Brother Zaim?"

"Yes this is me. Try continuing your story. What's worse that Nila's been dealing with in Nia?"

"Nia was often pinned down in her nyokap cement house which she said liked to hold Nia," Ikbal replied, representing Vina who was speechless because she was too surprised.

Zaim turned to Ikbal. "Continue?"

"Keep Brother when do you want to go to Taiwan? Tickets please pesen two. Make me one."